I didn't self harm for as long as you have, but I can relate to feeling like you'll never be OK!
I went through a load of different anti-depressants and had a lot of failed attempts at counselling and treatment before things started to improve for me. It took a lot of effort on my part, and the good fortune of finding really fantastic friends (and my girlfriend), but I did get there in the end and I honestly feel like a completely different person!
In what way do you feel like you're broken? Are you under a mental health team at the moment? I know it feels like such a pointless exercise at this stage, but I would urge you to keep trying- try another medication, try another type of therapy, try making different changes in your life until you find the combination that really works for you.
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