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Heaven20 27-07-2012 11:25 PM

Happiness lovely, no one hates you, not here at least. Who do you think is going to hate you more sweetie? *hugs* I'm Lexy. xx

sapphire hearts 28-07-2012 02:03 AM

*hugs faye* hun, you are one of the loveliest people I've ever known. You're not bad or evil, and no one could ever hate you *hugs* love you sweetie

*hugs midnight* you are good hun, I promise. You don't have to use the tool. You don't deserve to hurt honey, ever.

*hugs heaven* hey. hope you're ok.

happiness...its all a lie 28-07-2012 09:21 AM

Hi lexy

My mum we dont always get on and now she has all next week off work and im trying to find a job and i feel like im a burden to her and she doesnt like me. I cant explain it well but i wish she had never had me she makes me feel like im a mistake.

Thanks Katie, hope your ok. I am bad its ok i know it and its ok for people to hate me i dont mind im used to it.

Had BAD BAD dreams last night. *rocks shaking in the corner*

Heaven20 28-07-2012 10:45 AM

*sits crossed legged next to happiness* Do you want to know something sweets, I feel exactly the same about my Dad, except I can't look for a job. I've been signed off of every job in the past like...year :( He adopted me, he makes me feel like had he kept the receipt I wouldn't be here any more. I know how you're feeling, but trust me when I say that your Mum loves you more than you could ever imagine, my Dad would walk through fire for me, he just doesn't realise how upsetting what he says is to me sometimes.

I have PTSD flashbacks, and the other night I had a nightmare about being sectioned. I woke up shaking and crying, so I know how real and affecting dreams can be. But just try and remember that it's NOT real *giant hugs* You're not bad, no one should hate you, you seem wonderful and lovely.

I'm okay, my mum is going into hospital tomorrow evening and then my dad (as the donor) is going in Monday morning...it's weird and I'm not sure it'll hit me till we're driving to drop mum off at the ward.

xx

Louise 28-07-2012 08:23 PM

hugs everyone

midnightphoenix 28-07-2012 08:49 PM

*comes into ward and curls up in corner* Bad bad bad deserve to hurt

ratboy75 28-07-2012 11:36 PM

*curls up in a ball in the corner*

and that's why I'm not supposed to be around people - for a little while I get accepted, then for a bit I'm tolerated, but not spoken to, then I'm ignored - not part of the human race. :(

Gem-Louise 28-07-2012 11:40 PM

why am u such a screw up cant stop feeling suicidal

ratboy75 29-07-2012 12:06 AM

*hugs midnight* you don't deserve to be hurt, no-one deserves to be hurt dear

*hugs Saphire* you're not a screw up dear

YodaBearInterrupted 29-07-2012 12:20 AM

*puts some brownies and cookies on the table for all*

Really struggling right now and really want to SH, my journal isnt helping right now, and the person I reached out to hasnt responded back to me yet...

Gem-Louise 29-07-2012 12:20 AM

:( cant i am so close to just hurting myself feel so scared want all the voices and things to stop

Heaven20 29-07-2012 12:58 AM

*hugs everyone and cuddles you all up*

ninais 29-07-2012 05:18 AM

squashed
 
I'm feeling like a bug that's being squashed or stuck in a jar and denied air. If i had the option of spending some time in the hospital now, i would jump at it. As it is I can't be around anyone. It's been months since i could talk to people other than immediate family (and even that's just a necessary evil) I don't answer the phone or messages or post on facebook. I've driven everyone from my life but I can't cut, and certainly cannot die because i have a daughter who is, like me, bipolar and those things would be devastating to her. She's saved my life so many times because of that thought. On the other hand, my life is so intensely painful and lonely that i can barely function. Thank you for letting me get that off of my chest.

RootsbeforeBranches 29-07-2012 05:36 AM

haven't been on for a little while - life has been insanely busy and I'm experiencing a lot of goodbyes and lasts that are very hard... I hope everyone is doing alright - sending love and hugs!

midnightphoenix 29-07-2012 11:48 AM

Bad bad bad deserve to suffer and die

I've thrown the tool away again

ˈsäləˌterē 29-07-2012 03:10 PM

Ninais, I'm useless atm cause I feel so much like you do that you almost coulda been writing that for me. I just wanted you to know that you're not alone n someone cares. ��

Gem-Louise 29-07-2012 03:11 PM

i have had enough cant take it anymore

Laura2.0 29-07-2012 04:49 PM

*hugs all*

I know I haven't been on here for a while. And if I was, then I wasn't doing individuals.
I'm going to a specialized hospital on Tuesday, which means that I probably wont get much online time in the next time. I'm going to be there for 4 weeks... that's my plan anyway. I don't know their plan, but they can't hold me there if I don't want to be there.

hope you are all well or at least well enough

happiness...its all a lie 30-07-2012 09:17 AM

*curls up in the corner*

Heaven20 30-07-2012 08:33 PM

Not good enough, never has been, never will be... bad lexy, not doing enough, no no no... very bad. Not acceptable, unhelpful, selfish, self serving, brattish, bad bad bad. Doesn't deserve to live, should go away, everyone would be happy, oh yes they would. Bad lexy, should do more, not ill, not a tall...


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