Hayley-Rose is my sister and hon ; I love you !! No matter who you get your electricity from. I really love you and I'll kill anyone that makes you ill/upset.

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*hugs April* I'm glad you and Jarrod had a lovely date :) And I share your hatred of idiotic drivers... they only serve to fuel my anger issues.

*hugs Kahlia* If you have highly detailed suicide plans and a date to carry it all out... it's important. Hell, just the idea of wanting to commit suicide is important. I really think you should talk to your psychiatrist as recommended... but it's ultimately your decision. Just know that you're a wonderful person and TONS of people love you and would miss you. Can you share with us what exactly is causing these thoughts/feelings? *extra squishy hugs*

*waves to MJ* Hi :)

End note of Taz: I LOVE HUGH LAURIEEEEE
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:D Sorry, I just couldn't contain my enjoyment. Watching House truly seems to be cheering me up.

Erm sorry guys feeling very triggered right now. Got really dark and twisted thoughts running through my head. Can't get them to shut up there screaming in my head. And I really want to act on them.

Just to reply to Jill and Taz on this page , Sorry It's early and I'm anxious about my Cyber cafe "sahift" this aftenoon and I have Becky the befriendly lady this morning , hence why I'm up so early.

*Hugs Taz* I've never watched House I hope you're okay this morning / night our time , you're probably sleeping :)

*Hugs Jill*Could you try and drown out the thoughts with loud music? Please tryt not to act on them , you can fight them , you can .

Hugs mark, hope your shift. Nevermind

*Huge Hugs Jill* Thanks , Don't be sorry Jill , if you need to go to the hospital to be safe then I think thats a good idea .

*hugs Taz* - well the detailed plan is there sans the date and time but I really don't think it's an issue...

So tired. Can't stop coughing. Stuggling to breathe. Just plain over it. *sigh*

*cuddles everyone*

Kahlia, please talk to someone, we don't want to lose you. Suicide isn't the answer, you know that. Things WILL get better & you won't always be struggling this much & don't we always say 'it can't rain forever' *squishes*

*Hugs Kahlia* As Taz and Helen have said ,I think it is SO important to talk to your Dr . Suicide really isn't the answer .

*Hugs Helen* How are you this lunch time?

* hugs everyone *
Going to a mental health charity today to make a safety plan and talk to them about the voices and stuff feeling bad at the moment and the voices are very loud

*hugs everyone* Please look after yourselves.

Reaper, I hope it goes well.

*Hugs Reaper* Good luck with your meeting with the mental health charity , I hope it goes well for you :)

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you ?

*Spots and Hugs April* :P

*hugs Mark* I'm a bit low, just don't know what to do with myself. Last night the voluntary crisis team told me to phone my psychiatrist but i've only just seen him less than a month ago. My support worker told me to phone my OT but I don't know what to say to her.

How are you?

I HAVE to lose weight , I'm FAT and worthless :(

Oh Mark, I wish you didn't feel that way about yourself. You are far from worthless.

Cuddles mark, your not any off those things Hun.
Hmm didn't end up going in the end couldn't make myself. So still very triggered.

Oh*Hugs Jill*

I am posting from my "shift" at the cyber cafe , I'm anxious here but it's masked quite nicely by the Diaz I took ........

*cuddles everyone*

Mark, you may have a weight that's overweight, I don't know and wouldn't possibly comment. But you are NOT worthless at all *cuddles*

Also to answer your question, I'm okay, feeling bit odd today. Putting it down to the fact I had over 11 hours sleep, soon shortly followed by 2 or so hours :|

You must have been super tired Helen ! to need that much sleep :) *Hugs*

When to the charity things appointment because i feel unsafe am going to be staying over night there and there going to do a crisis plan with me
i may have internet access so i will be around