I can understand what you're going through: when I first started all I would do would be to bend back my fingers. It then progressed to using a fingernail to piece my skin and then onto knives. This is why self harm is so dangerous, however small and insignificant it is to start with, it becomes a much greater problem. Some people say that Self Harm is like an addiction in this way, in that you constantly want more and more. I would certainly suggest getting medical help if things carry on as they are. You may feel that you can cope but it's wroth getting a professional opinion: perhaps a GP or nurse? Are you having counseling or some form of help for your self harm? If not, I would definitely recommend it before things get even worse. Often you may think that you're in control of your behavior but if you find yourself going deeper and deeper you're going to permanently and seriously damage yourself. Don't be afraid to ask for help: you CAN get out of this, it doesn't have to get worse.
Best of luck, feel free to pm anytime,
Take care,
Naomi
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