I need to watch dr who later, heard mixed things about it.
*hugs*

night Lia *hugs*

its interesting o.O lol

Thanks, oliver... that's why i'm here... my daughter is also distracting me but also stressing me out by fighting sleep. She's exhausted... i'm trying to let her cry it out, but I hate hearing her cry :( I hope she falls asleep soon.... *yawn* I just need to chat long enough for me to get tired enough to sleep... :/

k... hubby is really annoying me right now. He's been complaining for the pat 30 mins or better about not being able to find his work id and stuff and then instead of letting tes cry it out, like she needs too cuz she's exhausted, he grabbed her up and handed her off to me! ugh!

really not in the mood for his cranky attitude. At least tes has an excuse... she's 7 months old and has been up most of the day!

*offers hug*

hmmm i cant decide if i liekd this episode or not haha

Hey Heather, you don't know me but I'm here too.

*curls up in a ball and sighs* so not feeling good right now. My bff is kinda down and I'm trying to be supportive, but I'm feeling pretty damn low myself. :( *tears* really just wanna sleep, but can't shut the brain off. ugh!

Have you tried listenin to your favorite music?

trying to be quiet so as not to wake the kids and i have no head phones :(

Kelly, did ya get to sleep?

ugh. i wanna sleep but my back hurts and cant get comfy so am back online >.<

Hey Heather, I'm still up too.

hi =],

Hi, sorry your back hurts!

eh i'll be fine but thanks how're you

what time is it where you are?

*Hugs Aoife* What is gerontology?

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Oliver* I'm sorry to hear that mate , I hope today is better :)

*Hugs Heather* Try not to cut hun , Pot/kettle I know :S

*Hugs Ljmeep*

*Hugs Solo*

*hugs everyone*

solo, yes I finally got some sleep. was pleasantly surprised that the kids slept an extra hour! They are normally up at 7 am but slept 'til 8 for me. I feel better this morning than I did last night. Lack of sleep is not a good thing for me.

Now if I can just make it through the day. Hubby is working so I'm stuck at home with all 3 o' the kids today. So far... aside from the kids opening a game they shouldn't have, they've been pretty good. I think if I can convince Ty (my 3 yr old) to take a nap after lunch all should go smoothly. I'll be off and on here today though... just to keep myself strong. :)

Thanks for careing :)

*hugs mark back* Morning ... I dunno 'bout anyone else, but I'm addicted to soda. I have to have one when I wake up (I know horrible habbit, but then again so are lots of things I do) and I only have one left to get me through the day... :/ ... kinda worries me... Yicks! LOL

*hugs everyone* I hope you all had an ok christmas.x :)

you too, nicole94. Hope your Christmas was decent too :) ... I for one am glad it's over ... lol

lol. Bless. I kinda enjoyed it, i found having to be social and stuff all day hard, but i think i did pretty well :) (But then i woke up at 7 this morning and started being sick cause of how much i drank yesterday XD) But yeah, i'm glad it's over really.
Oh and it was my first ever white christmas :)

how did you like the white Christmas? I'm not much for snow and we barely missed having a white christmas here... lol. I had a couple of margarittas, but it wasn't enough to numb me as much as I would have liked and it wore off before I really needed it at the end of the night.. :P

It was nice. we didnt go out, but it was nice to have the snow outside :)
I only had 2 bottles of jaques and 2 glasses of bucks fizz lol. Normally i'm on the vodka and it doesn't affect me at all :/ but hey-ho. I wasn't drunk, but then i was sick this morning :/

well... boo... to being sick. :( I'm a light wieght when it comes to drinking so I was shocked I wasn't running into walls or slurring my words after two lol...

Yeah... I had to go from our house to my parents house to my inlaws house... so snow would have really annoyed me yesterday. So long as I don't have to go out in it... it's welcome to snow all it wants... :)

Hey Kelly, I'm so glad you got some rest. If you like, I'll pray that Ty will take that much needed (by you) nap.

Sends you a case of soda and of course I care!
Solo

Heather, I'm so sorry! I finally pooped out on ya last night. It was almost 3a.m. How'd ya fare?

You asked how I am? I'm trying!

Solo

thanks, solo... praying would be good... and I wish that case of soda was real :) ... speaking of naps though ... I think my 7 month old (Tes) is about due for hers... be back in about 5 mins :P

*Hugs Ljmeep*

*Hugs Nicole* Oh dear , are you feeling okay now?

*Hugs Solo*

*Hugs Lindsay*

I've come back from my Sisters familys to my Parents , to my old room for a nap , My sister said I could nap in her and my brother in laws bed but I felt funny about that , and besides this house is quiet , just the dog and I

*Hugs Kelly, Mark, Solo, Heather and Nicole* Hope everyone's alright. I'm going to walk my dog. It'll be dark in a moment, but I don't give a ****. Back later.

*hugs mark back* I'm envious... a quiet house sounds like heaven... lol.

at least I'm down to two children... well until Tes wakes up ... hopefully not for at least an hour or two. :)

how did you fair yesterday? good Christmas?

Thanks for the hugs Mark and Lia. I really needed them. Sorry it's just virtual soda Kelly, but who knows. Maybe some real soda will come your way today. I'm glad Tess is napping! Ty will too. Have your third to do a puzzle or something. You'll have some peace and quiet for a bit. Just what ya need!

lol... thanks, solo. i did find a spare coke ... my hubby didn't drink :D so i now have 2 sodas... so I think your virtual soda worked somewhat ;) ...

I plan to finish reading Tempted today... it's next to the last book in the House of Night series and I love them all so far. So I'm hoping they don't fight nap :P ... they are eating lunch now... an hour early, but they didn't eat much for breakfast so it's all good :)

Your welcome Kelly. It may seem silly, but I actually prayed for you to somehow come up with a second soda today. God knows what we need, even if it's something as simple as a coke. Nap time's gonna go well too. Enjoy your book!

thanks... and i don't think it sounds all that silly. I pray for little things like that all the time. But mostly I find myself praying for patience and strength :) ... And I will definently enjoy my book... I have one laying down watching tv and the other fighting nap all together (ty - 3) lol... hopefully he'll lose soon ;)

*Hugs Elaine and Kelly* How are you both?

*Hugs everyone*
I still have a headache mark, but otherwise ok :) it serves me right for drinking so much.

*Hugs Nicole* Glad you managed to have an alright Christmas :)

*Hugs lia* thanks hun :) how was your day? Did you get anything nice?

It was good. I got a new TV and an E-book. Only the E book is doing my head in trying to download things and the TV doesn't work. I was meant to be going to my auntie's for dinner tonight, but she's ill. All in all, a classic fail of a Christmas :)

Lol lia. I got an ipod and a new phone. Was supposed to be going to my aunties house too but my step brother is going and we dont get on so i am home alone :)

Hey Lia, You asked how I'm doing? I'm trying! Thanks for askin! I got one a those e readers lately. It frustrated me too! Hope you're able to enjoy it. I sent mine back.

*seeks out a dark corner to hide in* dammit i screwed up! I so don't wanna hear it from hubby when he finds out :( ... I told him to remind me to help him put in his jobs and put in his unemployment claim for last week, but he didn't and I forgot so now we will go a week w/out his check and we are already behind on bills *tears*

The kids are fighting nap... shocker! NOT! and I just cut despite the fact that I've been fighting the urge for days now. It did make me feel better, but now I'm drained and feeling like crap again :(

yet another mark to hide *sigh*

Have a nice night in then :) I love nights in. I sit with Nessa (my netbook) hang out here, write and think about doing work. I would watch my nice new TV, but no, it's being a prick. Ah well, what can you do? Well, actually, I can take it back to the shop, which is happening tomorrow. But there's nothing I can do right now.

Trying's good Elaine, I've been doing that over most of the festive season, but you can have a good rant to us if you feel the need to :)

*Hugs Kelly* It's not your fault. He could have remembered too, you can't be responsible for everything. Does your husband know about your cutting at all? I'm sorry you couldn't fight the urge anymore, but it's still great that you managed to for a few days. It's a start, and a step away from giving in without a fight.

lo lia. same here! I am sat on here and texting my friends on my new phone and listening to my Ipod (which my mum put a load of crap music on, so i need to sort it out XD)

my hubby knew about it 6 yrs ago... but he doesn't know about it now. He doesn't handle my emotions very well... lately he just brushes me off when i try to talk to him about how i feel... so i've kinda given up... (for full story feel free to read my last journal entry... it's kinda a long story to put on here)

I'm kinda responsible for all the financial jazz and the appt making and anything to do with the kids health/school/activities... in fact the only thing I don't do is hold down a job outside the home... he does that... and assists with the house and taking care of kids... to an extent... still mostly me :/

No one's texting me :( I think the entire of my phonebook has died. ...Oh, reason for that discovered (at least for one person I am trying to talk to) I forgot to actually press send on the text. I do find that often helps. Did you get the Ipod for Christmas as well then? My mum wouldn't even try to put music on mine, she'd blow it up for a start.

I know how it feels when people brush you off Kelly, it's part of the reason I no longer talk to people IRL because it just hurts to be rejected time and time again. So I hardened my heart and stopped displaying any emotion other than happiness to the outside world. I wouldn't recommend that's the way to go though. It can be awful lonely. We're always here to listen though :)

Still, you have a lot on board and can't be expected to remember everything. Everyone forgets and makes mistakes, you shouldn't be too hard on yourself for it. *Hugs*

lol lia. yeah i did get the ipod for christmas.
And you can have some of the people i am texting if you want? im texting 6 people and i cant keep up XD