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Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 27-08-2013, 01:57 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 465
Posted By abba12
Urgent help? please?

I was badly badly triggered tonight. I told my husband I was suicidal
We then got into an argument about the trigger, and he has left...

Trying to hold on, but struggling so much...
Forum: Abuse and Bullying Support 16-08-2013, 01:46 AM
Replies: 2
Views: 589
Posted By abba12
Can I get an outside opinion? (long)

Hi all, sorry for posting twice in two days, I seem to be having a week of revelations and putting puzzle pieces together, but unfortunately, that also results in a week of meltdowns. I guess I am...
Forum: Abuse and Bullying Support 15-08-2013, 10:53 PM
Replies: 2
Views: 544
Posted By abba12
She moved away with her boyfriend and took my...

She moved away with her boyfriend and took my siblings. I was told never to call again and treatened by her boyfriend. Its been almost 4 years since i heard her voice, two and a half since i last saw...
Forum: Abuse and Bullying Support 14-08-2013, 11:19 PM
Replies: 2
Views: 544
Posted By abba12
She knew...

My head is spinning with some realizations that have just come to me. Do you ever get that? You've known something for years, but finally you realize you've known it all this time.

My mother knew....
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 06-06-2013, 06:37 AM
Replies: 3
Views: 424
Posted By abba12
what have i done...

I made it through fights and the first years of marriage
I made it through three anniversarys which were so hard i was hospitalised one year and spent two days hallucinating this year.
I made it...
Forum: Veterans Board 27-05-2013, 02:40 AM
Replies: 4
Views: 702
Posted By abba12
Made it through for another year... Spent days at...

Made it through for another year... Spent days at mother in laws house, which wasn't exactly pleasant, but it kept the kids safe and that was the most important thing. She tried to be helpful in her...
Forum: Veterans Board 23-05-2013, 03:01 AM
Replies: 4
Views: 702
Posted By abba12
Not sure if I can hold on much longer...

I haven't posted here in a long time, but I used to be here a lot, I even used the Plumeria as one of my wedding flowers! I think even after this hard time I might try coming back on to veterans...
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 16-05-2013, 11:48 PM
Replies: 16
Views: 553
Posted By abba12
Well enough. But she doesn't know me well enough...

Well enough. But she doesn't know me well enough and I am struggling to be patient until she does. I am very self aware and have educated myself in therapies and mental illness, so when we spend half...
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 16-05-2013, 06:34 AM
Replies: 16
Views: 553
Posted By abba12
I hate liars and people who will tell you the...

I hate liars and people who will tell you the ideal instead of reality.

This friend insists he wants to help me, wants to chat more, wants to support me... in between watching TV and working on his...
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 16-05-2013, 12:47 AM
Replies: 16
Views: 553
Posted By abba12
Two incidents are in my mind, alternating... It's...

Two incidents are in my mind, alternating... It's almost like they're happening at once in my head. I want to describe it, so I'm not so alone anymore, but I don't trust anyone. No one will...
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 15-05-2013, 11:40 PM
Replies: 16
Views: 553
Posted By abba12
is it wrong to pray that someone kills me,...

is it wrong to pray that someone kills me, because it would hurt others less than killing myself.

please let me die... i dont want to fight anymore. I have fought for so long, It's been 5 years...
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 14-05-2013, 11:56 PM
Replies: 16
Views: 553
Posted By abba12
I suffered severe long term abuse, the 25th of...

I suffered severe long term abuse, the 25th of May is the day I was freed, but even that was both the best and worst day of my life because of events surrounding it. It's not a time to celebrate, I...
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 14-05-2013, 03:18 AM
Replies: 16
Views: 553
Posted By abba12
I dont want to. i relive things on the 25th and i...

I dont want to. i relive things on the 25th and i just dont want to again this year. im not strong enough... why cant i sleep till june

I suppose i will though, like i always have
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 14-05-2013, 02:42 AM
Replies: 16
Views: 553
Posted By abba12
Just spent the past hour looking at suicide...

Just spent the past hour looking at suicide methods... damn this has sent me in a downward spiral...
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 14-05-2013, 01:22 AM
Replies: 16
Views: 553
Posted By abba12
I don't let myself feel much emotion towards most...

I don't let myself feel much emotion towards most of what happened because I couldn't cope if I did, which in many ways belittles and makes light of things that have occurred. i guess sometimes I...
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 14-05-2013, 12:54 AM
Replies: 16
Views: 553
Posted By abba12
I have worked for years to not blame myself. I...

I have worked for years to not blame myself. I had gotten to a point where I was almost ready to accept it wasn't my fault, but I needed someone elses confirmation, someone to tell me I was right. I...
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 13-05-2013, 02:21 AM
Replies: 4
Views: 340
Posted By abba12
They didn't feel right because you know this time...

They didn't feel right because you know this time they won't help, the emotional release isn't there for either of us because people like us know what it's like leaving self harm, we won't get...
Forum: Serious Discussion and Advice 13-05-2013, 02:04 AM
Replies: 16
Views: 553
Posted By abba12
Rambling thoughts, I don't understand these feelings.

I was a self harmer for years, I can't give a number because it's hard to tell where I crossed the line into beginning, but it was certainly constant for at least 3 years and on-and-off after that. I...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 22-03-2013, 02:21 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 400
Posted By abba12
He finally clued in, now he's refusing to go to...

He finally clued in, now he's refusing to go to bed, which is probably exactly what I need, even if right now it makes me want to hurt myself even worse. By the time he goes to bed I will probably...
Forum: Veterans Board 22-03-2013, 02:19 PM
Replies: 5
Views: 542
Posted By abba12
I'm sorry to hear that... Can you find a...

I'm sorry to hear that... Can you find a distraction?
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 22-03-2013, 02:01 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 400
Posted By abba12
Helplines in Australia are understaffed, it would...

Helplines in Australia are understaffed, it would take 30 minutes at an absolute minimum to get anyone on the line. As for friends, don't have any that know me well enough. I guess I could email my...
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 22-03-2013, 02:00 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 400
Posted By abba12
Husband woke up and is talking to me, but is only...

Husband woke up and is talking to me, but is only making it so much worse. He knows, but he doesn't always understand. He expects more from me than I can possibly give.
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 22-03-2013, 01:43 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 400
Posted By abba12
please...

please...
Forum: Veterans Board 22-03-2013, 01:32 PM
Replies: 5
Views: 542
Posted By abba12
...can I help you?

...can I help you?
Forum: Self-Harm Discussion and Support 22-03-2013, 01:14 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 400
Posted By abba12
Slipping...

I've been SI free, with a few slip ups, for about 3 years now. I can hardly believe it's been that long
But I've come into a triggering situation in the past month and I'm barely holding on. Tonight...
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