Yeah its great for that, you're really awake and productive when you get in, had breakfast and everything is sorted where everyone who lives close is zombie like :p

The devil is winning i have to die

*cuddles everyone*

*cuddles everyone*

Ryuu, you don't need to die, don't let anything win, you're strong and can beat it.

I'm heading off for the night now, stay safe everyone x

Sleep well Sarah, I'll be heading to bed (well sleep, since I am in bed) very shortly :)

I spy Oliver *cuddles* How you doing?

Cuddles all. Sneaks in curls up under some blankets on the floor. I hurt, I hurt , I hurt.

Why do you hurt Jill? Talk to us? *cuddles*

*cuddles everyone tight*

can i have cuddles back please? sorry to ask for them.

You don't need to apologise for asking *cuddles you tight* Do you want to talk about anything hun?

Erm tried to do something stuiped, now my neck hurts. Hides back under blanket. Sorry

*cuddles all*

Sorry for the lack of individuals, and my disappearance. I haven't really been on much since Friday and it's now Monday morning. Been trying to get myself back together after going with my housemate up to the hospital.

For anyone that asked: He is fine - looks like he had a migraine because the treatment for that got his pain back to something manageable and he managed to sleep... For most of the next few days.

As for me: I've been sleeping quite a bit as well. Struggling to keep on top of things, but I do have a nasty chest infection that I'm also struggling to keep on top of. My anorexic mindset is tending to win and I'm not even sure that I want it to lose, and I'm struggling with urges (SI and suicide). But I guess that it will all work itself out.

Just got to hold on because it can't rain all the time, right??

*leaves stuffed animals, cuddles and safe care packages for all then bunkers down in the warren somewhere invisible*

*cuddles Laura and Kahlia*

I'm sorry I can't do more, I'm tired and low on words.

*cuddles Felicia back*

Checking in until I get through therapy on Tuesday..

I'm scared...there's so much that seems to be hanging on this appointment (even though I know logically it's not half as dire as I think it is, I've been reassured by *countless* people that my job is still not in danger, but it feels like it's hanging in the balance...and I love it so much and I do NOT want to lose it because of THIS....and I want to get better but but..

I'm scared...I'm so totally irrationally scared...

Walks over to her favourite bean bag, curls up and tries to think

*offers Amy tissues* You okay sweetpea?

Sorry to hear that Amy. Are you and Julie okay? Can I give/offer you a hug?

I'm here if anyone needs to talk.

*Hugs Amy*

*Hugs Julie*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Jill*

*Special Hugs Laura*

*Hugs RYUU*

*Hugs Shaughnessy*

I'm back at home now :S it was fun being around my family but 4 nights is pushing my limits , I'm so dissapointed I didn't get to meet up with my best friend and give her her birthday presants but I'll give them to her when we meet next. I hope everyone is doing okay this morning / Afternoon / evening :)