Can you call a relapse a relapse when it was never real in the first place?
 

And is it a relapse if it's worse than it ever really was?

How do you answer your housemates (who also perform the other role of 'close friends') when they say that your behaviour is upsetting them?

How do you join in a conversation about healthy eating, when in over a week you've eaten little

How can you deny there is a problem, when you spend three hours in your tutor's office, discussing your struggle?

And why should you be helped... when there's really nothing wrong?

But there is. And you know there is. And your tutor knows there is. As do your housemates. And your friends.

But there can't be. Not so long as I look like this.

And now there's a deadline. An appointment. With a doctor. In a month.
So there's pressure.
And so there's work to be done.

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Greetings,

Yes, I'm back. I thought I'd done well and got past needing this website. But I've not. I'm not eating. I'm exercising. I'm obsessing. I can't concentrate. I am as stressed as I have ever felt before. Yet I cannot admit to myself that there is a problem. But at the same time I can't fully deny there is not.

I feel as though I cannot go forwards but I cannot stay where I am.

I don't think I'm looking for advice. The advice has been given- speak to a doctor. And I think I will, but not until there is a real problem.

Hmm.

Well anyway, I hope everyone is well... not that I know many people here anymore.

Sorry to hear that you are struggling hon, I remember you and I'm so sorry that things have slipped backwards for you. It sounds as though you have a lot of support around you which is a good thing, and I think getting your head round the fact that you need to accept help and that this is a significant problem are really important steps for you. Keep talking, we're hear to listen.
Katy.

Hey Luce, im sorry i havent got any advice right now but i wanted to say i have read and i care. i will come back when i have something decent to say.
As Katy said, keep talking and we will be here.

Gemz xx

Apologies for the mention of food. Complete forgot about that...sorry!!! x

^ No worries, you've been away, everyone forgets things from time to time, plus some of the rule changes might have happened after you left.

I am in a similar situation.
I'm home from school for the rest of the semester
Because I know if I kept doing the things I was
How I was doing them
I'd end up in the hospital again or worse
But I still don't think I have a problem
I can't.
And none of that makes sense.
I'm in this weird denial place
Like I've got one foot in and one foot out.
It's so frustrating.

If you wanna talk about it PM me.....because in some way, I know how you feel.
-kat.