I know honey. I'd rather you cut than OD. But best thing obviously isn't to do anything. It's not coming out right. I'll shh. I've cut in the past to stop myself from ODing or worse....


*curls up*

Thats okay Nicole :)

*Hugs Helen*

Yeah. *Hugs*
How are you?

*hugs helen, mark, and nicole tightly*

I hate being at home for longer than a few days. I feel awful.

Me too Laura *Hugs* I guess you mean your parents by Home and not where you stay at uni?

*Hugs Mark and Laura*
I really wanna SH but I have made a deal with a boy on another forum that we will both try not to cut until our birthdays (His is april 14th, mine is april 16th)

*hugs mark* yea thats what i mean. my hometown in general - my parents place, the city i am in, just gah! everything... i explained a little more in my r/v. but my mother again, just asked if I wanted to get my scars removed/lessened by laser surgery. I hate when she asks, and she always does eventually. Plus is xmas here again b/c my dad's side is coming over and I just don't want to deal with holiday crap anymore.

Sorry that turned into a vent as well.

*hugs nicole* that would be awesome if you could make it until april 16th!! I know the urges can be almost unbearable, but please try! I think that is a great goal for yourself. Don't let it overwhelm you though, take it days, or even hours at a time if you need to.

Thats a good deal Nicole :) It's good to have some incentive and to have someone to aim for that goal for with , good luck Nicole :)

Thanks guys, It's harder because I know he has SI'ed today, so we've agreed that tomorrow is a fresh start, so my mind is trying to convince me to do it now to get rid of the urges, before tomorrow :(

*Hugs Laura* I read your R/V thread , I'm sorry you're struggling with being at your parents , I hope that your other Christmas go's as stress free as it can possibly be .

Hmm Hold on if you possibly can Nicole hun , I know it's hard but you can do it :)

*Hugs Amy* Where are you going Amy?

*Hugs Mark* Thanks hun, i'm trying really hard, I just have really strong urges :(
*Hugs Amy* That sounds nice :) where are you going?

*Spot and Hugs Solo*

Aww, you're very nice and awesome too Amy :) *hugs* Have fun!

Thanks Mark! *hugs back*

*hugs amy* Even though u already left. Have fun on holiday!

*hugs mark* thanks. I hope its not too bad. I don't know. I didnt mean to go on ranty on you and ignore what you were saying earlier though.. I'm sorry that you are feeling triggered as well and that your parents were looking over your shoulder... mine do the same thing, which is why i am only online sporadically right now

*hugs nicole* you can make it! SI-ing today won't help urges that occur in the future, so don't do it so you can get rid of urges for the future. I used to do that all the time, and it never worked :-/

*hugs solo* i dont think i've introduced myself... if i have i'm sorry, there have been more people posting in here and since i can't be on much right now its hard to keep track.. but I'm Laura! How r u?

*Hugs laura* Sorry I kinda ignored your post, How long until you go back to uni?
And I know it won't help future urges.....i'm just thinking it will get rid of the urges i'm already having so i can go into it without having any urges...Does that make any sense? :/