^ i identify with that so so much sweetheart, i really do. if its any consolation i dont even know you and i am so glad you are alive and kicking-that takes real strength when everything seems to be falling apart *cuddles close*
i know this is taking the running thing literally but it can help, maybe try taking up running? eventually once your stamina is built up you will be able to run for miles and it gives you a wonderful feeling of freedom and release.

oh and im a newbie as fa as this virtual psych ward is concerned *signs self in* im katy as fellow spammers of fun and distractions will know :)

i dont want to wake up tomorrow
there is nothing to control it
i will wake up and tomorrow will be **** and ill go to the hospital
ill deal with wot i choose to offer'
but the demon will never leave
and theres no way to safely die
ill crawl to the top of a building
n im so chicken that ill be talked dwn just like before
n ill suffer this life coz the braver thing is too escape

*hugs*

haha 1000 words about crap questions....... this is killing me, **** school sideways!!! I feel so crap and I shouldnt, I should be happy, two months I should be ****ing exstatic !!!! why is it all the skinny prefect people at school who never look bad no matter what they do that get pissed off at me when I dont want to be in their ****ing photos, Im sorry but I dont have confidence or self esteme what in ****s name do you expect from me *sulks* I need cuddles

Checking in.
*slumps in corner*
I need a fifth of jack daniels but a tranquilizer might do.
This is some serious crap.
*cuddles shadow.princess*
It's gonna be okay. Those stupid bitches are going to be super fugly by the time they're 30. At least the ones in my school did. And then you'll get your rightful laugh.

Good thing they wont let me wear shoelaces in here.

*sighs and stares at the wall*

*looks out from under duvet*

my mom is coming for a visit tomorrow...i am so scared...she will see what i have been up to these past few months...need lots of cuddles

*sighs and pulls duvet over my head*

*signs in* I love everyone here so much. I klnow this sounds weird. but my life is here so much... I have dreams about RYl and stuff. Has that ever happened to you?

am a masochist? thats been bothering me all day. zomg what if I am *shudders*

****ing wish she'd grow up =|

Wish I could found my counsellor too, really need to talk about something.

Life is so ****ing crap atm =[

^ *squishes* know that feeling. have a s'moor (i jsut found out what they are and they are SO HOT!!!



on another note. here i am, checking in. survived another day. but holy sh*te it was hard.

*Slowly drags eyes from wall*
I had dreams last night about RYL. I dreamt that I met a person and let them through a door.
Yeah.
Anyway, I still want to go f*** some **** up so I'm going back to the wall now. It's a good thing they don't allow shoelaces in here.

*walks in to room looks around then walks over to a big comfy leather chair sits down and stares at everyone* Hi *waves*

*looks out from under duvet wipes eyes and drags duvet over my head again*

can't go on like this anymore *mumbles*

*gathers everyone together in a massive group hug*

If anyone wants to talk, my PM box is always open.


And Katy, you totally stole my s'mores idea from the other thread! *glares* *forgets anger and eats a s'more*

*sniffs a s'more*
Hm..smells okay.
*finds big feathery beanbag chair and curls up*
Not quite ready yet. zzzzzzzzz

i SAID i jsut heard about them!!!! *bows to Laura(?)*

anyhoo. still here. *pokes head out from under psych couch* they STILL dont know im under here! hehe

First post here. Wondering how I can go on with my nursing training when I'm the one supposed to be helping others, I feel like I'm the one in need of help, how can I continue? I don't know whether I can allow myself to go on another ward and care for children in need in this state of mind. I'm sick again, stayed in bed til 4.30pm *damn my tonsils*. Feel like I need to brush away this feeling because of my responsibilities. It just isn't working anymore.

*crawls over to Quark with some tissues and hot tea*
I'm sorry you feel bad. Just so you know, there are lots of inspiring people with children and mental illnesses that carry on difficult but successful lives in the medical field. You can do it. But it will be a struggle, like most things.
hope you feel better.
*hugs tightly and offers a nice puffy blanket*
*goes back to hibernating*

*hugs all*

got fit counsellng tomorrow-cant do it cant do it cant do it


i want to get out now

...i didn't eat today and I am totally and 100% pissed at me cause I even told myself I had to *kicks self in butt*

I tried to go one day without purging...just one...but i couldn't. My mom is here for a visit...it will not take her long to figure out what is going on. I can't swallow, my ribs hurt and i am so tired. How am i going to get thru this visit??? I am so scared. *hugs pillow*

*pets every sad person on the head*
I'm sorry you're having trouble.
At least we have friends in the psych ward.
I wish I could stay here instead of going home tomorrow.
*packs bags and trudges out*

*Pokes head out from under the bed long enough for people to acknowledge life and then retreats to darkness and safety*

*walks in picks up pillow and curls up in a ball on the floor*

*peers out *
says hi *waves*
hides again cos sight of world at moment is a lil too scary and stressful
x

**hugs hellbunny**

*Wishes he was dead :-(*

im signing myself in

*brings teddy and duvet*

*Curls into the bed next to debbie*
We could start early.

*is still under the couch*

*scuttles out, hugs people who need it, then scuttle back under again*

*pops in to visit everyone*

Anyone up for art therapy? I have fun stuff like papier mache and finger paint!

*crawls out from under duvet* finger paint??? Can i draw too please?

Of course!

YAY!!!
What we drawing then?

Umm....how about you draw a scene from your favorite film?

(I've got Pirates of the Caribbean on my mind since I'm getting the 3rd one for Christmas)

*draws an invisible white rabbit named Harvey*-anyone who understands this gets a gold star in art therapy.

Wait....how can you draw an invisible rabbit?!?!? And for that matter, how can it be white if it's invisible?

you dont get it. i pity you. go research Harvey James Stuart on google.

Hmm sounds confusing, but interesting. I might have to watch it sometime. Still doesn't explain how you can draw an invisible rabbit though.


*starts making papier mache pirates*

*draws scene from 10 things i hate about you*
my fav movie of all times. Think i will draw the peom at the end that she reads to the class

^^ i love that film! makes me laugh and cry :)

Me too. I love every scene of it. I know all the words and can say it with the film...
*whistles as i draw*

haha im like that with Harvey and Mean Girls. and Girl Interrupted.

ooh what tune are you whistling? *joins in*

I think I'm like the only person in the world who hasn't seen that movie. :-(

Let's watch it while we do our artwork, yeah?

uhuh *switches it on the ward's uba cool massive tv

I hope it works better than the TV in the real psych ward I was in. :-/


*adds yarn to papier mache Jack Sparrow to make dreadlocks*

whistling Pain by three days grace...

i love movies!!!!

*Draws border around poem*

I love three days grace :)

yeah, me too.

*finishes drawing and shows it to people*

lovely :thumbup:

yeah my real psych ward tv was *****-i swear it went on the blink everytime corrie was on...though thinking about, everyone else hated corrie so maybe.....IT WAS ALL A PLOT ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

*runs round in circles*

can i put it against a wall somewhere?