i am absolutely terrified
 

Havent been on here in awhile. And ive been clean for 5months now... but im meeting a new doctor tomorrow. And i am absolutely terrfied. I dont want them to see my scars. I dont want them to judge me. Tomorrow is going to be a terrible day. My anxiety is already started to kick in and its only a little past mid-night. I havent even gone to bed yet.. yikes.

Hey hun, how did it go? I hope that the GP was lovely and understanding xx

Not all GPs are not educated about self injury. My GP was very understanding when I told her about my self harm. Hope it goes well!

It went alright. I kinda like my new doctor, and i dunno if he saw anything but if he did he didnt say anything about it. I go back in a few weeks for a pyhsical..

im glad it was ok :) would you consider telling him yourself so that you can do it on your own terms, rather than having him ask and have more control of the conversation?

I was thinking about it, but last time when i went my brother and mom were in the room too. They both know that i self harmed in the past, but they both got extreamly upset when they found out ayear ago. I had already been doing it for years, but when they finally caught me they were really mad, and sad that i "could do something like this" to myself. But long story short, kind of, its a touchy topic when theyre around. I go back for a physical in a few weeks and if im alone with him, i might tell him then..

I think considering telling him whilst at your physical would be a really good idea. It's good for your GP to have this information available to him, so that it's there as background information should your mental health need to be considered for anything in the future.

How do you feel about telling him, whilst you're alone?

Im nervous about telling him but im just going to do it and get it over with. As you said, it might be important.

Good luck, I hope he is able to help you with this. Let us know how it goes.