[MistressOfMisery]

I am really loosing it at the moment. I have not had the best of days today, I am feeling out of control, and I just want to be sick, I know I shouldnt, but i just want it so bad right now, more then anything. But I can not, my mum is home and she already suspects something...

I know I will have to wait atleast an hour before I move from this couch but I honestly dont think I can, but I know I must, I can not be found out... I can bearly hear the tv, I feel nauseas, I can feel myself shaking from within, I just need something to keep me going for another 56 more minutes...