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I know that it was just an honest mistake... but i feel so stupid.. I have a hard enough time making phone calls without looking like an idiot.
April - I have 2 weeks... one more week of classes and then finals week. how about u? *hugs everyone* |
Ah Mark, they sound awesome!! I'll have to check 'em out on YouTube or summat, as I LOVE LOVE LOVE Within Temptation. :) They are one of my most favorite groups. Gothic music FTW, lol. :D *cuddles* How you doing??
Laura, I've just one week of finals left. This afternoon is my last class EVER (woohoo!!)... at least, hopefully. :-S We'll see how that goes... it's my advanced counseling class, and I have absolutely no clue on what we'll be doing in it. Urgh. I have a love/hate relationship with that class (more hate than love I'm afraid!!)... So tired... *yawns, then curls up in a nook with a stuffed toy, her uni fleecy blanket, and some good books* |
haHA!!!! I spy you, Hels!! :D Your invisibility cloak must've fallen off... oopsies, hope you didn't lose it. That would be bad. :P
*cuddles all then tries to figure out what to do next IRL* |
*cuddles everyone*
=P I see April, Laura AND Mark wooop :) Just had a shower, kept looking at my scars, really want to add to them, but I know I can't. Have to keep being freee. Dammit >.> |
Awh... *cuddles Hels* (you've disappeared again) I understand that feeling... it's really a tough one to cope with, isn't it? :( I wish I could do something that would actually help... :(
I feel like such a worthless piece of **** that just takes up space. :( *hides in shame* |
I'm hanging on in there April , I'll be hanging around the ward I think until I have an early night I think.
Here's a Delain link :) [ame]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hn4ZUr-d05o[/ame] |
A good idea to keep hanging 'round the ward til bedtime... wish I could do that, heh. And I'll listen to the Delain link once there isn't someone in the office with me (I'm at my dad's comp & he shares his office). Or I'll listen to it once I get home. Don't want to disturb the other guy. Heh.
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Sorry, I really did disappear this time!! One of my sisters came into my room & we were talking. Heard the door go which shouldn't have happened. To find my Mum home early :D So she rang jobcentre for me about my JSA claim. Fun. Got an interview for that tomorrow PLUS my doctor's appointment. Dreading them both so much :'(
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I made myself Bajoran Earrings last night so I could focus on something other than my thoughts and feelings... And my previous post was much more expansive and whatnot but I didn't wanna spend forever and a day retyping it so here you go :)
Will post a pic of them after I put a pic into my photobucket... |
Awww Helen*hugs* I hope your stuff goes well tommorow , Thinking of you :)
Crimson *Hugs* I'd love to see those ear-rings you made you sound very creative:) Bajoran like DS9? I'm thinking of bed already 6.30 pm I want to sleep but it feels too early but I AM tired , and triggered and if I'm sleeping I can't very well harm , plus my social worker is here 9am tommorow morning so I have to be up and dressed and whatnot by then and as I am having trouble waking up 8.30am is really tough for me ........ *Runs around the ward offereing hugs* |
Thanks Mark :D
I spy Oliver again :) *glomps* |
Helen , Whats a Glomp? lol
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My fingers won't hit the right keys :S I'll go to bed , have a nice morning , lunch , afternoon ,evening , night ...........depending on your timezone :)
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*hugs Mark* if your feeling really tired and as you said while sleeping you can't be harming it may be a good idea to go to bed, I hope it goes ok with your social worker tomorrow.
*hugs Helen* and also wonders what a glomp is?!?! i'm so sleepy, been rehearsing all day and had about 3 hours sleep last night, I'm just lying on my bed wanting to sleep, but may watch mamma mia instead. |
*hugs april* im sorry that your anxiety is so bad. I really understand. I HATE it. And mine has been through the roof lately with all the stress from uni. Its almost over though. Lucky you that you get done a week before me... and that you are done completely after that! But you have worked really hard so I'm super happy for you! :-)
*hugs mark* I sometimes sleep to avoid harming too.. or avoid dealing with life in general heh. Good luck with your social worker tomorrow. *cuddles helen* I think you need to tell that invisibility cloak to behave better! It seems to have a life of its own deciding when it will turn on its magic... Plus what good is a cloak if it only works sometimes? :-P :-) *hugs crimson* I love earrings! I would like to see a picture as well. how r u today? *hugs oliver, then sits and watches Mammia Mia too (don't worry i can leave if u decide to sleep lol)* I did get a hold of that source... unfortunately he was no help, he didn't seem to think i was stupid though. In fact, he admitted to forgetting about it completely. So that all worked out. Tonight I have a job interview for the newspaper. Its so late, 7:00pm. I feel like that is a strange time for an interview but o well. This is such a bad anxiety day for me with phone calls, interviewing, and being interviewed... Hopefully later night i will just be able to breath for a bit. Even tho i have tons of work that i should be doing. I think i might go take a nap. Everyone here talking about sleep has made me tired lol. |
My new earrings
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*cuddles everyone* How is everyone doing today? |
Crimson - wow you made those earrings?! that's awesome. They look cool!
I'm okay.. stressed and anxious.. but okay at the moment. How about u? |
Well getting the pics from my phone to my photobucket seemed to take forever lol but yes, Mark, I did mean like from Babylon 5... but I modified them to suit the number of piercings in my ears. I had all the supplies already :). I moved around so much the last 2 decades that I had a ton of mismatched earrings so the stud based ones I just used what I had without matches and paired them up with each other as close in resemblance as possible. For example of the 2 tiniest ones... one of them is a piercing stud, the other isn't but they are both clear gems in relative size so I figured it was close enough :) I've actually gotten a compliment on them from a coworker that usually doesn't have a kind thing to say to anyone so that was cool... other people just stare at my ears and can't maintain eye contact but say nothing lol
Laura~ yep I did. Thank you! *beams with pride* I'm doing ok mostly... getting frustrated with looking for a file that has 3 marked boxes that somehow vanished into a black hole... I actually bothered to wear makeup today and 'get myself ready to face the day FLYing' (FLY is an acronym for finally loving myself)... All in all not a bad day so far but it is only 1030 am. *tucks in those going to bed* Helen is a glomp like a pounce? *huggles all* |
wow that was pleasant lol this weeks staff meeting only lasted 8 minutes from announcement and gathering to letting out and getting back to my office :D
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*hugs everyone*
Sorry if I'm not around much. A computer with no monitor is about as much use as .... an Operating System with a Graphical User Interface on a computer with no Graphics Card. My friends daughter destroying my monitor means that I'm $320 out of pocket for a replacement monitor, I need to spend another $200 on a more stable desk to ensure it doesn't happen again and I had to throw a $305 piece of electronic equipment in the bin. *grumble grumble* *finds everyone in the holes, boxes, forts and places in the garden they are hiding or sitting and hugs them then disappears into her own hole and cries* |
*munch munch*
Sorry to talk with a mouthful, I'll be brief, munching on a late dinner, I'm just reading through the last 4pages since I last left the common room to watch west side story last night. Anyhoo...I'll respond bit better soon.... *group huggles* *carries on munching* |
ooh bollocks, I've missed the first 25minutes of priministal debate. Not that I need to watch it to influence my vote, I know who I'm voting for but I want to be aware of what the idiots who will end up running the country stand for and what to expect!
*extra huggles for wardies* *toddles off to find a tv in ward to watch uk politics* |
*wakes up then sits and hugs selp*
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i just woke up in agony from cramp in both my calf's, was not fun.
*cuddles all* why does my depression get severe again right when i need it not to *hides* |
*pokes head in*
So so anxious... couldn't even focus on WoW... have no idea how I'm going to handle the picnic tonight at my advisor's house... am so ****ing scared about being a pathetic loser there. Although, lol, there will be plenty of trained counselors (the faculty) on hand to assist me if I need it!! :P Just kidding... hopefully I won't need their help. ;) Crimson, those earrings are AMAZING!!! :D You are so talented. And yey for FLYing. :D *glomps* (and yes, a glomp is like a pounce, only much, um, pouncier!! hehehe :D) Damn, I hate being this anxious... :'( My throat is all constricted and I feel like I can't breathe... I HATE IT... and I have no real reason to be anxious either. Ughhh. I just want to be okay with life... okay with my head... okay in general would be good!!!! :'( *needs hugs* Sorry for asking for attention... :'( |
*hugs April* wish I could add some words of advice, but I'm not coping right now, but I hope tonight goes well
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Thanks April :D I'm kinda surprised they turned out so good though. I was so just... erm... grrr is a good description yesterday that my hands were shaking and I kept dropping parts lol *cuddles April*
*cuddles Oliver* I dunno, hun. But it always seems to work that way. |
I'm so nervous... and I have no reason to be... :'(
Oliver *cuddles* Hope you feel better soon. Any luck with extensions? & how was rehearsal earlier today? (or is that a bad question to ask?) Sorry am not more helpful... :( Crimson *cuddles* Glad that you got them done then!! that would be annoying, the shaking etc. How are you feeling tonight? *hides in a deep lonely quiet hole* :'( |
Better today so far. got some stuff found in the office and no one's bothered me since lunch (not that impressive lunch was only over 10 min ago lol).
And I get to buy my new bus pass today so I don't have to keep getting up so early and getting to work an hour early, so that's good. But even if work goes well thats no guarantee for when I get home. |
April- rehearsal was dull, managed to not have a panic attack though, but concentration was bad. well havn't asked for extensions yet, talking to horn teacher tomorrow about whether I should defer my recital or not, then hopefully going to see tutor and head of school together to discuss deferring academic work, my tutor said I won't have a problem deferring it because college know about problems anyway, will just need a doctors note.
crimson-hope you don't get home too late, but its good your'll get your new bus pass so won't have to get up so early |
*hugs Oliver* Glad everything's being taken care of and that your recital went ok. :) I won't get home too late. I get out of work at 4:30 pm... 3 hrs to go ! I'm so tired already though getting up early the last 2 days and not getting to sleep intill the usual time or later is wearing me down already today.
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So anxious :(
Dreading tomorrow.. |
is there anything i can do to help
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*hugs Helen* howcome your anxious hun?
*hugs Julie* how are you? *sits in corner watching prime ministerial debate, lets see what they say, even though I'm not voting for any of those 3* |
*hugs oli*
can i type it that way is that ok or would u prefer oliver |
i do prefer oliver if thats ok.
you ok? |
'm fine and olivers cool i'm just a lazy typer
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*hugs Oliver and everyone else*
I think part of my anxiety is about my doctor's appointment in the morning. |
*hugs Helen* good luck with your gp appointment, I can understand you being anxious over that, I get very anxious over them.
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*sits in the corner and talks to self*
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Thanks Oliver
You okay Julie? |
*hugs all*
Waiting for the bus to go see the GP. Starting to feel a bit "left out" on here, like no-one sees me. But I guess that's okay. After all, I'm just an insignificant nobody that doesn't matter. *hugs April, Crimson, Oliver, Julie, Mark, JK, Kat, Laura, Helen, Ileana, Jem (if you happen to walk in) and whoever I've missed* |
*nods* we is fine
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*taps Kahlia's arm* i see u
and i thinks u is very nice |
*Cuddles Kahlia* You are not an insignificant nobody.
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*hugs Kahlia* hope your appointment goes ok, you are certainly not an insignificant nobody.
*hugs Julie and Crimson* |
*sits eating carrots, offers them*
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*finishes carrots and wanders around looking for people*
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*sits in corner*
I dont know what to do, I feel so depressed that I am just lying here in bed in my clothes, its not good. |
Kahlia, I'm sorry you feel that way, but you're really not sweetheart *cuddles*
I wish I could support people but I just can't at the moment, so all I can do is give hugs & stuff =( 9 hours to goo :( It'll be okay? |
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