I just quit my job - Was this a stupid thing to do?
 

Okay, so I had a great job as a Life guard. However I also have a very unstable up/down personality and do things very impulsively without thinking about them (didn't contemplate quitting my job until yesterday)

I have just successfully come of my medication (prozac) however this has made me even more flitting around from one plan to the next. Part of me doesn't want the job because I don't want the money cause I'm spending it all on cocaine, speed and tickets to crazy parties which don't do my mental health any good.

I just want time to rest, read books and train for my half marathon, oh and sort my head out before starting Uni in September. But I send this long stupid text to my boss telling her I was suicidal. I feel really ****, cause my family are amazing and I know so many people with horrible lives who can still hold down a job but I'm rubbish.

Do you think I'm justified in what I did, or do you think I just need a slap and to stop being so impulsive? Also, should I tell my parents about my drug problemo? Just so they don't hate me for quitting? Or not? :notsure:

Have you thought about seeking professional support?

Do I really need it though? I can stop using drugs, so I mean what could anyone do for me? I've seen a psychiatric nurse before, they put me on meds which slowed down my thinking. Plus I don't want therapy. I'm just curious about if this was a silly thing to do?

I have to admit a lot of your behaviour does seem a bit impulsive.

I don't this it's necessarily a silly thing. If you still have enough money to get by without your job then maybe in a way it's a good thing because it will help with stopping the drugs like you said.

Yes there are people with horrible lives, but I always say don't compare yourself to them, because everyone struggles in different ways, and people manage things differently.

Maybe open up to your family about the drugs and about how you are feeling, because although they may be angry at first, family can often offer good support. You say you could easily come off them, but knowing alot of people who use drugs, they all say there will be times when temptation hits, and if you have the support of your family it may be easier to manage.

It could be worth having a chat with your GP about how you are feeling, even if you don't want medication or therapy, they may be able to recommend some things that could help.