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Forum: Mental Health Discussion and Support 16-03-2017, 05:54 PM
Replies: 1
Views: 841
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Uncertainties about seeking better help

It's been a while since I've been on these forums, but I feel like this may be a good first stop.

I am 25 years old and have been suffering with mood swings, depression, and anxiety since I was...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 16-12-2015, 05:26 AM
Replies: 3
Views: 727
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Fail?

The last time I cut myself was on December 3, 2010- just over five years ago. Sometimes, the thought that it's been that long is completely overwhelming.

Right now, it looks like I have a rash on...
Forum: General Support and Advice 02-07-2012, 04:20 AM
Replies: 1
Views: 344
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
How do I get over my fear/ distrust of counselors?

I have been struggling with mild to major depression (including suicidal thoughts, cutting, and other self-destructive thoughts) since I was about 7. I just turned 21 on Friday.

When I was 11 and...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 20-10-2011, 03:28 AM
Replies: 2
Views: 385
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Important The things that "aren't a big deal."

Last year I relapsed and started cutting again after being clean for over two years.

It's been 10 1/2 months since I last cut.

However, I've been doing little things like snapping elastics on my...
Forum: Creativity and Reviews 20-10-2011, 03:03 AM
Replies: 0
Views: 341
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Pen Temporary Feeling (March 5, 2011)

Temporary Feeling? (March 5, 2011)

There’s a star for each time
my heart’s been broken in surrender.
And if I could cry
my tears could fill the seas.
And I’ve heard the call of freedom.
I’ve felt...
Forum: General Support and Advice 14-10-2010, 01:11 AM
Replies: 21
Views: 1,385
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
The only real SI symbolism is a little bit of the...

The only real SI symbolism is a little bit of the color orange. Everything else represents beauty, strength, my passion for writing, etc. True, SI is a huge factor in that... but so are a lot of...
Forum: General Support and Advice 13-10-2010, 09:28 PM
Replies: 21
Views: 1,385
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Tattoos

I posted this in the SI thread before, but I thought I'd repost in a thread that more people will see... since this subject isn't just SI related.

I was wondering if anybody has or is planning on...
Forum: Creativity and Reviews 01-10-2010, 05:53 AM
Replies: 1
Views: 345
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Insane

Insane (February 28, 2010)

To think I put my faith in hope
I must have been insane
to think that anybody cares;
to think that anybody feels my pain.

Here am I with my burdens
my blood did not...
Forum: Creativity and Reviews 30-09-2010, 11:43 PM
Replies: 0
Views: 349
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Heart Purpose (November 30, 2009)

Finding myself again
alone with no purpose.
There's no reason to hope.
My dreams are just worthless.

What can I do?
How can I reach with these words that I write?
Can my simple prayers and...
Forum: Mental Health Discussion and Support 30-09-2010, 03:36 AM
Replies: 41,517
Views: 1,158,940
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
The primary reason I'm thinking bipolar isn't as...

The primary reason I'm thinking bipolar isn't as big of an issue is that my mood swings, etc are more random and sudden. I'll go from being fine to really depressed to fine again in a matter of...
Forum: Mental Health Discussion and Support 30-09-2010, 12:09 AM
Replies: 41,517
Views: 1,158,940
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
I started my research by looking just at the...

I started my research by looking just at the symptoms, etc. BPD kept popping up. I only started looking more into detail at BPD when I saw I was fitting the criteria based on symptom searches.
Forum: Mental Health Discussion and Support 29-09-2010, 10:28 PM
Replies: 41,517
Views: 1,158,940
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
I know that I can't self-diagnose. I'm just...

I know that I can't self-diagnose. I'm just saying that when I look up information I answer "yes" to almost every question asked. Of course, I also fit a lot of the labels for Bipolar Disorder...
Forum: Mental Health Discussion and Support 29-09-2010, 04:18 PM
Replies: 41,517
Views: 1,158,940
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
I bought myself a necklace (that says...

I bought myself a necklace (that says "Hope" and "Jeremiah 29:11-14" and a pearl bracelet (that broke) when I made it to 2 years. I relapsed a couple days ago, but I'm still planning on getting a new...
Forum: Mental Health Discussion and Support 29-09-2010, 05:34 AM
Replies: 41,517
Views: 1,158,940
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
I'll be honest. I hate posting in these long...

I'll be honest. I hate posting in these long threads because I feel like my post is going to just get lost.

In October of 2009, I briefly talked to my doctor about some issues I was having (self...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 27-09-2010, 03:51 AM
Replies: 8
Views: 405
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
788 days. That's over two years... and I...

788 days.

That's over two years... and I "relapsed" (It makes me feel a little better... like I just stumbled... I didn't completely fail). I probably cut myself three or four times since yesterday...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 25-09-2010, 05:59 AM
Replies: 5
Views: 361
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Even clear polish is out? What if you get one of...

Even clear polish is out? What if you get one of those cheap ($1.00 at Walmart, etc) 7-way nail buffer things. That way you can take the time to file, smooth, buff, and shine the nails. Heck, while...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 25-09-2010, 05:56 AM
Replies: 2
Views: 471
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
788 Days Clean... Why isn't it any easier?

I'll admit it. I'm not one of those people who spent years cutting in secrecy. When I was younger, I had some tendencies. I used to pull out my hair, or when I was nervous/stressed (especially in 7th...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 18-08-2010, 08:01 PM
Replies: 20
Views: 6,127
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
I would love to get one that was just centered...

I would love to get one that was just centered around recovery, but I'm not sure if or when I'll be comfortable explaining a lot of my struggle.... with emotional/verbal abuse, depression/bipolar...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 18-08-2010, 04:47 PM
Replies: 20
Views: 6,127
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
My main goal is to find a location where I can...

My main goal is to find a location where I can show it off, but it won't be difficult to cover it for work, etc. Something on the ribcage won't be shown off since I NEVER EVER EVER wear anything that...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 18-08-2010, 04:29 AM
Replies: 20
Views: 6,127
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Well, mine is really more about writing than SI....

Well, mine is really more about writing than SI. I want to get a tattoo that has a lot of meaning... my love of writing, my birthday, favorite verses, etc... and then underneath that in some deeper...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 17-08-2010, 09:45 PM
Replies: 20
Views: 6,127
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Well, I'm not 100% about size or location. I...

Well, I'm not 100% about size or location. I don't want it to be TOO big or TOO small... I want a nice balance in size. I sent a local tattoo shop an email with some questions about getting more...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 17-08-2010, 07:10 PM
Replies: 20
Views: 6,127
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Mine really isn't all about SI/Depression. The...

Mine really isn't all about SI/Depression. The overall design is about my writing and the symbolism of strength that comes from pain. The actual SI/Depression symbolism is just in some color choices...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 17-08-2010, 05:40 PM
Replies: 20
Views: 6,127
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
Heart Recovery Tattoo

I have been struggling with depression for as long as I can remember... probably since before I was able to pinpoint it (I usually attributed it to being lonely because nobody in elementary school...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 20-04-2009, 02:48 AM
Replies: 0
Views: 346
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
I Feel Like I've Already Failed

I have this strange peace right now. It's kind of that feeling of peace that is also full of so much pain.

I haven't actually cut myself. But the urges have been so bad lately. I've gone back to...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 19-04-2009, 08:18 PM
Replies: 131
Views: 4,257
Posted By XXIVXXIXXI
I was in counseling during the summer.I didn't...

I was in counseling during the summer.I didn't really want to do it. It meant my parents had to find out about everything. Sometimes, I'm still mad at my youth pastor for telling them. For once I...
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