Support?
 

I just feel...Broken inside. I keep going numb and then feeling again...Feeling broken and sad. My Stepdads felt more like my enimy then my friend lately. Like someone I should avoid. He didn't do anything to me...I just can't talk to him anymore. He doesn't get it...And I keep going into the bathroom and staring at anything I can get my hands on. I don't want to die...But I don't want to live either. I don't want anyone to be hurt that cares for me. But I'm so sad.

I tried getting help last year and it failed miserably. All my friends think I'm okay now and I don't want to tell them the truth. I tried so hard last year and was just let down. I don't know if I wanna give it a shot again.

I won't do anything drastic. I have enough fight in me...But I'm scared, and lonely...And I was wondering if I could get some hugs because I feel like no one cares...

Is there anyone you could tell about this? Have you thought about visiting your doctor? Do you think you could talk to your friends again?

**hugs** we do care.

Sorry to hear that , I feel the same way that there's no one out there who cares about me. What happened when you tried to get help last year? ((((( hugs )))))

*HUGS*

can you think of a different route you could try to get support? maybe a councelor at school, or if you trust one of your friends parents alot, or an aunt or uncle. talking to your gp about how you're feeling might be a good idea as well because they can try and do something about the feeling sad all the time.

I'm afraid to tell anyone. Excpessilly my friends. No one else seems open to talk, when I try they just push it off...
As for what I've told people last year my mom got told and none else was said. After that my councler preaty much said "Your on your own now" and whenever I tried to talk to my parents about it they pretty much told me that it was okay to feel that way, but way worse things were happening and they couldn't worry about me right now. My friends freaked out and wlaked on glass around me, and now things are finally back to somewhat normal and I don't want to go back to that. :(
I don't know any other route I could take...
Thanks for the support though :)

Have you thought about seeing a doctor?

I've tried talking to my peditrition once, but he didn't seem to understand what I was saying. He just warned me that if I ever tried anything I'd get put into watch...

Could you try talking to him again?
Properly explaining everything that is going on?

I guess it wouldn't hurt...Worst that can happen is he doesn't do anything again, right? Thanks

Good luck.