*hugs everyone* i'll try to do individuals later tonight.

Oh and Lindsay, i think it was you that asked, no i haven't talked a doctor about my being so tired. I really think it is because i've been doing so much lately, i barely have time to breathe. I keep taking on new projects b/c apparently i have an issue with saying "no" to people lol.

Anyway, I am now applying to work as a web designer for a literary magazine. So now i have 4 classes, homework, design job at the newspaper, two web design projects for clubs on campus, and potentially another web design job. Oh, and I have to start applying for graduate school ASAP.
= busy all the time. I should sleep less. I'm just a tad bit overwhelmed.

I haven't dealt with it in the best way either. I've been cutting kind of a lot for me. Nothing really bad. Just a lot. Don't worry, I've been taking care of them.

Anyway, I'm sorry that so many of you are struggling right now, wish I could make things better.
*leaves out a basket of calorie free cookies and a ton of hugs that will last until the next time I am able to try to catch up*

*Hugs Reaper* It sounds like a good idea to stay overnight there, you'll be safe and YEY! for internet access:)

*Hugs Laura*You sound SUPER BUSY , try and take care with your S.I. don't go overboard with it , Please take care :)

*RUNS IN*

GUYS GUYS GUUUUUUUUUUUYYYYYYYSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!
*breathes*

Im doing a sponsored bungee jump

*Hugs Lex* WAY TO GOOOOOOOO! I could never do that I think you are so brave !!! :)

Mark, indeed I must have :P

*cuddles Laura and then everyone else*

*cuddles everyone*

Had a good day today, mah anniversary with my fiance, he bought me a huge art kit, its amazing, kinda cute because he hates art and he asked his nan to help him pick a good one :p I got him a model of a Eunos Roadster, the car he has, complex kit but it'll keep him quiet for a few hours I'm sure :p

How are you all feeling today?

They sound like exellent Presents Sarah!!

I'm at my Parents from tommorow late afternoon untill Monday early morning but My Parents are at a wedding so I'm slightly "house sitting". But I should be online on my parents Laptop , but just in case I can't get online thats where I'll be so no-one worry about me. My Diaz is wearing off but I'm glad I went to my 2nd "Shift" at the Cyber Cafe .

Has been excellent, quite the coincidence that both were craft based too :p

Got an appointment tomorrow with my doctor for medication review, not fond because I know they're not really working...

Good Luck With That Meds Review Sarah but you really should be honest if your meds aren't working for you :)

Yeah, I'm just scared they'll put me on stronger stuff, I didn't even think I needed anything but I'm not worse than when I started so I may need something else.

Well I've started my assignment that's due next month ... busy looking up journal articles and so forth. Randomly singing to myself but not too loudly because I don't want to wake my housemate up as it's only early in the morning (I've already been up for a couple of hours). It's heading on towards 4am and I'm searching online uni library databases for journal/periodical articles. *sigh* I'm a freak.

Hels, Taz, Mark and everyone: I know suicide isn't the answer. I know it Can't Rain All the Time. I know things won't always be this bad. I just don't know if I should tell my pyschiatrist and get him telling me to consider hospital or whatever when there isn't a risk and there isn't a "safe" inpatient option unless I leave town. I don't know, that probably doesn't make sense.

Kahlia, whatever you do please be honest with your psychiatrist. No one can help you if they don't know how you are really feeling.

Cuddles everybody, erm why do I have to go to extremes, before anyone in my real life see how messed up I really iam. Are they that blind or I'm I just that good at hiding it. =(

I am TRIGGERED quite badly , I know I'm going to be away at my parents and I feel like I shoulden't cut in someone else's home so I want to make up for it in advance , Does that make sense?

* hugs everyone * Am at the charity place but only can speand a little time on line as they dont really let people use forums but i managed to get on them
feeling ok at the moment missing my husband though

I hope you have a good night at the charity place reaper , Do you feel safe there? It sucks that you miss your husband though but it will only be for a short while :)

Hey Kahlia *Spots and Hugs* Are you okay ? ,Tired from getting up so early are you ?

*huggles everyone* thanks everyone. sorry about the other night, my friend is ok, thank god for facebook lol.

Hey Nicole *Hugs ya as I spots ya* How are you this evening?

I kinda feel like I'm monopolising the thread :S

Mark, please try and stay safe. I know that you can beat these urges.

Reaper, i'm glad you're feeling ok.

Nicole, how are you?

I'm also feeling triggered but the main place where I cut is covered up because I have stitches and I don't want to have to go back to A&E for more stitches so I think i'm safe for now. Will just have to put up with the feelings.