Feeling of death.
 

I cannot shake the feeling of wanting to die. All I can think about is self harm and dying. It is starting to scare me it is that bad...

Why do you think your feeling this bad?

I do not know but it seems to get worse as the day goes on. I barely want to eat or sleep anymore. (not that I could sleep anyways but still)

"He does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the Earth, so great is His love for those who fear Him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us." Psalms 103:10-12

Please don't take offense to this, there have been plenty of times in my life when I have felt the same way. Remember that no one would be better off without you in their lives. To take your mind off of your struggles try doing Yoga. It's a great body/spirit/mind exercise.

You are beautiful and special because God made you who you are.

maybe you could could plan something into your routine before bed each night that is pleasant, or meaningful to you, to help give you something to look forward to..

At passed expectations: I guess but it still doesn't not help I ahve felt like this for a while and nothing is helping any more I just want to die and At Enchanted1: I tired yoga I am horrible at balance so I always fall

If you're interested in yoga before bed, this video is excellent and really relaxing. No standing up required so no falling!! I love this YouTube channel, Bex is pretty inspiring. She also has some meditation videos which you might find helpful.

[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mVplw5bHFKE"]YOGA For Bedtime : Work It Out Wednesday - BEXLIFE - YouTube[/ame]

Can you distract yourself from thinking about death? Are there any films or shows you can watch that might help?

Also, I find that just getting out of the house really helps. Once someone gave me the advice to go on a walk and become hyper aware of everything around you. Sit on a bench: feel how it feels under your hands. What is the texture? What colour is it? Breathe in: how does it feel? I really like these kind of exercises as it is a good way to remind you of how amazing the world is, and it kind of grounds me while letting me get away from my thoughts a bit?

i could try i do not know i am just ready to give up and give in everything is getting worse my life sucks and i just want to end it to make everything end i am just hanging by a thread clinging on to what little hope i have left

You could try ordering presents for yourself online that will come in a few weeks so you have something to look forward to. If you're feeling desperate though, please go to A&E and make sure that you're looked after.

I still would not care about anything coming in the mail everything is just falling down and I have had enough of it. I have had enough with taking random pills just to me numb so I don't feel any pain. I am tired of everyone looking down on me. No one understands. No one fully helps. It is braking me and I can't stop it. What is A&E

I wish I could say more right now but the only thing I can focus on lately is really dumb kids films. Try that haha :) (cos it means it's usually a happy film and it's very straightforward to understand, but keeps you busy) Sorry I can't be more help atm xx

Hey, I'm new so I don't know you but this is my experience - Everyone's different, but the way I dealt with feelings like this in the past was concentrating on at least one person I knew for a fact would miss me. I knew if something happened to me I'd end up not getting rid of the feelings, I'd just be unloading them onto that person. And, from experience, it's not something I'd ever want another person to feel.

I hope you get through it. Feelings aren't stagnant, like others say, find something to distract yourself, like a good book, art (if you enjoy it), a happy film. Try and change your mood. Depression is about fighting out through that dark cloud, not waiting for the cloud to pass.

Hope you're okay <3

But nothing helps anymore... it is not a dark cloud it is pitch black. It feels like I am trapped in a room on the bottom of the ocean and losing air. It is dark and constricting and it feels no way out except death. It is all I think about the pain of it, the feeling of slowly dying I just want to feel that. Taking random pills has become dangerous and harmful to others. i do not know what to do.

Have you ever seen a doctor or anyone about how you're feeling and how much you're struggling right now? I know when you're stuck in the middle of depression it can seem like there's no way out, but there is, and you will get better from this.

I do not trust anyone and my parents would just get mad at me and say I am like my sister and just yell at me so much.... I just want to die there is like no way around it

What about speaking to a teacher, or school counsellor about this?

They would have to tell my parents and my parents would just get mad and yell at me. I am so confused right now and kinda numb from taking things

Yes they would need to tell your parents, but are your parents not understable? Will they not try and help you? Leaving this world is not the answer..keep talking to people even on here. We are all here for you

If youve taken something, I'd suggest going to a&e / ER to get yourself checked and make sure youre safe. Hugs xx

If youve taken something, I'd suggest going to a&e / ER to get yourself checked and make sure youre safe. Hugs xxo