Gaahhhhhhh.
 

I'm really panicking right now... on the verge of having a panic attack.
My heart is pounding and I just feel sick to the stomach.
So tempted to take some pills to get these feelings and thoughts to GO AWAY.
But with me its all or nothing so it wouldnt end up being just a few.
Really in need of support right now.
Got the police officer whos in charge of my rape investigation coming round sometime in the morning.
Then I've got to have my first support session for the rape.
And I just found out it's St Davids day.
And the guy who raped me was called Dave.
And yeah I'm freaking out big style.

Please help.

x x x

I dont have any advice, but I hope youre doing better now.

x

is there anything that might calm you down like a bath or distract you? film? x

Oh my god I'm really sorry about your situation. If you want to calm down, try drinking tea instead of taking pills that can do more harm than good. Distract yourself with anything you can think of and if possible, try not to be alone. Talk. Let it all out but don't hold it in and stay alone. The mind wanders when there's silence. I hope everything works for you

Try breathing exercises. Breathe in for the count of three (a slow three, not a fast panicked three). Hold your breath for the count of three, breathe out for the count of three. Repeat it multiple times.

Another option is try visualizing yourself in a calm place. Imagine yourself somewhere wonderful, before the rape ever happened. Breathe deeply. Remember what the place smells like, what sounds you hear, what you see. I love doing a beach and thinking of the sound of the waves, the smell of salt water, the cold wind, and the sand on my toes. Especially the temperature of the sand. Be that detailed.

Another option is a kind of yoga meditation. Close your eyes and breathe deeply. Your stomach should expand with each breath. Try to lengthen your breath. Empty your head of all thoughts. When thoughts come in don't get frustrated but acknowledge the thought for the length of one breath, in and out, and then let the thought go. Imagine you're putting it in a bank, keeping it away from yourself.

I have panic attacks all the time. These things definitely work for me. With any breathing exercise you should make sure your stomach expands first.

Hope that helps. Just remember everything is a memory and as hellish as this feels it can't hurt you.

Thats for your help and support and adviec guys, it means a lot.

*crying*
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.
I'm got so much going on in my head.
It's making me into some emotional wreckk.
I JUST WANT THIS TO STOP.
*exploding head*
Actually gonna rip my brain out my skull befoer long.

-hug- it's not that anything is wrong with you sweetie :) there's clearly just a lot in your head at the moment. Did it go well today? Just try to keep things rolling, it will get better.

You are not alone. We'll always be here :)

Lyria the police stuff didn't go so well but the support session was helpful I guess.

I'm glad the support thing was of some use -hug-