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razey02 16-08-2007 05:46 PM

this is so stupid i dont wana be here
this is so crap. i'm cutting nearly evry day atm.
i just cant stand it. i am struggling to be positive at all and i just have to make evrything stop spinning. i feel so alone and everything FREAKS ME OUT. i slept with two Nytols last night and i feel like taking 3 tonight.
its not that i wana die its just that i don't wana be here atm. somebody got an idea how to snap out of it please?
i got fresh tools today.... i'm not good.i'm blank and shutting down:blink:

Infatuated 16-08-2007 06:37 PM

Awww, honey. You're not alone. Not at all. We are all here for you right now and I understand what you're going through.
I know that it's difficult to be positive but try to think of even just one thing that you makes you happy or that you like about your life right now. There must be something for you to smile about.
I don't have any advice for "snapping out of it", but I just want you to know that I'm thinking of you and we are here to help and support you through all of this. You can talk to us about anything whenever you need to.
You have to fight through this and things will get better for you.
Stay strong and take care.

Angel_Girl 16-08-2007 06:47 PM

*hugs* and *kisses* Sorry cause I'm useless.

invisible_lil_princess 16-08-2007 08:57 PM

*hugs and snuggles* sorry i'm not much good in words of wisdomosity but hang in andvtake care honey!!! xxx

roxanne 17-08-2007 12:03 AM

oh i'm sorry. all i can do is recommend getting out of the house and trying to keep your mind busy. i know, this can be hard. hope you feel better soon. take care hun.

razey02 17-08-2007 01:48 PM

thanks for the hugs all, i need those!
not doing great still
nearly cut in the kitchen this morning - i was busy doing onions
and my father called me last night - i nearly got busted.
i'm a bit wired today

random.swirls 20-08-2007 08:42 AM

Hey hun,

Have you got a Dr. who you can talk to it sounds as though things are pretty bad with you right now and maybe your dr. could suggest something to get through it. Taking Nytol isnt going to stop the feelings but it may let you sleep through it. I know that sometimes I just want to hybernate and wake up when its all over but that isnt practical or sensible and sometimes facing our feelings when they are so overwhelmingly strong is the best time to do it.

The next time you feel like hurting yourself could you use the distractions from here Big distraction page to try and get past the bad feelings? Alternatively why not try and get a best score on the Arcade.

Chat can be a great way of socialising and when things are really bad it is always useful to have a place to go and talk about the good and the bad and know someone is at the other end even if they are sitting at a computer on the other side of the world.

I love these two suggestions Butterfly mission & Positive Idea: Coping Banks even if you dont use them now it might be an idea to keep them handy for a time when you feel a bit stronger.

razey02 20-08-2007 02:44 PM

thanks those are great ideas. will try them when i get the energy.
doing ok, just cutting a whole lot more frequently. went to the doc to get temazepam just to hang on till i can get the venlafaxine
i dont know how i'm gonna make it. but make it i must.
thanks for your support everybody. i appreciate it.

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