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MammaMia 29-01-2010 01:42 PM

*gives everyone cuddles*

Scarletdreamer 29-01-2010 02:48 PM

*sends Daniel over to snuggle with Jocelyn* What's going on, love? *cuddles*

*cuddles Helen* How you doing today, sweetie? flashbacks still, or have they calmed down some?

I've been on WoW for awhile... got some dailies (quests that you can do every day) done so that's good. Feel icky now though because I ate breakfast like my mum told me to and now I really want to purge... so ****ing full!! I HATE FOOD. :(

Want to cut kind of too, but mostly I just want to sleep. So exhausted. Got up at 6am today when I ought to've slept in until 7am... so rarely do that & it would've been so nice!!

I don't think I have a ton of schoolwork to do (at least, that I can do at the mo)... just reading the next chapter in soc and reading 2 chapters in health psych and one or two in advanced counseling. *shrug* Lots of reading - oh, and reading more of Joan Chittister's book, gotta finish it by Wednesday. Gahh. Guess I have more than I thought I did!! :ermm:

:(

MammaMia 29-01-2010 04:00 PM

They've calmed down, hopefully won't come back for a while. We'll see.

Imaginary_friend 29-01-2010 04:17 PM

*hugs everyone*
*slides down to sit on the floor*

Jetforce 29-01-2010 04:22 PM

*goes makes some cakes for everbody to share*

Scarletdreamer 29-01-2010 04:34 PM

*cuddles Helen* I hope that they won't come back... ♥ How's your day going so far?

*cuddles LauraFriend* What's up, sweetie?

*huggles Jet* How're you doing today? Oooh cakes, what kind? :P

MammaMia 29-01-2010 05:18 PM

It's been a mixture of good and bad. Sat here crying over something really lame.

Imaginary_friend 29-01-2010 05:20 PM

*hugs*

Kahlia, Annie, Joc, Helen - i hope you're all feeling a bit better *hugs if wanted* take care :)

Jet - cake?!?! om nom nom :) i looove cake :)

April - i dunno. everything is p*****g me off at the moment. people are like "blah blah blah" without realising what they're saying is just making me feel worse. and it's just stupid things but it's all making me feel rubbish :(

my friends want me to go out again tonight...i'm really not in the mood for it. i'm shattered, i haven't done enough work, i'm still hungover and my arm kills after cutting last night...but i'll get massively bored if i stay in which will just make things worse, but if i go out i'll get horrifically drunk and i don't want to feel like i did last night again. argh.
i should just sleep. stay in and sleep. a lot. and not get distracted and go out somewhere....argh.

[Awakening] 29-01-2010 05:25 PM

Hugs graciously received thanks Laura friend and April

mmmmmmmmm did someone mention cake???? yum yum yum...

ive got a nasty headache, painkillers didnt help. I'm alright just a little exhausted i think. Ive got ethan tonight aswell :-/ eek!

sorry the pcs hurting my eyes when i read for too long so i cant catch up properly *cuddles to everyone who wants them*

*sinks into the new large corner sofa (its a pretty damn cool sofa) under a fleece blanket*

SoMuchMore 29-01-2010 06:03 PM

*cuddles kahlia* Im sorry you are feeling so poorly and that they didnt even help with your shoulder at the hospital. Stay strong.

*hugs april* that sucks that you have so much school work to do.. i have a ton too. Keep fighting those urges.. I know its hard...

And no i am not on anti anxiety meds. I don't actually see any doctors or anything about any of my issues... I've been there and done that.. it didn't help and i cant go now b/c i cant afford it and ive convinced my family that i'm alright, so i cant ask them for money help on this. and i dont think im being manipulated here... its with that friend that i had a fight with over the weekend... she wasnt talking to me and then she sent me a message that i dont want to just dismiss b/c she could be in a very dangerous mood... but she has so many people to talk to, idk she would ask me about this thing.

*hugs laurafriend and jet*

*hugs helen* its okay to cry over lame things sometimes... hope you are alright

*hugs jocelyn* sorry that you have a headache. Hope that it goes away soon.

I feel like i should just go back to sleep... even tho i didnt get up until like 10am. Idk why i'm always soo tired. Anyway, hoping that today is better then yesterday.. I'm not sure i have high hopes for it though...

Strawberry.Bananas 29-01-2010 08:05 PM

*sobs* I need hugs.
I've just had a message from my ex...I'm not going to tell you what it said cause it's personal but basically, there's no hope of us getting back together and I was so, so sure that I could get him back :(.
And what's more? I realised I have nobody in trw to talk to anymore. One mate has moved away and we don't talk much, 2 don't like me talking about him, 1 is an ass, 1 is in hospital and 1 has just had a miscarriage. I'm alone. Completely.

Scarletdreamer 29-01-2010 08:07 PM

*cuddles Helen* As LauraStar said, it's fine to cry over lame things sometimes. If you want to talk about it we're here... or you could always PM one of us. :) I don't think anyone would mind chatting with you further. How're you feeling now, since it's a few hours later?

*huggles Jocelyn* I'm sorry you have a headache; those suck. Did you try taking a nap? because sometimes that helps... also sometimes, for my mum, an icepack on the head helps too. It depends on where the headache is centred though. How are you doing now?

*snuggles LauraFriend* If you don't want to go out tonight, then don't... especially if you know you won't be wise about how much you drink. Please try & take care of yourself, love... take some time out tonight for you - to be spent in healthy ways... like painting your nails, taking a bubble bath or a bath with salts, reading a fun book, journaling, writing poetry (even if you suck!! - lol - it's still a good release of emotion), etc. Coddle yourself a bit. :) There's nothing wrong with that.

*hugs LauraStar* Ah I see, about the having been-there-done-that thing. I wish that you could get some help... I mean, help that actually helped, you know? I have an anxiety & phobias workbook that I need to start - when I do I'll let you know how it goes. :) Maybe something like that, that you do on your own time & at your own pace, would help you more than therapy & meds? I don't know, just an idea. Hmm, be careful with this friend... I hope that it goes okay & that she's not in a dangerous mood OR manipulating you.

I'm doing "meh." I have lunch sitting in front of me but don't want it, oddly enough... don't know why not. It's really odd. I was hungry earlier but now I'm not. I wonder if it's the Depakote? making it harder for me to eat... I don't know. And I am soo tired... a friend suggested iron levels and so I might start taking my supplements again. I totally forgot about them, TBH.

*sigh*

Kahlia1981 29-01-2010 10:23 PM

*hugs everyone*

Thank you for your kind words.

I had a really severe nightmare (flashback) last night and ended up waking up my housemate. I slept okay after taking some Xanax but I needed my iPod to help me out.

I still feel exactly the same. :(

*curls up in a dark corner*

Imaginary_friend 29-01-2010 10:33 PM

*hugs Kahlia* I don't really know what to say but... *hands blanket and soft toy* :)

thanks april. i'm not going out and i'm not drinking by myself either :) haven't got a bath cos i'm at college and there's only showers which sucks :( really fancy a bath. o wells. might go to bed soon otherwise i'll get bored and bad things will happen.....
*grabs a blanket and snuggles down*

Scarletdreamer 30-01-2010 12:10 AM

*cuddles everyone*

Kahlia, what type of music do you like? (other than the all-powerful Within Temptation!!! :D) Just wondering. :) I'm sorry that you had a nightmare/flashback-y sort of thing, that's awful... and I wish that I could help you feel better. :( *big hugs*

LauraFriend, I hope that you get some good sleep tonight!! and don't do anything "stupid" if you don't manage to get to sleep. How're you feeling now? *hugs*

I'm kind of "meh." Struggling a LOT with anxiety and fidgetiness (inside of me, not outside - ADHD'ness I guess you could say?)... can't read for long periods of time, can't do schoolwork, only thing I can do is something that changes frequently (like posting on here, or playing WoW, or writing in my LJ as I can babble all I want to in there about whatever's on my mind). GAHHH!!!!

Need to look up side effects of Depakote & see if that one is anywhere in there. :-X

Kahlia1981 30-01-2010 12:27 AM

*hugs everyone*

LauraFriend - thanks for the blanket and the soft toy ... they will come in very useful. It may be summer here but we have had monsoonal rain from being just outside the edges of a cyclone

April - I like WT (of course), Kamelot, Evanescence, Nightwish (though I prefer their stuff from when Tarja was their lead singer), H.I.M (His Infernal Majesty) and Superchick .... probably not an obvious combination

Does anyone know what the chemical name of Geodon is?

SoMuchMore 30-01-2010 01:43 AM

*hugs april* i hate being fidgety, it can feel so annoying.

*hugs laurafriend* I hope you sleep well and can avoid bad thoughts.

*hugs kahlia* im sorry that you had nightmares.. I hate them. oh, and i think Geodon is also known as "ziprasidone hydrochloride" as a capsule anyway.. idk if it has other names for like injections or whatever. Sorry if that is not what u were looking for.

Just got back from dinner... wanting to curl up and die kinda. Trying to avoid bad thoughts.
I am also trying to be careful around my friend. Something is fishy there, i just know it... I really don't think im just being paranoid, something doesn't feel right.

Scarletdreamer 30-01-2010 01:59 AM

*cuddles Kahlia* Yeh, LauraStar's right, it's "ziprasidone hydrochloride." I didn't know it came in any different forms other than a capsule - stupid me perhaps for not thinking of that - but oh well. I love Superchick!! - and I've been told that I ought to listen to Kamelot. Nightwish is also a favorite, although I haven't heard much of their stuff since Tarja wasn't the lead singer. :) How're you feeling tonight? *more cuddles & a handmade fleece blanket to curl up in* (I used to make those :D)

*cuddles LauraStar* I hope that things will be okay with your friend & you... if you doubt that things are alright, really truly within you, then you're probably right... I dunno though, as I don't know your friend. Just be careful. What seems so wrong about the situation? (sorry if that's too nosy) How's your evening going?

Just got off WoW, played for quite awhile... it's already 8pm & I haven't had a shower or anything, whoops. I know for most people that's not very late but it is for me!! ever since I got married, anyway. I get sleepy around 7pm and am usually in bed by eight. Heh. I think I'mma go take a shower/bath (have to decide which, probably a bath as the water will be unpredictable at this time of night, what with everyone else in the complex taking showers too!!)... then maybe come back on, or not, I'm not sure.

*cuddles everyone*

SoMuchMore 30-01-2010 02:49 AM

april - lol i couldn't imagine going to bed by 8.. i usually stay up until like 3 or 4 in the morning b/c i am a complete insomniac lol.. hope you have a good night though.

Well it would be kinda a long explaination for the thing with my friend.. but readers digest version: she wasn't speaking to me, then she was sorta online.. it was like a supremely fake we are gonna be chatty and say "lol" a lot so that neither of us can be taken seriously, and then the next day she sent me a message asking me if ive ever been suicidal and how i made it go away... the odd thing is is that she doesn't know about any of my issues, unless someone else has told her... so idk why she would ask me that... i answered her with a generic thing like 'give it time, time usually makes things feel better'... but idk. I feel weird that she even sent that message to me... she didnt respond back ever... and she has sooo many other ppl to talk to and we werent on the best of terms so... i feel like she might be trying to hit a nerve with me or something if someone told her about my stuff... Hm.. idk it doesnt sound as bad when i type it out.. u would have to see her body language around me.. its kinda cold.. so.. idk

Kahlia1981 30-01-2010 04:52 AM

Time to run away and cry now ....

*hides in a dark corner until she disappears*

Scarletdreamer 30-01-2010 11:58 AM

Vicki, love, I'm so sorry I didn't respond to your earlier post. *big big cuddles* I wish I could take all the pain away, erase it & make you feel better, but I can't... all I can do is be here to talk, pray, & comfort. I has a kitty in my lap again, if kitty snuggles would help (hehe)... but honestly, I don't have much advice or anything, since I've never been through a true break-up. I can imagine the pain, though, especially if you thought you could get him back, & it must be tremendous. *holds you gently* How're you doing this morning?

*cuddles LauraStar* Lol, insomniac indeed!! What time do you get up, though? because I get up around 5-6am and am not TOO exhausted throughout the day (well, not as much as if I went to bed at 3-4 and got up 5-6!! hehe). I hope that you got some good sleep last night. :)

That situation with your friend... wow. I wouldn't know how to react either, but I think that you did the "right thing," if there were a right thing to do in that situation with the given variables!! :-X *hugs*

*cuddles Kahlia* What's going on, love? same intrusive, awful thoughts, etc.? or something new's come up? *more cuddles*

How is everyone else? Jocelyn, LauraFriend, Franz, whomever else I'm forgetting? ♥

I'm doing okay. Just got up so am kind of a walking zombie. Apparently the walls in our apartment don't have insulation - or much - so it is ****ing FREEZING here... and my comp is by a wall... so yeah. Cold. I really ought to have some socks on, lol - right now I'm in sweats & a tshirt & I'm thinking of adding a hoodie & socks. BRRRR. It must be awfully cold outside.

May go out for breakfast this morning, but I'm not sure. It would be nice, but I don't know. I just dreamt about going to Dunkin' Donuts for breakfast, right before we woke up... lol. Weird dream that was - my Women & Spirituality class prof was in it looking for something (forget what now). Definitely weird. :P

*cuddles everyone*

Kahlia1981 30-01-2010 12:54 PM

*hugs everyone*

April: Same stuff ... it just never seems to end. I want there to be a pause button on life so that I can have a break and then restart when I'm ready

Sorry to everyone for no individual replies ... I don't feel able to be supportive at the moment. I'm a bad person :(

Imaginary_friend 30-01-2010 12:58 PM

*hugs Laura* stuff with your friend sounds hard.....hope you can get it sorted somehow. I know it's really hard to sort out other stuff when you don't feel so great yourself *hugs* take care.

*hugs Vicki* we're always here if/when you wanna talk *hands hot chocolate and a soft toy* :)

*hugs Kahlia* what's up? :(

*hugs April* hope you have a good breakfast out if you go :) donuts sound good right now..

I'm going to see Avatar 3D later with some friends. I'm hoping it'll be good and it'll be good for me i'm sure to go out and socialise without drinking for a change! haha. ended up staying in last night but didn't get to sleep till like 1am which is always annoying. *shrugs* guess that's just the way it goes.

Imaginary_friend 30-01-2010 12:59 PM

*hugs Kahlia* you are NOT a bad person. it's fine. we understand :) i want a pause button too so i know how you feel there...*hugs*

Scarletdreamer 30-01-2010 01:24 PM

*squishes Kahlia gently* I understand... you don't need to be supportive at the mo, you're struggling a great deal & even so, offer a lot to the community here just by being here. I hope that makes sense... :-/ because I have a feeling that it doesn't. Heh. But anyway, you're welcome here even if you are unable to support right now. I want a pause button too!! as long as I could pause it at a GOOD spot, lol. :-/

*cuddles LauraFriend* Avatar is AWESOME!!! :D I hope that you enjoy it... and yeh, it's good that you're doing something social that DOESN'T involve drinking. I didn't see Avatar in 3D form, just normal, but I loved it anyway. Even bought the Avatar shirt (from Walmart, not Hot Topic, as there was a $17 difference!!). It's an amazing movie. :)

We're not going out for breakfast, which makes things a little more annoying, heh. I'll probably just have oatmeal... blah. Oh well. Donuts do sound good though, but I wouldn't've had one this morning anyway. :P

I really don't want to do schoolwork. I feel so ADHD, it's awful!!!! :'(

MammaMia 30-01-2010 01:40 PM

*curls up*
It's amazing how things can turn into one huge bloody mess hey? Got to try fix it later today, that'll be so much fun. I expect more tears & rows (Y)

Sorry, too many replies to attempt indvidual ones. But everyone is feeling a little bit better xx

*cuddles*

Scarletdreamer 30-01-2010 01:44 PM

*huggles Helen* What happened that's a "huge bloody mess"? Hope you can fix up things a bit, as upsets etc. like that are no good (I am assuming that it has to do with other people - perhaps I oughtn't assume?).

I just got friend-accepted on Facebook by Doris Smeltzer!! :D (She wrote Andrea's Voice: Silenced by Bulimia which I've read twice & is keeping me from giving in to the urges... it was about her 19 year old daughter :( so sad.) But anyway, I was really happy to get that accept!! lol. May sound silly, but oh well.

*cuddles everyone*

Kahlia1981 30-01-2010 02:12 PM

*hugs everyone and could really do with some hugs or warm wishes herself*

LauraFriend && April: I think that the idea with the pause button is, if you aren't able to pause before you get into a situation. then you can get the skills you need to cope with it

MammaMia 30-01-2010 02:31 PM

*cuddles April & Kahlia*

Wow, you lucky thing :D Although I got another authort on my facebook aha. She's written books about children in foster care. Covering a range of issues like cutting/abuse/etc :)

I'll pm about the mess thing, incase someone reads it, it wont help later..

Scarletdreamer 30-01-2010 02:31 PM

*cuddles Kahlia & sends some snuggly-warm wishes on her way!!* ♥

Ahh I see now. That makes sense. :)

Feeling **** still?

[Awakening] 30-01-2010 09:20 PM

Had a good day with Ethan, stressful, but when is life with a toddler not?

Parting tore my heart to pieces. Shattered.

Now the drink and fags come in....

I was feeling optimistic. I was hopeful. I was looking forward to the rest of the weekend. I was feeling like I could handle placement on Monday, for the week.

Now I feel ****. Now I feel broken. Now I feel hopeless.

One tiny good bye and I'm down again. Lord, help me up!

Sorry no supprt from my end, again, tonight. I love you all dearly, I hope you're not suffering too much sweeties.

*lots of cuddles to all on the ward*

feeling really shitty right now :-(

Scarletdreamer 31-01-2010 02:20 AM

*cuddles Jocelyn*

I'm glad that you got to spend time with Ethan, but I'm sorry that it was stressful. However, you're right - what time spent with a toddler isn't?!

What made/makes you feel broken & hopeless? Sorry if I missed that in your post... :-S

*more cuddles*

SoMuchMore 31-01-2010 03:16 AM

*cuddles helen, kahlia, april, and jocelyn*

hope you guys are all feeling alright.

brndedhero 31-01-2010 04:05 AM

Missed the past 2 days of posts so I'm sending out hugs to everyone in here.

I hope things get better for everyone soon.

MammaMia 31-01-2010 04:25 AM

*cuddles everyone*

Sorry I went off and didn't really explain. Sorry I didn't come back tonight like normal. Plus sorry I didn't send a pm April, probably for the best I didn't anymore. Sorted it out anyway I think :)

Tonight's been, how can I put it, really emotional. But I've realised some things tonight, thank goodness I did it now, when I can change it and if something I want happens, then it does, and not because I forced it to happed, made mistakes & got hurt along the way...

Scarletdreamer 31-01-2010 11:44 AM

*cuddles LauraStar* How're you doing, love? (and it is fine with us if you do talk about what's going on in your head/life!! ♥)

*hugs Alan* How're things going for you?

*cuddles Helen* I'm glad that things got sorted out... that's good. :) And I'm glad that you realized those things... way to go!! Sounds like if whatever it is does happen, it will be in a healthy way rather than in an unhealthy way - and that's awesome. :D

I just got up about 20 minutes ago... morning routine, lol, of RYL & WoW. It's only 5:45am here so am going to be tired tonight. Went to bed just past 9 last night. Ugh. :-/ I hate feeling sleepy.

I also hate feeling distracted & unable to concentrate!!! and that's how I've been feeling lately. :( Like, ever since I started the Depakote. So yeah. I'm blaming the Depakote... my NP said it COULD be that but "let's give it another few weeks" - AHHHH!!!!! I need - need - to be able to focus for school, especially this term, ESPECIALLY this term!!!! :ermm:

Anyway.

*hides* :o

Imaginary_friend 31-01-2010 01:16 PM

*hugs everyone*
sorry - can't do individual replies, my head is all over the place.
April - i can't concentrate either. literally, 10-15 minutes and that's it. haha. managed to write an essay though..somehow. maybe it's just how i work best. f*** knows. hmph. oh wells. at least it's done. only another....40000 words to go....:/
had a good day yesterday - avatar is officially amazing. can i go and live on pandora please? but today is gonna be weird....this guy i've been having all the dramas with is coming over later to pick up tickets for this gig we're going to and i haven't actually seen him properly since before christmas and before all this **** happened...*sighs* maybe i'll just not be in....urgh. but i wanna see him. i dunno what's going on in my head...
*hides in the corner*

MammaMia 31-01-2010 01:30 PM

*hides in the denial tent*

Strawberry.Bananas 31-01-2010 01:44 PM

I can't cope anymore. Nothing has gone right so far this year and I can't carry on like this. I went out last night to try and have a good time and get over Graeme, but I ended up missing him even more, having £50 and my phone stolen from my bag.
I want to die. I have no idea what to do anymore. I don't know how I can stay safe. The crisis team will be no use, they wont put me in hospital cause I'm not severe enough. I don't know what to do.

[Awakening] 31-01-2010 01:48 PM

Oh Vicki hon, I'm so sorry about your phone and money! Thats awful, it can make u feel really vulnerable and pointless. I'm so sorry sweetie.
Please be strong. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I know its hard to see but its there. We all love you and want you to fight for your life, so please do sweetie!

Have you got any friends you can hang out with today?

I'm sorry the crisis team suck (i can second that!) but if u really don't feel safe and u feel u need to be admitted then u need to make that clear to them. You need to be blunt and tell them what you need hon.

Have you got anything planned for today?

Strawberry.Bananas 31-01-2010 02:13 PM

I honestly can't see that light anymore. It seems to be getting darker and darker if anything. Nothing's going right. At all.

Not really...I have my family around but I just want to...

Maybe...I had an appointment with my doctor tomorrow anyway so I'll talk to him and see what he says...I can imagine he'll just tell me to hold and see what happens though. That's what I'm always told.

My plans for today are calling the police and sorting out insurance now, yay! I might take my niece out in a bit if I find the strength...

[Awakening] 31-01-2010 02:21 PM

Thats a good idea to take you niece out. that might keep u distracted.

I'm sorry again that things are so bleak, but they will lighten, given time.

I wish I could help :( Just try to be completely honest and open with your dr and try not to entertain any negative plans sweetie.


*squishes*
x x x x

Scarletdreamer 31-01-2010 02:35 PM

*cuddles Jocelyn, Vicki, LauraFriend, & Helen*

Vicki, love, I'm so sorry that that happened to you last night, especially when you were trying to forget about Graeme. What happened was/is awful & I'm glad that you're planning on calling the police. *squish* Please try to get help as well - there IS light at the end of the tunnel, you just might not be to a place yet where you can see it... but there is, you've got to keep believing that!! ♥

Joc, how you doing, sweetie? *huggles*

Helen, what's up? *hides in the denial tent with you*

LauraFriend, I told you that Avatar was amazing!! :D I'm so glad that you liked it... I wish I could have as idyllic a life as they did on Pandora (not the humans, the aliens, forget their name!! :o). Well, not necessarily idyllic as there were enemies etc., but it sure looked lovely!! :) especially compared to being a human on that planet. >_<

Do you have any idea why your concentration is so bad? Mine is seriously awful, bugging me to no end!! *hugs*

*sigh*

[Awakening] 31-01-2010 02:47 PM

*snuggles into April* I'm alright I think. I feel a bit dead but that's better than feeling crap so... I think it was the saying bye to Ethan thing that set me off, then my ex started to have a go at me because i had E unsupervised, tis a stupid rule and i'm tlking to my solicitor about getting it dropped it just give my ex amunition against me, power over me and that isnt good for me or Ethan. He was screaming when i left him :-( and it just all set me off.

How are you doing April? You going/ been to church today? x x

Scarletdreamer 31-01-2010 02:55 PM

*snuggles Jocelyn* This is probably an insensitive question & I do apologize - you can answer in a PM or not at all, if you want - but why do you have to be supervised with Ethan? (sorry, totally don't mean it to be insensitive, am just curious as have not heard all of the backstory)

Anyway, glad you're not feeling crap but feeling dead inside a bit isn't much/any better, really, is it? *more snuggles* Hopefully as the day goes on you'll feel even more better. :)

No, not going to church... we do usually go to church but I have a lot of schoolwork to get done - if only I could ****ing concentrate!!! This is driving me absolutely insane. :crying: I hate not being able to focus or take in material!!!

*hides away forever'n'ever*

[Awakening] 31-01-2010 03:04 PM

Not insensitive at all dw April. At the end of dec while Ethan was with his dad i took some sleepers in the bath, ended up at a&e, was fine but very out of it lol and talked to some psychs. told them i wasnt trying to kill myself (the quantity wasnt enough to anyway and the bath was just because i forgot to get out!) i was wanted/needed a rest. So we decided it would be best if ethan stayed with his dad for a while because i wasn't well (depression wise)

Anywho... a doctor, dont know who, even though they agreed and it was in my notes that it clearly wasnt a sui attempt, wrote to social services stated that they werent concerned about ethan because i tried to kill myself!

Social called up my ex and told them that i should be supervised around ethan and that he should seek legal advice if he was worried. So he did.

We went to court ( i really wasnt well, in no state to look after a child and i had made this clear by asking for help, not trying to do it alone and therefore not putting ethan in any danger)

Because of what social services said, even though they never once spoke to me, the court ruled that ethan should stay with H (ex) until i'm better and that i should only be allowed supervised contact, unless H says differently. All a bit of a joke if u ask me. I'm fine with E staying with H because that makes sense, but we didnt need a court to tell us that! Im not thick, if i feel i cant look after E alone then i surround myself with people to help! I always ask for help when needed and now im penalised for it. I know theyre trying to protect E but they have never even spoken or assessed me.

Sorry rant over!

MammaMia 31-01-2010 03:07 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Keep fighting Vicki, it will get better.
April, I'm sorry you have no concentration.
Joc, sounds pretty **** hunny *cuddles*

Ugh, today is not going the way it was planned :'( One best friend is giving me all this talk of leaving etc. The other isn't answering her godamm phone so now I'm getting worried sick. When deep down I know she's probably STILL talking to her hubby or is asleep :'( But I need her. She promised me...

Imaginary_friend 31-01-2010 07:12 PM

i can't do this. i can't cope with seeing him. how pathetic. i need to grow up. and get over him. like, now. argh. i'm such a retard. i can't do this. i wanna cut :'(
*ties self to a bed and cries*

Scarletdreamer 31-01-2010 09:58 PM

*holds LauraFriend, Helen, & Jocelyn*

I'm sorry you all are feeling so down, loves... wish I could help more than I can. :(

Joc, thanks for informing me what happened without being offended. That's really rough & I can see why it would be a ranty topic to be brought up. Sorry!! :-S How are you doing now?

I have a ton of work to do & have no concentration for it... my portfolio is due this week & I have practically nothing for it. I'm really scared. I don't even have a binder for it!! or anything... I feel so stupid. :crying: I just wish I could fastforward through this term & get through it okay...

Just got back from my parents' place. It was nice but I think I ate too much, and of course wanted to purge. Didn't, of course, but still... I hate the urges. :( I am so sick of my life.

I see my therapist tomorrow morning... like that's going to make my day go well. I hope it does but I highly doubt it!!

*hides* :'(

Imaginary_friend 31-01-2010 10:28 PM

fml. really, fml. i can't do this anymore.....


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