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rachiie 23-02-2008 07:04 AM

Your First Cut!?
 
Dunno if this is a bad idea :S
feel free to say if you think so

I was just hoping it might help stop others making the bad choice of the first cut.

i can't exaclly remember why i did it, but it was stupid, i remember feeling soooo angry with myself, and i hadn't heard of people cutting it was new to me and i thought i was crazy for doing it!

october 2004

*..life in pain..* 23-02-2008 07:09 AM

its a nice idea!!

Well my first time was in July 07 and i did it only once and then i started again in August 07.I was so angry with my dad and i didn't know what else to do, so i tried it.I thought that i would have control, but now i don't.I need it, its like an addiction.

I wish i had never tried it.

rachiie 23-02-2008 07:15 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by IreneK (Post 575664)
its like an addiction.

excally, its scary how u can lose control

*..life in pain..* 23-02-2008 07:18 AM

you get to a point where all you think about is SI and you need to do it all the time.

tootsieroll 23-02-2008 07:25 AM

OoOoOo.... my first time was a while ago. it was somewhere around 02-03 (it was my freshman year in highschool) i remember my mom was getting worse. (she's diabetic but doesn't take care of her self nearly killing her) and one of the last times my grandpa "messed" with me. i agree it's super addicting.

BodyUnderSeige 23-02-2008 11:23 AM

i was soo angry with a friend. id never felt so hurt or betrayed. it was like june 06 sometime. It just got worse and worse from there.

trina1723 23-02-2008 11:46 AM

it was in 06 sometime. and i had a really really bad day and i wanted anything just to feel better and id heard cutting helps so i tried it. its the stupidest thing i have ever done. i thought i was in control but im not.

ConcreteAngel 23-02-2008 12:08 PM

it was about 2 years ago
someone whacked a locker door into my head on purpose and it brought a lot of memories back.
I was so angry and freaking out that i just hurt myself, cut myself
i wish i never had

Kira 23-02-2008 12:09 PM

i dont know what made me start.

but i worked on and off for 2 years just to get a whole 6 months free.
one slip up for me and now im back where i started.

what_the? 23-02-2008 12:14 PM

January 2001. I can't really remember why. That's a bit pathetic really, first time I just wanted to see what it was like, if it made any difference I suppose.
Well, it made a massive difference, just not in a good way.

peccatophobia 23-02-2008 12:17 PM

hi ,in my case every time i do cut it is the first time, as every feelings i feel I'm in a different world ,its only when i look at scars thats left i realize its not the first time ,:-(

LANA 23-02-2008 12:42 PM

It was 2004 i was 15 I overheard somefriends talking one day about people cutting one day, i had a really really bad day at school and i had flashbacks and i thought i would try cutting I though one time wouldn't make a difference but it did A massive difference worst idea i've ever had wish i had never made that first cut cos i'm still here 3 years later and it's gotten so bad it rules my life and everyday is a battle to try and stop myself.

I-Feel-Infinite 23-02-2008 02:57 PM

wow i remember my first cut SO well....
it wasn't even a serious first cut...
i just remember my best friend telling me she was moving away around this time 2004...
and as a joke i said "omg so unfair! i'm going to sign your card in blood so you can take a bit of me with you."
and then I did....
and i didn't think much of it until a couple of months later when I realized that after the cut... i felt no pain... and i felt much better even though i was still upset about her leaving...
so i did it again..
and kept doing till now =(

jessye 23-02-2008 02:58 PM

I can't remember the first time I cut. I can remember the first time I hurt myself. It was completely copycat behaviour. I scratched myself till I bled because I was angry and pissed off at my parents and I had a load of other stuff going on but that was the last straw. It just progressed from there. I ws about 11 the first time so it must have been 2001. Now 7 years later I am completely covered in horrific scars. I've had so much time and emotion lost on this.

x

Strawberry.Bananas 23-02-2008 03:03 PM

I can't remember what made me start.

I'd never known anyone that did it; I'd never even considered it I don't even think I'd heard of it. The only thing I remember is what I used.

If I could go back I would definitely reconsider my choice.

Summer '02

Shakespeare's Strumpet 23-02-2008 03:13 PM

Well...let's see. My first actual cut.
Bear in mind that before I cut I was already skin-picking or hair-pulling, and it would have eventually become cutting...
Anyways, about a month or so before the cut I had read an article about this girl who had trichatillomania (hair-pulling), and even though the article talked about how awful it was for her, I somehow missed the point and thought to myself that I wasn't the only one, so it was normal to like hurting yourself. Still, I found the idea of cutting myself crazy.
I was twelve.
I had been skin picking and hair pulling for about six years.
My grandmother died of a brain tumor. The night after her funeral, I was sitting outside in the rain, and I started yelling at God. Then, without thinking, I went upstairs, got my razor, and started ripping it open. Once I got one of the razors open, I lifted my pajama pants up and started cutting.

UnforgivableCrime 23-02-2008 04:23 PM

As far back as I can remember I've been punching walls, banging my head against things, kicking things, but about a year ago I was upstairs wacking my head against the wall, and my father shouted at me to stop making so much noise, so I grabbed a scissors and started cutting above my knee. It was a lot easyer than kicking/hitting, so I carried on doing it.

EyelinerAndCigarettes 23-02-2008 04:33 PM

my first cut was 3 years ago.

dark_light 23-02-2008 08:48 PM

It was 13 years ago, when i was 13. I did it to make the pain and lonliness feelings stop i think, i thought i was the only one, i never realised other people did it aswell until i was about 16. I wish i had never made that first cut because once you start, even if you do manage to stop its always there when things get tough. I think its like an addiction.

Nicholas 23-02-2008 08:58 PM

My first cut was kind of the end of my childhood...as dramatic as it sounds...it was the end of any purity and happiness intrinsic to me.

I was twelve and it was the first time I realised I didn't like me.

Any body else get that sort of...other worldly realisation everything about you, that you love and is confident and pretty and good and nice is really someone else entireley, and that you bareley know you at all. The sort of realisation that changes everything?


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