I'm really hurting. I need support so badly. I can't comfort myself. I'm very lonely. I don't know what it's like to have someone to be honest with and get support from in a personal relationship, only professional relationships, and I don't have professionals I can confide in other than my CPN right now. No one truly cares about me. No one wants me in their life. Professionals see me because it's their job. I am not valuable or important. I need more. I'm sorry. I should grow up.
I need out of life. I don't want to keep facing up to this every single day. I am so desperate but not clear about how to succeed in killing myself so I'm still trapped here in agony. This needs to end. My life needs to end.
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