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hey, im too scared to go to a real hospital - can i come in?
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I am having an emo moment. I am sorry for being so **** recently and not replying to you lovely people. I am currently working on regaining my faith and building a relationship with God, something I lost many many years ago but would like back. I just seem to be failing. Everything is going wrong. I am drinking to make it feel better and then I plan on SIing and thus shall be three times in one week in A+E. I hope everyone is ok, and once again...I apologise for neglecting the community, I just cant contribute properly at the moment x
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you have nothing to apologise for honey - your health is more important
everybody at RYL has times when they can contribute less please dont feel bad *passes out more tea and hugs to those who are in need* *huddles in corner and wonders where the fvck my sanity went and why i keep feeling like my body is made of lead does anybody else ever suddenly feel like that or is it just me and should i be concerned? thoughts? yes? no?* |
*accepts some tea and a hug from Callie and tries not to spill her tea*
Callie, hunni, you're no more nuts than the rest of us (which may or may not be saying anything, lol). As for feeling like lead, no, it's not just you, no worries hun. Just one manifestation of depression. Helen, hunni, everyones right, sometimes you just need a mental health day or two. Believe me, I've been there, taking a day off for your mental health and thwn feeling bad for it. However, it has always been for the best. Oh I'm drunk... Pretty exciting (read:not at all). I should know better... I DO know better... I tend to get more suicidal than usual when I'm drunk... god I suck... I hate this... Why can't I just die? Lots of people die accidentally every day... Why in the world can't I be one of them? Does God really hate me that much?!:crying: *stumbles back to her corner and cries herself to sleep clutching her stuffed lamb*b |
hugs to all
i just want to die right now-wanna do so much damageit cant be repaired-want to suffer as i know i deserve im sorry xxxx |
*Takes some tea and runs off to hide*
I really am not up to going to my assessment today... oh well... x |
uni assessment that is...
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Good luck in ur assessment! I'm sure u'll do fine :-) xxx
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*starts checking in* is there still a corner somewhere? I brought my own pillows and blankets....i just need a small space to cry in
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*moves over to allow black feather a corner* Do you want some tissues hun? x
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*gives black_feather a hug and some tlc*
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SnowBerrySnuffles i hope the assessment goes well - you can do it and then come back here and give us a report or something
*gives black feather and emma and jeremy and newlife fuzzy blankets and sits down* *hugs Alyssa and gives you tea so you don't have a hangover. by the way your new name is too long for me to update in my sig :'( drat* no way Alyssa are you serious? i actually thought that i was possibly developing brain cancer or something (not that i cared.... which is concerning in and of itself) so that thing where you suddenly for no reason feel like your whole body is made of lead out of nowhere and then it goes away just as suddenly in like a minute is a symptom of depression? really? get out now way that is weird. huh. why? |
ty for the blanket :-D
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aww you're welcome blankets are awesome arent they
this one time i brought a huge blanket with me to the movies and everybody stared at me like i was a crazy person (haha irony) but i was so comfy |
Thanks everyone for making me feel better about yesterday.
I feel liek crying, I have SOOOOO much work to get done for tomorrow. Bastards! DO THEY KNOW IT'S MY 18TH BIRTHDAY TOMORROW OR SOMETHING? *breathes* |
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*throws Helen a *surprise early* birthday party ... with lots of Balloons and fun, to make her feel better!! *dancys madly again* Am feeling weak at the moment, got drunk at college (a little mistake), grr But yeah anyways happy birthday for tomorrow hun :-D |
Happy Birthday Helen
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Wow thanks guys :)
Any food, cus Im hungry!!! Whilst working and fed up of it :( |
*gives Helen an early birthday cake covered with tons of frosting.... icing, whatever*
*sits down with a massive mug of tea and sighs* |
Awwwwww I love ya guys ^_^
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*knocks On door* is it ok if I come in.,...... I will be quite I promise
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hey Didi, come on in!
*passes Didi a blanket and pillow to sit on* |
Thanks :)..... finally Im welcome some where :)
*Takes blanket and pillow* Thanks me cold *Raps up in blanket and sits on the floor* |
awww on RYL you're always welcome :)
*snuggles into her blanket because life is too hard right now* |
Awww I know that feeling :) come.... Huggles :)
Whats up |
BABY GIRL!!!!
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*hides in her blanket*
okay so whoever is around please please send good luck thoughts my way i am needing it i have to call a DBT specialist when i get out of work in half an hour and beg for therapy *i think i just threw up a little bit in my mouth* |
*sends lots of good luck to chocostashchick (i dont know your name!)*
*lots of hugs* xx edit: Callie! *waves and sends more good luck* |
*dances around*
46 minutes until I can start cleberating!!! |
thanks Emm!!
wasn't so bad...... *hides in blanket with tea* still scary though. we'll see. happy bday Helen |
Wish me a happy birthday in 15 MINS.
Someone making me a topic I bet =P |
*Skips over*
*sits down* *curls up with blanket and irish coffee (haha)* *Happy 18th Birthday Helen!!!!!!* *scatters balloons and stars and huge hugs* *curls up again n gets comfy for the night* Edit: damm am a minute early!! |
Omg Freaking Ass
I'm 18!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
happy 18th Helen!
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Happy Birthday Helen!!
*cries quietly in her corner* I have a counseling session tomorrow and I have to tell him about my last two ODs and I don't want to... :crying: |
Birthday Wishes to u Helen!!!
*huge hugs and offers u a some ale* lol |
good luck alyssa honey
*offers tea* i am so messed up right now :( definitely took something i wasnt supposed too last night and i am still all funny and i am at work i am so dysfunctional that was such a mistake sad part: dont think i would survive the day without it though |
Sorry I disappeared last night :(... I was soooo tired.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY baby girl |
**STANDS OUTSIDE THE DOOR**
**can i come in??** |
of course you can PaperClip (sorry don't know your name)!
*Hugs Callie and everyone else who needs it* How are you feeling now hun? *offers Callie water to flush the stuff out her system* Hope work isn't too bad. *hugs Ally* How did your counselling appointment go? Here if you want to talk x |
*walks in quitely* Sorry Il be quite
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Thanks hun
Welcome paper clip. We have stuffed animals, warm blankets, coffee, tea, and whatever else you may want. My counseling session went alright today. He didn't lock me up and to be honest I was a little worried about that so *phew*. He did use the 'h' word and seems to think it is a very real possibility... then again I suppose it is with suicidal folks :pinch: Damn... |
Don't worry about making noise 12vampire34 (sorry I don't know your name!). Are you alright? *offers hugs and some yummy hot chocolate*
*hugs Rowie* Unfortunately I know exactly what you mean but we are here to love and support you for as long as you need it. Stay strong x Ally, I think you were incredibly brave to go today and you never know the 'h' may not even be necessary but You are clearly struggling at the moment and deserve all the help and support available. Take every opportunity they offer hun *hugs* x |
Thanks Emma hunni.
Callie, are you ok sweetie? What happened... Remember I love you sweetie... |
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He (my counselor) just ruined it. I understand it but he just ruined it.:crying: I am now in the middle of an email conversation about pain meds and wouldn't it be a good idea if I got rid of it and well maybe I could just keep a small amount... My reply to the second (small amount) email... Having it is a security thing... And besides it's expensive and I just recently bought a new bottle. And I've probably dug myself in more... :crying: Latest email?'How about you send me an email each day letting me know how safe you are feeling' What am I a child? He should have locked me up would have saved him the worry... I'm not being fair I know... |
hey, can i come in?
i have to go and start with a new counsellor on thurs. i want to go, but dont know what to say *huddles in a corner* |
aww alyssa
i am really sucky and i totally messed myself up even more because yeah therapy crap lol welcome effervescence btw come on in join the club and hi emma and rowie anyway alyssa hun i think your therapist is really nice and maybe emailing him could be a way of like keeping in touch no more childish or protective than checking in on RYL is! think about it, we usually come on in and post at least once a day, usually more, and keep tabs on eachother he is just doing the same thing! i know it is scary and that you think it is all ruined but it isnt and if he wanted you in hosp you would be there! trust me! they dont mess around with that! people get sectioned every day and if they wanted to do it to you, they would so anyway i think you could email him, maybe give it a try *end of really long post - passes out refreshments* |
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