Earlier in your threads you said that you wanted to study abroad at some point. I strongly encourage you to use that as a way to keep away from drugs. Getting caught with drugs I am sure will go on some kind of record.
Your sister having been through addiction herself knows the path and how hard it is to get off if you go too far down. It sounds like you are farther down the path but not to the point that one would call you and addict. GET OFF NOW!!!
You are going to be going to CBT and have some promising things coming up. SI doesn't do it for you anymore because you have a future!! Drugs make you feel good for a bit then you need more and then they stop working so you need to move onto something else (new drug, combo's etc.) I bet it sounds familiar.
I hope I am not speaking out of turn but you most likely have an addictive personality. SI is an addiction of sorts. It is a quick and easy fix to somehting that is wrong.
Those people who left you in London will leave you out to dry. They do not seem like the people that will make sure you are ok if you pass out or throw up. Get away from them.
I know I don't know all that much about you. I just see so much of me and my friends when we were in high school in you. A few of us were lucky and stopped, got it together and are trying and some are doing amazing!! Others didn't and are still battling addiction and VERY poor choices made during or just after that time.
I am glad you are starting to see them as pathetic. Keep your plans in the front of your mind. Good luck
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