*cries*
i want to kill myself and i have an exam tomorrow i'm supposed to be studying for. how stupid that im supposed to care about things like that and that i have to resist the urges just so i can keep up appearances.
my life is ****ing ridiculous.

thanks for asking i just seem to be finding everything hard and i just feel awfull about finding things hard especially whe people give the the 'pull yourself together speach/look
how are you feeling today marc?

i would love a hug please, if the offer is still there?

*hugs effervescence* sorry your name eludes me at this time:blush:
good luck with the exam but if things are really bad for you right now is there not anyway you can take it another time? sorry that probably seems really stupid but i was just trying to think of a way to ease the pressure for you. or if not just think once its done its done, plus it might take your mind off of things for a while, i am here if you need me
xxx

Feeling a bit better thanks for asking.
I have days when everything seems to hard to bother trying too. It makes it worse when you see someone doing it easy.

I'm hiding again. Trying to keep safe from od;ing.

**** sake.

*is still hiding*

*snuggles in with helen*
whats up hun?

and marc i am glad you are feeling a bit better :)

You've seen my thread now.

*is still hiding and wants to lose it*

=[

Hells, sorry you feel so puny.
Marc, let me know if there is any way I can help.

My headache has eased. We head downhill again today. Towards home. I've loved this trip, it has been long enough to be refreshing, not so long we get tired of parts of it.

Hugs all around!

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

*shakes*

Hells whats up? PM me if you want.

*hugs hells tightly* ly sweetie

I did two really really stuipd things.

=|

Are you ok? Will you be alright? Please let us know!

I'm not okay, cant stop shaking and coughing :(

Do you need to go see a doctor? Is it illness or somthing else?

Nah, I've stopped bleeding....and the other thing probs doesnt need medical attention :S

Maybe you should be cheacked out anyway...best safe then sorry.

No way of doing that :)

Keep yourself safe then please. And check in with us reguarly if you can.

i found my cuddle toy

Ok 1ofmany

*resumes hiding whilst coughing*

Thanks hun...sorry if I seem a bit harsh but i am worryin.

*finds hells, gives hot chocolate, hugs and covers in blankets*

*huggles hells an gives her a cookie*

Thanks guys :)

*is willing to cry*

its okay to cry no matter the reason big or small

I can't cry, tears wont come >.<

*cuddles tight*

Love you sweetie.

*cuddles tight*

Love you too Han <3

*holds tight* please take care lovie?
grr didnt get any mail today *pout*

*hides in corner under blanket with teddy, rocking silently*

Just got in from being out with some people...it all feels so empty.
Hey Becca whats up?

I'm utterly falling apart :crying: I can't cope at all. I'm scared and frightened :crying: I desperately need some sleep but can't get any :crying:

*hols tight* I'm no good at looking after myself am I :crying:

*hugs Hells* Nor am I!

*sending everyone loads of hugs*

Sorry haven't really been around in here lately so thought i'd come in and say hello :) i haven't been doing to well lately but hopefully i'll be alright soon enough.

xxx

*cuddles Emma*
nice to see you again hun

*cuddles Becca* Awww hunnay.

*cuddles Amanda*

*cuddles Helen*

Thanks.

I shall resume hiding now. Ugh can still feel that water....

*snuggles helen close*
im certainly not atm either ><

If you knew what I did...

I tried to drown myself and I did cut pretty bad :crying:

awwwwww helen
*cuddles you to keep you safe*

*joins cuddling*

*cuddles up and sobs*
I just made my first ever post in the substance abuse forum and I don't even know if I have a problem :wall: :crying:

*pulls close and rubs back*

*hugs everyone tight*

*hugs Hana back*

*hugs helen*
*hugs marc* (if that is ok?)
*hugs amanda*

We are staying in a city that is higher than where we stayed last night. I put a sinus thing in my morning med minder.

Aunt Blondie... remind me... why are ya'll in hotels? vacation?

Had my meds review on Friday. Went well, they're reducing the risperidone for two weeks and then taking me off it completely! x