I slipped up
So it's been over two years but I cut again.
Honestly I'm not even sure why, yeah I'm not ecstatically happy but equally I'm not down. That need just came from nowhere. There was a moment before, when I could see why was happening and thought I could call someone or come online but I guess I let it rule me for a but. Thinking about it I'm not even sure I let it,I wanted to do it so I did.
I just don't understand why,after all that time when I really haven't thought about it for about a year, it suddenly popped up.
It's just made me wonder, I thought it was all over and done with and now it seems I'm right back where I was.
I know this isn't a positive or helpful message but I'm just so upset with myself, I just did it without even trying to stop myself.
Last edited by themeanreds : 16-05-2012 at 12:25 AM.
Reason: Typo
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