The assessment went okay i guess. Although I am frightened. They seem ultra strict especially with what items your allowed. Your not allowed your mobile if it has a camera or access to the internet. internet access on the computer has to be supervised. morning meds is at 7am!
but it gave me a bit of hope. i came back to the ward the other day and cried thinking how things could have got so bad that i need to go to specialist ip again but im trying to view it positively that it will help me regain some control.
im really frightened about integrating with the other girls though, thats the thing scaring me the most right now.
sounds like a good place though. you dont get leave taken away if you self harm as they dont want to institutionalise people it only happens if self harm is severe. but i dont know their definition of severe.
im gonna give it my all. according to staff on the ward im not ready to go because my psychosis isn't under control.... problem is the Researchers are real and will never go so i have no idea whats going to happen. i gotta wait to hear back from them to see if im accepted but my social worker said its like 99% sure ill go there.
your allowed your own tv and i can bring my playstation and dvds which is good. im gonna have to buy one of the old kindle type ones that dont have cameras so i can read as i have loads of kindle books on my tablet (i cant take the tablet due to the camera). She said they give you a phone so you can contact people but you need to put credit on it. if there are rules regarding times you can use the phone ill probably end up just using credit, if not ill try and get a rolling contract thing that you can end after a month.
sorry for rambling
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