Hun, i have an ED and do SI ive also OD'ed a few times. Hospital is not fun. Its very lonely and boring. The one ive been in makes me feel worse and very alone. I hate it! Ive never been in hospital becasue of my ED but having an ED which is known about is hard in hospital becasue they strong suggest that i eat, and there have been times where ive almost been put on section becasue of it.
You said that you've had friends who have been in hospital for ED and im guessing they may have been tubed... ask them about it i bet they would tell you how horrible it is. Last night i was babysitting and watched a baby have a tube put down she was crying so much- apparently it really hurts and isnt pleasant. Do you really want that just to feel like you fit in. I know what its like to want to fit in, to want someone to see that you're not really that ok.... but going into hospital is only going to get you negative attention hun and chances are it could become a cycle and people will get sick of it.
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