i went to sleep yesterday at 6 pm... 9 isn't too early :)

*Night time Hugs Crimson*
Right I'm off ,
<3 you guys.
:)

*hugs Mark and tucks him in*

Night Night Mark *hugs*

*Hugs Felicia and Crimson*

*Hugs Lia and Crimson* How are you guys?

*hugs Felicia and Lia* busy, irritated with the benefits people who've been busily screwing me over for the last 2 months now... but aside from that mostly good so far today. maybe my 11 hour "nap"/bedtime last night was helpful...
i've started keeping a log of my dealings with the benefit people so maybe it'll help get things worked out since the ombudsman's "help" was useless.

How are you guys?

*hugs all*

Hey Helen *hugs* How are you?

I'm alright thanks Felcia, I'm kinda 'meh' but strangely controlling my animal pack of a Guide Unit cheered me up.

i've decided someone should invent a computer that only goes on educational sites... >.<

*hugs Lia*

I'm so so so soooooooo fed up of this cold >.< My nose won't stop running at all.

Plus I'm low and stuff, but hey :(

*hugs helen*

*cuddles everyone*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Laura*

I'm finally playing my birthday game a bit, I haven't yet gotten into it properly but it's okay .
The post office seems to have lost my dads presant for my mum that I bought for him so it would be delivered to me and not arouse Mums suspicions. But it came while I was out and they cannot seem to find it at the post office depot :(
Um , I'm a bit low today , waiting on the post if it comes today.
*Hugs Wardmates* I hope you are all okay :)
I'm going to lie down for not long but a breif nap might perk me up :)

I hope your nap helps, Mark.

*hugs all* sorry its not more

*hugs all*

I'm so ill, it's unreal :( Had to stay at home today, so no placement or work. Placement were total twats saying we all have colds and it's not a good enough excuse. I wanted to sob and shout 'well not all of us are in so much pain that we can hardly move and have to blow their nose every 30 seconds' *rolls eyes* They're expecting me back in tomorrow, ha!!! Probably won't attend...

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you feeling today?

*Hugs Oliver* Hugs are great to get Oliver:)

*Hugs Helen* I'm sorry those people are being such idiots to you :(

Edit:- Oh I don't like feeling low and I know SI. would help so I'm just going to lie down. Again.Sorry for being so Negative :S

*hugs Oliver*

*sends Helen magical healing dust*

Mark, i'm sure that you know SI won't help in the long run. It's good that you're doing something to get away from it. I'm here if you want to talk about anything.

Today my psychologist told me not to go into the caring profession. To use my degree to do research or become a literacy worker or something. Everyone is taking my dreams away from me. I have nothing to live for other than my brother but at the same time I cause him pain by being alive.

I know S.I. won't help me in the long run but still it's so tempting.
Anyhoo I'm out of bed , If I stay in bed longer I'll be up all night :S

*Hugs Lindsay*
I'm sure you don't bring your Brother pain by being alive :(
Whats your degree in?
You don't HAVE to do what your Pyshchologist says , You could ask her/him why they said that?

Well no post today :S I guess because of the weather eh?
Do you ever feel like you want to sleep Most if not All the time?
I'm conflicted , Mentally . To cut to stop the Numbness , Or to wait it out and hope tomorrow I have feeling and feel okay. Lithium is a 2 edged sword.

evening to you all

Mark, please wait. and i know what you mean If it werent for my kids I probably would sleep all the time.

*Hugs Sam* How are you?

*hugs* mark back.
Im ok, feeling a bit down today, seems everything goes wrong all at once! shouldnt moan though as others have it far worse. You got any plans for tonight?

*hugs all*
^this^

I might play my Birthday game a bit more , hang out in here , I've not really got any PLANS , I'm sorry you are feeling a bit down :( All the problems come at once don't they? sorry. *Hugs Sam*

*Hugs Crimson* How are you?

*Hugs Lindsey* You do whatever the hell you want with your degree and bugger them :)

Sorry that's all I have the energy for. I am sooo tired yet still have work and just can't be bothered... urgh.

*hugs Mark back* I'm sleepy...

what is your birthday game Mark? I think my eldest wants to watch the coronation street live show.. oh the joys of my night haha!

*hugs* Crimson

Sam , It's a Playstaion 3 game called "Red Dead Redemption" I bought it around my Birthday over a month ago and have just about worked up the nerve ( Yes it takes nerve when you're so overwhelmed by the littlest thing and have no Motivation ) to play it today.*Hugs*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Crimson again too*

I've slept nearly all day lol :(

I'm really missing someone & it's all my fault they're hardly talking to me :'(

*Hugs Helen*

*hugs Mark*

*hugs* helen, i hope you can work it out with the person.

Mark, sounds good! im hopeless at things like that! glad you got around to playing it

Mark, my degree is in psychology. I want to go on to study clinical psychology. I think he said that because of something I wrote in my mood diary about how i'm never going to be able to have a career within psychology.

How are you feeling now?

Thanks, Lia. I am already applying for postgraduate courses although my occupational therapist keeps telling me i'm not well enough.

*hugs everyone*

*hugs Sam* I'm sure we will..

*Hugs Lindsay*
Agrees with Lia^^^^

Feeling a little better now. Less exhausted and I'm not crying all over the place, at least for now. I don't know what's wrong with me this evening, but I have just burst into tears three times. I have no idea what's the matter.

*Hugs Sam, Mark, Crimson, Helen and Lindsey*

My mum's watching Coronation Street as well. And Emmerdale. What a life she leads.

Lia glad you are feeling less exhausted.
*hugs*
We have emmerdale ready to go on here too. I wont watch it though as its the middle 2s bedtime now so all go! :)

I used to watch all of the soaps when my Dad was alive, now I hardly watch any TV at all.

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Sam*

*Hugs Lindsay*

For crying out loud , I'm trying to distract my self , I REALLY am I just would rather be sleeping but If I go to bed now I'll just dwell on stuff :(

hANG in ther Mark, you can keep going.
Lindsay Im sorry to hear about your dad

*hugs*

*puts on some music the takes mark's hands and dances with him*

*Takes Julie's Hand and Dances* How are you Julie?

Edit:-Sorry I'm whineing so much recently :(

*Smiles* Julie, that gesture for Mark actually made me smile :)

it's not whineing wen we want to know how u r and wat is going on

Ohhh Snookers on ,I can half watch this .
Thanks Julie :) How are you?

am i losing my dance partner *dramatic sigh* *pulls marks hand and hugs him* where do think ur going hmmmm