Hey Felicia,
What do you think you get out of binging? Why do you think you may want to continue it?
I know how you feel, because when I began recovering from binging I too was really worried about falling into restriction - I still am, and I do still have to monitor it as I go on. But I think your cautious of it is a good thing because it means you're aware - and, you don't want to get there which is good - so you can work on eating properly = no binging & no restricting.
Easier said than done, right?
Maybe some meal plans would help you, if you don't skip them, to make sure you're getting enough but not too much. I wonder if a dietician could arrange one for you? If your support system is good then maybe it's worth talking to them about some strategies.
Also, as for the binges, maybe it's worth having a look here (
Complusive Over Eating / Binge Eating ) at point for for some strategies about trying to stop binges. For me, to help avoid both stopping binges and stopping restriction, I found it really helpful to write down the reasons WHY I didn't want to do either. Restriction ruined my life and uni and friendships etc, and binging ruined my self confidence and skin and social life - and I recognised that all these things were more important than the "high" I got from binging.
Also I made a list similar to this one:
How does binging make you feel?, but expanded on my own private one quite a lot, to try and really figure out why I was binging the way I was, and the substitute something else to try and have the same effect.
But certainly, do speak with your support team because they could monitor you too and make sure you don't restrict also? Remember also that restriction breeds binges.
Keep talking, we're here for you
xxxxxx