Hiya All , How are you all Doing ?

My Anxiety is making me tearful . . . .

My Head is spinning with negative, hypothetical, Insecure, Anxious Thoughts , I REALLY need it to STFU , I took a Diaz but it's not had time to kick in yet .

Hush , Please Hush . . . .

I've done it again. I let my pride allow me to fall into this strange place of mixed emotions, insomnia and whispers.
If events and responsibilities would allow, I'd stay like this. Unhinged.
But I have reason to force myself to go back to the meds.
Hopefully I can hang on to it for just a while longer.
I'm not quite down. Nor am I in that heady irresistible state of buoyancy. I dislike this. Wanting to hurt myself, followed by sense of energy, to despair, to restless vacancy trying to figure out who won't bloody shut up.
I needed to write this. To pretend it isn't just me.
Too much pressure in my head.thats all its ever been. Make it stop.

*offers everyone safe hugs*

Welcome Amberita!

I'm struggling a bit right now. Every doctor my middle child sees my youngest is seeing now too. So instead of 9 specialists/therapists and then the pediatrician it's now all that times 2. 20 appointments to keep track of. Never mind my oldest who has 4 people of his own. I'm struggling to do it all. It's just too much but I don't have a choice but to just deal with it and keep going. *sigh*

Sorry we are all Struggling *Massive Safe Hugs and Vegetarian Gravy*

*Safe Hugs Auragrace* Will be on and off all day if you wanna talk .

How are you all doing?

Hi again everyone.

Really not feeling good at the moment. Very strong urges to attack myself. I have no idea why I'm even alive on this earth any more.

Before the darkness completely takes me over *safe hugs* to anyone who needs (or wants) them.

*Safe Hugs Auragrace*

Kahlia , I'm sorry you are so low *Safe Hugs* Back at you , I NEED them <3

*safe hugs* Mark.

How is everyone?

*Safe Hugs Kathryn * How are you hun?

I'm struggling. My to do list is overwhelming. My emotions are all over the place. I've not been myself all week. I've just wanted to sleep and not do much of anything.

Can you break you to list down into small chunks , Kathryn ?

Oh , Auragrace, I'm so sorry you feel so dreadful *Safe Hugs*

Have you a MH Pro or a Friend to talk to , Auragrace?

How are you all ?

S'happennin' guys?
Just checking in, it's been a while.
I've just been given a diagnosis of BPD and still just trying to process that along with work stress.

How is everyone else doing?

Hey Ashley , I have that Diagnosis too *Safe Hugs*

I am so Anxious . . . .

It's horrible having a diagnosis. I mean I obviously wanted to know what was going on but now I know it's like this inside that won't go away. I mean you can't change your personality right? It can't get better.

*hugs* what's making you so anxious Mark?