It's okay Louise we all have Funerals , I'm sorry you had one:)

*Hugs Louise and Mark*
*Spies and hugs Charlie and Felicia*

hugs everybody, curls up in a dark corner.

how is everyone else

One year OD free. 3 weeks SH free. Threw my blades away. I'm sleeping properly and am so much more confidant. So why do I still feel like crap?
:(

*Hugs Charlie* Thats awesome! way too go you!!!!!!!!!

*Hugs Mark* Thanks hun.
I just wish I didn't still feel like crap though.

*Hugs Charlie* do you always feel like it, or is it a passing mood?

*Hugs Lia* I don't know. I suppose it's always there, but theres times when I don't think about it so much, I can distract myself and stuff. Tonight it's just all in my head and I can't stop the thoughts from coming
:(

I know the feeling. It's like a permenent weight on your shoulders, pushing you down and down closer to rock bottom every day and there's this constant pain that niggles at your heart and it won't go away, no matter what you're doing, it's always there, tugging and stabbing and sometimes you notice it less but it's always there waiting to drag you down again. But you've come so far in the last year. You said yourself you never thought you'd make it here and now look :)

*Cuddles* Yeah, I wish you didn't know how I feel though. I wish none of us did. Yeah, all my blades are in the river, i'm not getting more. No matter what. I can do this.

You can :) I believe in you.

*Hugs Crimson* How are you?

And you Jill, I didn't see you up there.

Hey Mark :)

Thankyou, and I beleive in you too. Just read your R/V, I told you your drama would go fine!

*HUGGLES!!*

Ice: congrats! I know exactly what you mean for the whole magic of theatre thing! and You got this polish thing!

Rawwr: maybe if you tell someone about the thoughts they will lift off a little. I know when I do it helps :) feel free to pm me whenever!

*walks up to shadow* whats wrong sweety? you ok?

*hugs lia*
Been distracting myself with genealogy searches today... unfortunately that means little to no work has been done in my office but ya know...

*procrastinates*
hey ya'll :)

*hugs felicia and poisonapple*
hiya! how are you guys today?

*Hugs Magana, Crimson, Charlie and Felicia*

Hey Magana, I'm Lia :) I love the theatre, I get nervous, but like I said, as soon as I step onto the stage, everything's just fine and I relax. I really got into it though and started shouting at the audience (it's Brecht, I'm allowed to engage with them). A lot of people told me afterwards they were pretty terrified, which I guess is a good thing. How are you?

You feeling any better Crimonson?

How are you Felicia?

Thanks Charlie :) I'm so glad it did go well.

I'm... okayish. Maybe. I guess. I'm not sure.
I can't even remember who asked me that now...
Sorry, guys, today is just not a good brain day.