This is what one of my beautiful friends wrote to me & i've posted it because its encouraging :-)
 

"It's hard - because it makes me sad to think that you feel that you're so worthless. When this is only your perception of yourself and not others. Certainly not your friendship group you have now.

I know there are still demons that chase you around that you haven't talked about with anyone, and maybe this is why they still come knocking on your door.

You've been so courageous through your life, and worked through so many things on your own that you find it so difficult to open up now. I think that if you could open that final door and tell someone everything thats happened (everything! no bits skipped out or washed over - I know you ..........) then maybe they can offer you proper guidance, and those demons can start to be laid to rest.

I don't think it'll be easy. But like you said you don't want to live in your own head anymore but that's the only place all the hurtful details and sad thoughts are. So no wonder it brings you down. I'm not even sure if I'm helping right now??! I hope you don't feel like I'm speaking out of turn or trying to push you into things you don't want to do, but I think maybe its time to do it and then step by step and piece by piece you can have the life and the happiness that you do deserve and the piece of mind from all these years of hurt.

I know it won't be an overnight miracle (Even secret agents can't do that!) but maybe it's a start.

Just remember that we all care and we all love you for you (warts and all - although I don't think you have any warts but if you did we'd still love them!)

I guess what I'm trying to say is that with the support of all of us lets "kick this **** to the curb" you don't want to spend the rest of your lovely life feeling like this - you need to live it my lovely ......... with out additional hurt and sadness.

Love you lots like jelly tots"

(I love my friends,i don't deserve them and i've never had people like them before in my life but i appreciate them greatly and i felt like posting this here in the moving forward thread because its all true shes right and i know some people feel like me on here about themselves so i thought maybe they might feel more hopeful reading this too.)

This is a beautiful letter. Thank you for sharing with us x

Thankyou Tig,it really helps me a lot to read it so i thought others might find some comfort from it that might feel like me.
think i might even print it out and keep it on me for when im feeling horrible :-)

oh wow that is so lovely :blush:


xo

Thats so aweesome that you have friends that love you like that, thank you for sharing

Wow beautiful letter :)

thankyou guys your right :-) x

This is amazing, gives hope to us all with demons still inside of us.

she is amazing :-) just in that one letter she demonstrated just how much she knows me which i never realised and she couldn't have said it in a more sensitive and caring way love her! :-)