Over did the Diaz, slept for too long this afternoon :/ interupted by a phonecall , my new social worker is coming next week :/
I hope I can sleep tonight....

*hugs Mark*

*Hugs Felicia* <3

*holds felicia* you know where i am loverly <3
*hugs everyone else*

*curls up crying* can I die now please, cant wait for 2 weeks time

*Hugs Heather* How are you?

*Hugs Oliver* PM box open Mate

Can I please hide in here, feeling really unsafe. My ex is here as he is staying the night so I can't go out and do anything, but seriously I'm so unsafe.
Is there anybody about who could sit with me, sorry to ask just never felt this unsafe before its so ****ing scary.

*Sits with Oliver *
I'm off at 10pm but will sit with you until then Mate *Hugs*

Thank you Mark *curls up to*

:) *Hugs*

*Night Time Hugs My Wardies*

*g'night hugs Mark*
*scooches up to Oliver and hugs*

*hugs Mark* night

*curls up to Crimson* thank you. you ok?

*cuddles Oliver*
I dunno how I am really... kinda bounce between numb and low... trying to think about other stuff.
Plan to participate in NaNoWriMo in November. Worried I won't be able to think of anything cohesive to write though.

*Cuddles Oliver*
*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heather*

*hugs Crimson* good luck with NaNoWriMo. I know people who did it last year.

*hugs Ian and Felicia* how are you both?

oh dear I got angry and ranted on facebook and now I have upset people. stupid boy

*hugs Felicia, Ian and Oliver*
Thanks.
What was the rant about? (my comp at home is still virused :( )

*hugs Crimson* it was about Big Brother and how much I hate it

*throws a little mini party* My boss was pestered by enough people to come see the amazing turn around in my office that she came up and she was so impressed she brought the big boss up to see (who was also impressed). Apparently the file room hasn't been this cleaned up in over 10 years!

please can i come in

Hi earthbound misfit, I'm Oliver, course you can come in.

Yay Crimson :)

*curls up to sleep* I'm scared have a GP and psych appt tomorrow

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Oliver* I can't stand Big Brother Either :P

*Hugs Felicia* <3

*Hugs Ian*

*Waves to Earthbound Misfit* Hi I'm Mark , Welcome to the Ward :)

Sorely tempted to **** up my 6 weeks 4days S.I. free......and the appointment I had my hopes pinned on to get me though just got cancelled.
Kat is sick , can't be helped , may as well go food shopping , it might distract me....... *Hugs all*

keep safe mark =[ <3 you can do this.
*hug*

oliver- hope you were honest with gp/psych <3

*Squishes Heather Tons* How are you ?

alive...
how're you?

the same.....

<333333

*waves* Hi Beth! I'm Crimson! Welcome :)

*hugs Oliver, Heather, Mark*
Any better now Mark?

Better thx crimson , not perfect but here I am

*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Crimson*
*Hugs Heather*
*Hugs Mark* <3

*hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Heather*

*hugs you all*

what a day its been. had GP appt this morning, which was okish, told her that my suicide plan is in less than 2 weeks and she said it may be a good idea to admit me to hospital during that period.
then saw my mate off on the train to the airport as he is off to Italy, was sad that is the last time I will see him.
then had psych appt, she was bloody 35 mins late which seriously made me very anxious, but I forgot how lovely she is and we spoke for over an hour and a half. she wanted to put me in hospital tonight, but I persuaded her not too as I'm now at home with my parents, but she said she will probably want me to go into hospital at some point in the next few weeks, as I was honest and told her the exact date of my suicide plan. she also gave me some new meds for anxiety, which I had to wait 30mins for and resulted in me nearly missing my train, so I had to run from the hospital to the station. then I fell asleep on the train and missed my stop, but got a lovely surprise, cos I thought it was just my mum and sister coming to pick me up, but my 2 best friends from when I used to live at home came too and they had made me a french horn birthday cake (my birthday was in May!!)
I'm now sat here crying cos I realise like my psych said today that this is a goodbye trip aswell, I'll never see my mum or sister again after this weekend.

*curls up* sorry being a bad wardie

*Hugs Felicia* <3

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Ian*

*HUGE Hugs Oliver* You're not a bad wardie mate . I may be little help but you know my PM box is open :)

*hugs Mark* thank you

*finds Puppy Sinclair and feeds him then walks in the garden*

*Good Morning Everyone*

*hugs Mark* afternoon how are you?

*bounces in* Hi everyone! I missed you all last week.

*offers hugs all around and waves hello to the new people*

*hugs Laura* how are you?

*hugs ward*
I'm back at uni. I feel lonely and scared. wtf. this isn't even my first year.

*hugs Felicia*

*curls up crying* can't do this anymore, only another week and a half to wait then I'll be free

Hi everyone.

Hi Tifflehan *waves* how are you?

Tired but cant sleep. You?

depressed and miserable. sorry you can't sleep, that really sucks

why you so down?

sucidal and this weekend is the last time I'll see my mum and sister before I go through with my suicide plan.
do you know why you can't sleep?

I get like this occasionally. Why the plan?