You always shut me up and never let me talk when I try! You say I use self deprication as a coping strategy but I'm this way because you never give me space to express myself unless it's light hearted or I'm offering you advice.
Just shut me up again so you could sleep but now I fucking can't and am silent crying so not to ruin your day further. I apologise for being a stain on your ideal life! I wish it had never happened that I'd moved out at 18 so you could get a man and have a better time and was more able to spend money on yourself.
But you know what, I know my story I've never told it in full but I wish I could because I'm thirty next year and the perpetrators who made my life a living hell stole my life from me, they stole my innocence, my hope and fractured my mind. I don't recall much of the last ten years and it's not improved much, my life is hopeless and im sick of fighting every darned day to please you in whatever way is necessary to get by.
I just want peace, I'm tired
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