I know I shouldn't feel anything towards you anymore. I've been with my wonderful boyfriend for over 2 years, and I'm madly in love with him. I plan on marrying him someday. I definitely wanna have his kids! But, when I see you, I still get nervous. I hate not talking to you. I NEED to talk to you. You NEED to be a constant in my life, and that really confuses me. I don't like you, not really...not in that way at least. I couldn't. But... we have a lot of history between us (technically, less than a year of junk, but it felt like a lot longer)... and sometimes, all that resurfaces. You are the only one who ever hurt me romantically. You were the only one I turned to when I was hurt. You seemed to love pulling me in and then pushing me away, and you still do that...just not in the same way. I'm tired of it. I so want to delete you from my life, but it's impossible at this point. I couldn't. I wouldn't.
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