Thank you for your replies, I'm sorry I can't properly acknowledge them.
The med I have can cause respiratory depression and coma first of all in an overdose. I get to sleep very quickly so I could sleep through all that and never wake up. Seriously considering it. I see nowhere to turn. I can't phone NHS 24, I wouldn't go to A&E because that's a step too far. I'd like to talk to my CPN first but when she phoned on Friday and asked if I had any plans for suicide over the weekend I said no because I didn't. I don't want to hold on and bother her on Monday because she always has a lot of scheduled calls to make. That would mean holding on till Tuesday. I'm sick of holding on and holding off. I burned again over my burn but that's not enough. This is what my whole life is like.
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