leaves hugs for everyone.

*hugs Mary Anne*
cry if you need to hunni... I promise... you will eventually stop.

*cuddles Emma*
Oh Sweetie, I am sorry you are feeling so lousy. I hope that you stayed safe last night (didn't drive). Please please PLEASE take care hun, I love you too too much for anything to happen to you (selfish I know but *shrug*) *much love*

*cuddles emma and ally plus anyone else who needs them*

xxx

*leaves hugs for everyone and stays hiding under a chair in the smoking shelter*

*takes (non flammable) cushions and blankets out to people in the smoking shelter*




[ I'm all over the place atm, not sure what to do or where to turn, and am scaring myself with the phases of calm I'm experiencing lodged between utter despair and break downs. Somehow whatever I feel the world keeps turning. I'm not used to feeling like this, there is a numbness and spaced feeling which has trapped me.. and i'll shut up. *goes back to a corner*]

I still (unfortunatly) exist.
Having to be a social person sucks. I just want uni to be over.

A day o hell.
Least my work is handed in....right?

Well done for getting your work in Helen.

Rubbish day for me too, this time of year is horrible, too many people shoving their happiness right in my face, I hate going out just now.

Work night out tomorrow (well is starts at 1:30pm so afternoon &n night) think I will try to escape early.

*hugs*

*hides out in smoking shelter under a cushion*

Thanks for the cushions and blankets horizon_surfer. Now I can make my little "fort" out here under the chair.

*hugs all*

Thanks Mary Anne, massive cuddles coming your way

*cuddles for everyone*

I've not been very good at supporting lately, I feel like I'm slowly drifting from RYL in some way. I can't stand the arguments that are going on.

*feels the need to sit with someone :)*

Can I help in anyway Helen ??? After all - a friend will happily shout with you on the mountain tops and quietly walk beside you in the valley. That's the kind of person I'd like to be for you all.

*hugs all*

Sorry I haven't been good at supporting lately ... we're just coming up to a bad time of year.

*curls up in the corner*

I want him back..... L( :S

*sigh* I should be excited about later, but... for some reason I'm just... not. I dunno I don't even get why I'm in such a crap mood. >.<

Down into the shadows we go again. Just feeling like crap. Sorry.

*makes a fort and hides in the smoking shelter*

*cuddles everyone tight*

Hannnnnnnnna, one hour & I'll be on the train coming to you =D

*hugs* to anyone who needs them.

Hiiiiii


Hells is back in High Wycombe with the crrrrrrrrrazy people ;)

*takes a selection of hot and cold drinks to the smoking shelter fort and just leaves them by the entrance*

i guess we're all pretty low today but *hugs* anyway for everyone.

i dont know how to be normal anymore. even pretending. sociably acceptable even. i'm getting scared i'll freak out in public tonight and ruin my life here as well as everywhere else ive been. i cant afford to lose this place. it was perfect but i can feel it slipping. but i dont have anywhere else to go after here, i need it to stay stable for a bit longer but its already starting to fade. i dont have anyone left. i need him back but i never had him. how you get back what isnt yours? :( i gotta survive on my own, and im not sure how.

Why do I feel so crappy at the moment? Two of my friends have both done amazingly on part of their degrees and I should feel so happy for them! And I AM proud, but their success just reminds me how much I am screwing up my degree. I can't focus on stuff anymore, my motivation is so shot to pieces and god damn it this isn't like me :( I am contemplating asking to take a year out to try and sort myself out. I have work today too and I just can't face it. At the moment it seems impossible for me to get through today. Such a **** up.

*hugs all*

*cuddles emma* i don't think ur a **** up!!! May be it is wise to sort urself out b4 going to uni and wat not? Come to aus hehe for a trip lol :P

I feel lousy and useless atm...wishing i was dead atm..*Sigh* probably won't happen till i'm old..but still, i want out :-(

*hugs everyone*

work night out was hell, fake happiness all round, even had a wee cry in the loos at one point, got drunk (whoops, I am not supposed to drink) which made me morbid, went home before I made a tit of myself at least.

x

*hugs everyone*

Sorry, am not able to find the words to support at the moment. Just wanted to let you all know that i'm reading, even if i'm not responding.

*sends cuddles to all*

You're all amazing people. Seriously.

*crawls into bed sobbing* I didn't want to leave and now I'm crying again. Stuipd girl. Gonna get stuipdly fat at this rate. Have put on a stone in the last 12 months, as I've had a lot more meals out/takeaways. Haven't eaten healthily all weekend....Hannah can back me up on that one :p

Oh my dear 'ATP drinking buddy', you are not a **** up. I'll tell you I wanted several times to take time off from Uni to sort myself out... probably should have as then maybe would have done better when I got back... All this that you are talking about is part and parcle of what you are dealing with hun, it is nothing about you, not inherently. *cuddles* Love you so much sweetie.

Emma M. (OK, that's not your last name but it is the first letter of your username, lol) you're not stupid hun. I wish I could say something to help sweetie but I can hug *cuddles*

*sits in her corner and stares out at the falling snow as tears roll down her cheeks, unbidden*

*leaves cuddles for everyone*

*phones in sick and curls up in corner to cry*

*Hugs anyone who needs them*

Still got a horrible cough and am not helping it by smoking so much. x

*cuddles everyone*

I eventually stopped crying, had a few worries all night but slept from 3-10am, and actually woke up. Normally on a Sunday, I sleep in til after 12pm :p

*hugs anyone who wants/needs one*

It's been so hot and humid today that I kept crashing out ... getting sucked dry by the warmth. Blech ... I hate townsville whether.

*hugs everyone tight*

now I have the flu, at least it will be an excuse for avoiding all festivities

love to all
x

I want the godamm flu =\
But maybe I'll regret saying that if I get it?

Helen, my head feels like it is going to explode but people do leave you alone so it is a double edged sword!

Hope you are okay.

*waves at everyone so as not to pass on germs and runs back to smoking shelter and hides under duvet*

I'm okay I think :)

Just feeling poorly and a little fragile, things are challenging at the moment, but in a fighting spirit so it's good :)

*cuddles Helen*

*cuddles Amanda*

Wish this would go away.

I hate being poor :-(
I have really really bad stomach cramps...
last time I had cramps like this, I ended up
in the ER with a ruptured ovarian cyst and an UTI...
but I can't go to the ER... or even the doctor, because
I have no insurance... and no money. *cries*

*cuddles Manda*
I hopes you're feeling better soon :(
Stomach cramps suck =[

bleh.
I feel like...
ew i dont even know what ><
Im hurting in places I didnt know existed!!!!
Stupid cars ><

OMG that sucks. I remember the pain I was in when I had a ruptured ovarian cyst so I'm hearing you Manda. I hope for your sake that it isn't a cyst though. *hugs you*

Sorry I'm not being more supportive to everyone. I'm just not able to push through my head. So sorry.

haha DITTO!!!

Where is everyone?
im well drowsty....I want a cuddle :(

*offers cuddles to Alexx*

*leaves hugs for everyone who wants/needs one*

oh. thankyou.
:]
*curls up and sleeps*

*comes in and looks around nervously* is it ok for realitive newbies to wonder in still?

Had a bad day. Waiting on pain medication funding. Fighting with everyone. Didn't get a job I had decent shot at. feel very poor and in general hating the enforced happy fest that is Christmas.

*huddles with big blanket in the corner*

Come on in and make yourself at home. I hope you find some solace here.

Thanks Kahlia1981....I hope so too. It seems a pretty awesome plug *hugs*

*cuddles everyone lots*

WHERE is everyone indeed?

I know Emma (Pomegranate) is really busy at the moment with works and stuff. The other Emma (lil-princess) doesn't post here that much now and is leaving. Jem and Ally don't post much either.

I do wonder where our Callie & Jo have gotten themselves to....it's been far too long :(

o.o;;

Been watching this thread a bit...never really had the balls to post 'til now :sweat: