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I'm claustraphobic today. So I think I'll sit outside in the corridor and guard so that everyone else is safer.
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You okay Susan and mors certa (sorry, dunno your name)?
I'm doing better than I was last night. |
*rubs eyes and comes out from behind pot plant* :blink:
Hey everyone?! *shouts that loudly as lots of you seem to be hiding inside cupboards and holes* Hope people are having/had pleasent dreams (those of you who are sleeping atm and those of you currently awake!) I actually slept well and feeling ok today :-D Glad that your feeling a bit better zowie *snuggles* Oh gosh, my alarms just gone off, didn't realise the time, time for my 3rd nap of the day, lol! |
I'm ok. I just get claustraphobic sometimes. I used to be phobic about the dark too.
I'm restless and only have a small mending job to do, so i'll be doing a lot of hand work this week. |
*rubs eyes* oh nap over....how I wish I could now have a coffee...
Glad you're ok Susan. Is there anything we can do to help when you feel claustraphobic? The RYL blanket sounds a fab idea that you're contributing to. I wish I was creative in that way..... *goes out to smoking shelter* |
I am so bad :p
Went to sleep at 6am and slept until 3pm =\ |
For those of you that care about me and my whereabouts, I will be offline for several weeks starting on Wednesday. I have contacted my case manager at the insurance company and advised her that I need to be an inpatient somewhere that will actually treat me, rather than locking me in a room. I also advised her that I cannot go anywhere until Wednesday morning, as I am the only caregiver for the kids until then. Final part that I advised her of is the fact that I have every intention of killing myself on Thursday, I have mailed the things I need to accomplish this so that they will arrive on Thursday. If I am available to receive them, then I will use them. She seemed to be agreeable to the concept of getting me into a facility on Wednesday morning. We shall see, at this point in time, either solution works for me.
There is 0.01% of me that wants to get help, the rest wants Thursday to arrive, so the case manager is trying to see to it that the 1/100% gets its way rather than the 99.99% Please do not waste your hugs or tears on me, either direction the end of this madness is near, and I am content that I have done what I am supposed to do. As a human being, I am supposed to make the effort to live, and I have done so. The rest, as they say, is out of my hands. Please take care of yourselves, I am operating on the assumption that I will be an inpatient on Wednesday, and that it will be around 2 weeks of inpatient therapy after I arrive. Could be more, could be less. I will not have any access to any electronic devices once I go in, so will not be able to communicate. I am awaiting the case managers response, and will let you know. I know that I tried this inpatient thing before at a holding facility, told her I would not do that again, and I identified the only facility within 100 miles that offers what I need. Again, don't waste your time on this, probably wasted enough reading this post. Thank you for helping me so much over the past few months, I hope that I have provided more comfort than pain, more support than drag. |
*hugs Jeff*
We're not wasting anything on you, we give hugs etc because yoju deserve them and because we're so caring xx I hope all goes well hun x |
*Group hug*
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Skip the wednesday crap, going now. Goodbye, will contact when I get out, if I get out.
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Jeff I've PM'd you, was long waffle that didn't want to block up the ward with. I hope you get a chance to read it before you go. Good luck with the treatment. *snuggles*
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*is sad that jeff is going :crying:but pleased that he's getting treatment :thumbup: *
*goes outside to smoking shelter to have BIG fag and long hard think* |
*support for jeff*
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*group hug*
We'll miss you Jeff |
*says a prayer for her bro*
*weeps* My unemployment situation is starting to wear. My husband made a rude comment about it this morning. I don't know what to do about it. *sobs* |
*hugs Susan*
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Thanks Helen.
I am crying because I am so very worried about Jeff. When he was going in, I was at the bead store getting a charm for my bracelet so I can remember to pray for him while he's gone inpatient. He really likes trains and train museums and so do I, so I got a charm that is a 1800's type locomotive. *clings to everyone and weeps* |
It's okay to be worried hun. But you know this will help him, well I hope it does :) You'll have us to lean on.
I do miss Emma :( I feel like I haven't spoken to her in ages it's werid. People have diisapeeared.. Amanda? Hana? Emma? Emma? Ally? Alexx? Jem? Jess? How you guys doing? |
This is an automated message: Jess is away right now and not available to answer calls. She is busy self-destructing. Thank you and have a nice day.
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This is an automated message: Jess is away right now and not available to answer calls. She is busy self-destructing. Thank you and have a nice day.
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I know it is for the best. I just have a big soft heart and that is okay.
I am going to need you. For me, i'm going to be restless, kinda squirrely, for the next few days, till the 27th. Then it is, i hope and god willing, PARTY! |
Here, and not happy about it :crying:
*hunts for the tissues* I'm sorry I missed you Jeff and that you're in such a bad place at the moment... I love you*massive hugs* *heads to her linen closet with the tissues* |
*hugs ally*
Jeff is taking care of himself. And I may be a short stuff, but my shoulders are broad and I have a big heart. I can't take his place. I'll just be me and help however I can though. |
*hugs all*
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Blondie-mum, you're great just as you are :-D
*cuddles up to her RYL-mum with a blanket and her stuffed lamb* |
Maybe I'd be better dead.
I don't know though. What on earth do I want? |
*hugs you* i dont know what i can say to help you but i'm here if you want to talk or need a cuddle or anything *offers cuddles*
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*takes cuddles and gives you some aswell*
It's odd I feel this way. Because I dont feel sucidical. Even though I'm thinking about it. As in doing it. *shrugs* I've upset Jess. Bad Hells. I would REALLY love to see my best friend right now. I haven't heard from her for 18 days or so. It's real hard not having her in this country. When am I gonna be ok again? Never probably |
*gives hugs to everyone who wants and needs them*
I really want to sit and cry, and to hurt myself so badly that I never recover. I'd like to ask for hugs if anyone has any to spare. And possibly a nice shoulder to cry on. Kahlia |
*sits and rocks in the corner* can someone just shoot me or something? I don't want to do this anymore. I'm not sure I can :(
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*sits with emma*
hello my dear. i don't know if i can do this anymore either. shall we be uncertain together? |
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* offers hugs to Pomegranate and effervescence *
I know I'm not in here as often as I would like and probably should be .... I'm sorry. * curls up in a corner and pulls several layers of blankets over her head * I managed to dislocate a bone in my foot, which may be fractured, however, because it's a foot we won't find out for possibly another week. Between the pain in my foot and my messed up head I just don't know what to do. I want to hide away from the world. I want to destroy myself, and I'm scared that I will actually go ahead and do it. Is there a way out other than what is in my head ?? * cuddles up to a teddybear * |
I had to end a friendship yesterday. I wasn't helping and it was messing me up, totally upsetting me.
I have the locomotive charm to look at so I remember to pray for my Bro, Jeff. He is in my thoughts and prayers all the time right now. *cuddles Ally* Kahlia, come over and sit with Ally and me? I love to cuddle people and I need the cuddles myself. |
*hugs everyone*
*retreats to a corner to attempt to sleep* |
A year is too long, got to be happy...can I wait?
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**cuddles everyone**
How can I go from thinking about death to giggling pretty hard in a matter of minutes.. |
Tried having a nap but just had a nightmare so now I'm awake and thinking about self-destruction.
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*huggles Zowie*
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*hides in cupboard*
stupid stupid stupid!!! |
*cuddles Marc, Helen, Sophie, Zowie*
*leaves a box of super soft hand crocheted or hand sewn cuddles for anyone who wants or needs them* *prays for her Bro* *Hangs out doing hand work* |
parents suck. end of.
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This is NOT normal.
It should have killed me there and then. Would save me the effort of having to freaking try again. (Y) |
would anyone like some hugs?
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I would love a hug.
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*huggles and cuddles lots*
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Would adore to be wrapped in hugs.
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