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MammaMia 30-09-2008 09:21 PM

*snuggles Zowie*

I'm glad they're helping you hun.

BoundNoMore 01-10-2008 12:35 AM

*snuggles Zowie*
We will miss you, but maybe it's for the best?

Kuwairo 01-10-2008 02:26 AM

i'm sorry.
but is anyone around?

Casper_Fading 01-10-2008 02:42 AM

hey ku, i don't come in here but you can pm me if you need to talk

Kuwairo 01-10-2008 02:44 AM

thank you
i have
sorry
i'll probably end up pissing you off something chronic

BoundNoMore 01-10-2008 03:26 AM

*hugs Ku and Jess*

Kuwairo 01-10-2008 03:30 AM

*hugs back*
you'll have to excuse me
I'm sobering/coming down
=[

MammaMia 01-10-2008 12:41 PM

hugs to all

BoundNoMore 01-10-2008 02:32 PM

*hugs Helen then finds a corner to hide in and sobs uncontrollably*

MammaMia 01-10-2008 03:06 PM

*hugs Mand*

It'll get better...I hope, cus u deserve it babe

shadowedseraph 01-10-2008 04:09 PM

*hugs everyone and then joins bound in the corner* i hate them all just hate them

Detour. Derail 02-10-2008 01:18 PM

hey guys, sorry i havent been in here for a while.
How are you all doing?
*leaves hugs and nice stuff*

Kahlia1981 02-10-2008 02:30 PM

Hey all. Sorry I haven't been around. I'd really like the safety and security of a psych ward right now ... preferably without the incompetent doctors and psych nurses that we have in this city. I want out. There's no particular reason, I'm just on the down side of my cycle. The highs really aren't worth the dips into depression. Can someone stop the world please ..... I really want to get off.

*hugs everyone then goes and hides under the bed where it's safe to cry*

MammaMia 02-10-2008 06:53 PM

I hate wondering if uni is the right thing. If I'm on the right course. I hate being suidcial. I hate getting triggered in lectures. I know it'll improve...

I could cry. I want to die. Man this sucks.

BoundNoMore 02-10-2008 07:23 PM

*hugs Alexx, Kahlia, and Helen*
*runs to corner and sobs uncontrollably* :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying:

Devil Girl 02-10-2008 09:17 PM

*Feels like she did when she was sectioned*

*Curls up on bed and shakes*
I hate that uni has returned me to this but just cause I know the support workers means I can hide it and they all think its just me wanting to be missrable...but no. Yes I don't feel up to stopping self harming, but uni is making me worse and I can see and feel that clearly! Guess they can't!

MammaMia 02-10-2008 10:52 PM

*crawls in, hides and sobs*

Jetforce 03-10-2008 05:22 AM

*jumps and cuddles helen*!!!

YodaBearInterrupted 03-10-2008 05:53 AM

*grabs a blanket and curls up in the corner and cries*

I don't know anymore of anything.

Kahlia1981 03-10-2008 07:50 AM

*peeks out from under the bed, quickly jumps up and hugs everyone and then disappears back under the bed again*

I'm scared to leave my house. What have I done wrong ??

*starts crying*

shadowedseraph 03-10-2008 03:51 PM

*snuggles Helen and Kahlia* ^ you haven't done anything wrong honey its just a bad patch *hugs all that need it*

BoundNoMore 03-10-2008 05:37 PM

*cuddles everyone then runs and hides*

zowie 03-10-2008 06:56 PM

On leave from the hospital. How's everyone doing? x

BoundNoMore 03-10-2008 07:09 PM

Zowie!!!!
*tackles and hugs*

I am... here... lot going on as of lately...
I have a rant post in Vets Support.

MammaMia 03-10-2008 07:23 PM

*hugs everybody*

**** sake man. I went to Liverpool to see a friend to cheer up and mum started saying stuff I dont wanna hear about it. Like to turn around and say no it wasn't a waste of 40 because it's kept me alive today.

****ing hell man >.<

Looking forward to tonight though :)

1ofmany 03-10-2008 08:06 PM

This is not fair not ****ing fair why now? i just spent about 15 hours happy why has it stopped its dumb and not fair i should be happy still i am just a ****ed up freak

Detour. Derail 03-10-2008 09:23 PM

my mum made flapjacks and scones :]
would anyone like some?
*leaves a big plate and some warm ribena*

1ofmany 03-10-2008 11:06 PM

Ah flapjacks are a weakness of mine....

shadowedseraph 03-10-2008 11:44 PM

*grabs warm ribena* mmmm

MammaMia 04-10-2008 12:34 AM

I rhink I'm drunk.

Still want to die. Let me go.

Kahlia1981 04-10-2008 09:41 AM

I'm still really scared to leave my house, but tonight I'm going to a friend's place. I wish there was an easy way to leave this sudden hit of agoraphobia behind me somewhere, preferably where I'll never pick it up again.

*makes coffee for anyone who wants one, hugs everyone who can accept hugs and then disappears into the smoking shelter for a bit*

MammaMia 04-10-2008 01:35 PM

*hugs you lots*

zowie 04-10-2008 02:08 PM

*Hugs Helen and Kahlia*
Feel like I need to go back to the hospital. I've got leave for the weekend, but I don't feel safe. x

Kahlia1981 04-10-2008 02:40 PM

Thanks for the hugs.

I've just come back home from my friend's place. From leaving here it was basically one big panic attack. Since getting home I haven't been able to stop crying, except for when I purged. I really wish this would end, I just don't know how to make it.

Sorry, you all don't need to hear my petty problems.

*hugs Helen and zowie and anyone else who wants or needs hugs*

*sneaks back in and hides under the bed again, crying :crying:*

shadowedseraph 04-10-2008 05:52 PM

*hugs Helen zowie and Kahlia and anyone else that feels the need for some big warm cuddling* ^ sounds like your having a tough time, wanna chat about it? zowie if you feel unsafe then take yourself back to hospital, they wont mind if you explain *more hugs for everyone*

zowie 04-10-2008 08:55 PM

Decided to stay at home and get drunk. Probably a bad idea when I feel so unsafe, but I need to get drunk again. x

MammaMia 04-10-2008 10:24 PM

*hugs the three of you*

I.really.can't.go.on

I dunno what to do anymore you know?

Kahlia1981 05-10-2008 10:19 AM

*hugs Helen*

I know what you mean. I feel like I can't go on either.

I went up to the hospital today ... partly of my own free will (my friend drove me up there and wouldn't let me leave immediately even though I said that I didn't want to go in the first place). I was the only psych patient there, and from the moment I arrived until I got to a point where I couldn't stand it anymore the Psych Intake and Assessment nurses went on a lunch that was over an hour long.

When we left I told the triage nurse why I was going and that I felt like I was going to try and do something dangerous (like OD). She got all panicky but could see that I was freaking out and needed to get out of there.

I've been dealing with voices since this agoraphobia started, including the voice that whenever she is around signals something bad happening. And she is damn strong right now. The other two that I'm hearing (Adam - who calls himself aziraphale because he pretends to be an angel -, and Stephen) are subservient to her.

Things are just not good. Is there an easy way out of here ?? {Other than the ones I can think of, which I can't do because I made promises to people that I trust that I wouldn't do them.}

*cuddles up to a stuffed animal under the bed while crying*

MammaMia 05-10-2008 12:12 PM

Oh sweetie, you must find everything really really hard *massive snuggles*

I wish there was an easy way out, nothing seems to be working....

I have to stay alive all of this week (eurgggh) but I guess it'll be worth it when I can see Emma and believe me I haven't seen her in person since flipping June, so she's worth it A LOT & she's my best friend of course :P

Then after then....I might feel better? Doubt it. =\ I don't think I can go an entire week without harming. I actually had a dream I had blades and I cried when I woke up, because I want some so fricking much and don't have any!!! >.<

Kahlia1981 05-10-2008 12:27 PM

Thanks for the snuggles Helen *snuggles you right back*

I've had a dream about having blades as well. I actually asked a friend today whether I could grab a scalpel and tried to convince him that I wouldn't use it. He didn't believe me, and in my moments of rationality I can see why. And then J (a voice) kept yelling at me to grab one off of a nurse. That would be just what I need an ITO.

Last night I dreamt that I had scalpels and cut myself ... and woke up in a panic because I thought I had actually done it.

I've written an email to my pdoc. Hopefully he will have some sort of suggestion of what I can do. I just have to wait for 13 to 15 hours to find out.

*goes back to hiding under the bed cuddling a stuffed animal*

shadowedseraph 05-10-2008 02:11 PM

*snuggles you both* seems like this weekend is full of hard times hang on in there though, when it seems like you've hit rock bottom the only way is up *snuggles some more and hands out chocolate*

MammaMia 05-10-2008 04:05 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Kahlia1981 (Post 1129579)
Thanks for the snuggles Helen *snuggles you right back*

I've had a dream about having blades as well. I actually asked a friend today whether I could grab a scalpel and tried to convince him that I wouldn't use it. He didn't believe me, and in my moments of rationality I can see why. And then J (a voice) kept yelling at me to grab one off of a nurse. That would be just what I need an ITO.

Last night I dreamt that I had scalpels and cut myself ... and woke up in a panic because I thought I had actually done it.

I've written an email to my pdoc. Hopefully he will have some sort of suggestion of what I can do. I just have to wait for 13 to 15 hours to find out.

*goes back to hiding under the bed cuddling a stuffed animal*

*hugs you lots more* Wow, seems like we shared a similar dream. I'm glad you weren't given a scalpel. I don't blame you for waking up in a panic hun *snuggles* Hope your pdoc emails soon :)

Quote:

Originally Posted by shadowedseraph (Post 1129822)
*snuggles you both* seems like this weekend is full of hard times hang on in there though, when it seems like you've hit rock bottom the only way is up *snuggles some more and hands out chocolate*

*snuggles you* Yeah I think it is a very hard weekend. I don't want to come back up :( *snuggles some more*

Right a favoruite film of mine, chitty chitty bang bang is on now :) Care to watch with me? :D Then it's going to be followed by Harry Potter & Goblet of Fire

*runs around making popcorn, and grabs her duvet and all the other goodies*

shadowedseraph 05-10-2008 09:16 PM

*snuggles Helen* movies! yay! *grabs goodies and settles in to watch*

MammaMia 05-10-2008 10:58 PM

*snuggles back*

Wow today I've managed to watch 2 films, X Factor, some news and I'm doing well.

Still want to watch the repeat of Xtra Factor, Katie & Peter, Holby City and 2 x Moving Day :]

Kahlia1981 06-10-2008 02:40 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by shadowedseraph (Post 1129822)
*snuggles you both* seems like this weekend is full of hard times hang on in there though, when it seems like you've hit rock bottom the only way is up *snuggles some more and hands out chocolate*

I guess that's true ... the only way is up, I just don't know how to get there. And I don't know if I want to .... It would be nice to just stop.

I haven't heard from my pdoc yet. I hope he has something that can help because I'm losing it.
:Emoticon(14):

*hugs everyone then disappears into the smoking corner*

insomniac 06-10-2008 03:09 AM

*enters room, hoodie up, hat down starts punchin wall*

I need help, but dont know what to do.
My last experience of hospital was not good and so this place seems an appropiate place to try, figure stuff out.

*stops hittin wall, collapses in bean bag corner*

zowie 06-10-2008 09:56 AM

Went back to the hospital but they had given my bed to someone else so I had to come home for the evening. Going back today at some point, hopefully they'll have a bed for me again. x

shadowedseraph 06-10-2008 11:34 AM

*hugs to Helen Kahlia and zowie* i want sleep *wraps self in a blanket and huddles on the sofa*

zowie 06-10-2008 03:32 PM

They still don't have a bed for me. They told me I could come back today, so why haven't they got a bed? They're going to discharge me tomorrow and I'm NOT ready. x

MammaMia 06-10-2008 04:08 PM

Zowie, that is digusting =\

*hugs everyone tightly*

I just don't want to wake up tomorrow morning tbh.


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