That night didn't end well...at all.
Wine just catalysed an already disrupted situation I'm trying to suppress for practical reasons. And boom went everything for the night.
I slept for 2 days and 2 nights straight and have since been feeling much better. Must be taking effect a bit now. I am waking early and have energy andcan concentrate and feel less socially anxious and more confident and able and generally in a better place.
*fingers crossed it lasts*