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Eir 31-12-2015 02:02 PM

Bettering now. Dont quite remember what that post was about. Possibly distress at work. It's the main thing triggering me lately.
Bit disturbed that I dont remember. But ah well. Thanks Julie/Owen/Amy/Kate.

Kahlia1981 02-01-2016 02:06 PM

*offers safe hugs, pillows, blankets, colouring books, crayons, markers and hot chocolates to anyone who can do with them*

Thanks for joining us in the fort Julie and co.

I'm Saphira, Kahlia's 17 year old alter, here because she nearly attempted to die and disappeared inside about a month ago. She's never been gone this long and I can't be her. Just acting like her when I have to is hard and I am terrified she won't come back. My mood is really low tonight as well and all I want to do is self harm and cry. I can't do this....

*curls up with teddy bear and tries to cry herself to sleep*

Eir 04-01-2016 03:56 PM

*hugs Saphira* I've been wondering about Kahlia, thanks for letting us know. Is there anything we can do?

Kahlia1981 05-01-2016 11:51 AM

Annie - Thank you. We are heading down to Brisbane for a three-month overdue ECT treatment in Friday and are hoping that wil both bring Kahlia back and help her feel safe. Until then we're just trying to get through and keep going, no matter what. You've already helped by talking/writing to me and allowing me to be myself.

Down, tired - probably overtired - and life keeps throwing more crappy on us.

I'll be curled up in my pillow fort cuddling my bear if anyone needs anything.

Eir 05-01-2016 03:44 PM

Good luck guys, stay strong.

In other news, I'm not tired. Or sleepy. And I should be.
Pixies digging at my brain. That weird plateau where I crave hurting myself, but enough brainpower left right now to stop me from following through. Think I'm going uppppp. I'll crash.

Margo 06-01-2016 06:52 PM

*Sprays room with anti pixie spray*

xxjuliexx 06-01-2016 09:00 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Kahlia1981 (Post 3993666)
*offers safe hugs, pillows, blankets, colouring books, crayons, markers and hot chocolates to anyone who can do with them*

Thanks for joining us in the fort Julie and co.

I'm Saphira, Kahlia's 17 year old alter, here because she nearly attempted to die and disappeared inside about a month ago. She's never been gone this long and I can't be her. Just acting like her when I have to is hard and I am terrified she won't come back. My mood is really low tonight as well and all I want to do is self harm and cry. I can't do this....

*curls up with teddy bear and tries to cry herself to sleep*

hi Saphira *takes a hot chocolates and sits near you and gently strokes you hair*

xxjuliexx 06-01-2016 09:04 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Eir (Post 3992932)
Bettering now. Dont quite remember what that post was about. Possibly distress at work. It's the main thing triggering me lately.
Bit disturbed that I dont remember. But ah well. Thanks Julie/Owen/Amy/Kate.

*places a teddy near you then slides back into his sleeping bag* working suck

Eir 12-01-2016 05:17 PM

Working suck bad. Cant sleep.
Thought this year would be better. But it's already gone bad.
Maybe it's my fault.

YodaBearInterrupted 12-01-2016 05:29 PM

Back from being in the psych ward... I was a bit surprised on that fact that it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be...

Am at work right now and am doing a lil better being focused on work... but still having a rough time with everything

Margo 13-01-2016 05:57 PM

*sits and feels very alone and sad*

*hands everyone a sausage*

Eir 14-01-2016 05:17 PM

Can I sit here and be broken?
I doubt I'll ever be free. I'll never be normal.

YodaBearInterrupted 14-01-2016 07:39 PM

*sits on the couch*

Trying hard to be safe, but too emotionally broken right now

Eir 19-01-2016 02:30 PM

Just... struggling, I guess.
Keep trying to contact Dr but I talk myself out of it. Multitude of reasons. To see Dr and avoid Dr.

I'm useless.

Kathryn_Anna 28-01-2016 11:48 PM

Been awhile. Life is getting too overwhelming. I just want to be done with adulting. Too stressful.

So for now I think I'll curl up with my blanket and color for a bit if that's ok?

Kahlia1981 29-01-2016 09:57 AM

Julie & co: Thank you from all of us for giving us a safe place to talk and for just being there.

Annie: I understand what it can be like when you have a multitude of reasons to see a doctor (or any professional) and a matching multitude of reasons not to see them. Thank you for offering support to all of us and I/we really hope that you find some form of peace, even if only for a second. For me normality is something we will never achieve so I definitely hear you there.

Matt: I'm glad your experience in the psych ward wasn't as bad as you thought it would be and that you have been able to find some relief through focusing on work. *offers safe hugs and a listening ear*

Kathryn Anna: First, may I call you Kat? Secondly I'm sorry to hear things are difficult at the moment. I hope colouring and curling up is helping to give you some time away from the stresses of life.

Margo: Hi, nice to meet you. I hope that you are feeling a little better now but, and I think I speak for everyone here, we are all here if you need someone to talk to.

Thanks everyone for helping out my alters whilst I was trying to stay safe barricaded inside. I finally felt safe enough to return to the outside wall after my fourth ECT treatment in the set, partly because my doctor verbally forced me out. When I did come back out I was extremely confused, particularly about where I was and where the time had gone. Since then I've been trying to piece things together but I have noticed that my mood keeps dropping. Right now I'm guessing that my next treatment set is going to have to happen well before then normal three months but I'd rather not go through all this again.

Now I'm just going to curl up and cry with my bear, blanket and colouring stuff.

Doikers 29-01-2016 07:19 PM

*Brotherly Hugs Kahlia*

Kahlia1981 30-01-2016 05:16 AM

Thanks big brother. *hugs back*

Fairly stressed right now because today we have quit smoking. Whilst the cravings aren't too bad I just don't feel right in my own skin, not to mention that the NRTs keep giving me the hiccups..... Meh.

Doikers 30-01-2016 01:24 PM

Wow , quitting smoking's a big step , Good Luck ! (Not that you'll need it)

Kahlia1981 01-02-2016 02:53 AM

Thanks Mark. *hugs*

Right now the tears just won't stop falling. At this rate I'm going to be heading back down to Brisbane for more treatments before a full month is up. Hopefully the majority of the depression is from quitting smoking and will begin to ease as my body and mind adjust. For now I'm just going to curl up in my pillow fort to let the tears flow free.

Doikers 03-02-2016 09:01 PM

I hope you are just Smoking Withdrawels , Kahlia , Hun

Kahlia1981 04-02-2016 01:44 PM

Thanks big brother. *hugs*

My mood just keeps dropping and I'm growing incredibly sick of crying but I'm just so tired and can't keep fighting right now. *sigh*

*disappears into her pillow fort with a hot chocolate and some marshmallows*

raining_inmyhead 16-02-2016 08:55 PM

Clings to anything... just anything...

DustCrimson36 17-02-2016 07:29 AM

Hey, I'm new here but I need somewhere to sit with other people. I don't want to be alone. Can I join you all?

Eir 17-02-2016 09:24 AM

Of course. It's a quiet board, but we all pop in from time to time.
I did a good thing. I actually talked to a psych.
Unfortunately now I feel quite raw.

DustCrimson36 18-02-2016 12:17 AM

I know that feeling, and it sucks. It's awesome that you talked to someone though. Takes guts.

Thanks for the kind welcome.

RescueIsPossible 18-02-2016 02:03 AM

can a join? not in safe place. wanting to harm. maybe worse

hurtnpain 19-02-2016 02:29 AM

Comes in and hides in the corner x

midnite 20-02-2016 10:12 PM

Crawls in and heads for a dark corner. Need to be somewhere safe for a while

xbeautifully_brokenx 21-02-2016 02:14 AM

I am really struggling at the moment. So close to relapse and it's 2 and a half years since I stopped.

Is it ok if I check in here for a little while? Just hide in a blanket fort.

Maybe have a hug?

DustCrimson36 21-02-2016 06:58 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by xbeautifully_brokenx (Post 4010566)
I am really struggling at the moment. So close to relapse and it's 2 and a half years since I stopped.

Is it ok if I check in here for a little while? Just hide in a blanket fort.

Maybe have a hug?

*hugs*
Thanks for that, I needed one too.

RescueIsPossible 22-02-2016 01:51 AM

im really struggling want to do self harm or worse..... not sure how much longer i can hang on

xbeautifully_brokenx 23-02-2016 03:51 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by DustCrimson36 (Post 4010600)
*hugs*
Thanks for that, I needed one too.

:) Thank you

Eir 23-02-2016 09:19 AM

*curls up under something and sleeps*

RescueIsPossible 23-02-2016 01:33 PM

Having an angry day *sits in corner punching a pillow*

Eir 25-02-2016 09:29 AM

Just really angry at everything and everyone. Especially myself.

Kathryn_Anna 26-02-2016 05:25 AM

Life just keeps getting in the way. So overwhelmed. Throwing in the towel and ready to relapse.

Eir 01-03-2016 10:15 AM

*hugs for Kathryn_Anna*
Feel for you hunny.

YodaBearInterrupted 10-03-2016 08:47 PM

*hugs all in here*

*puts some brownies on the table in the room*

Having a really rough time right now... almost feel like doing some type of SH/SI... but I am trying to reach out to my psych... if he would only respond to me since I sent him an email which he said was okay to do

Kahlia1981 22-03-2016 12:25 PM

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Sorry for being away so long guys, two trips to Brisbane for ECT so far this year and life decides to give me another push by screwing my spine and leaving me on a wheelie walker. Finally managed to catch up with uni so now can focus on other things.

*safe hugs to anyone who need them*

I noticed that there are some new people around so hey! Welcome in. Grab your bear, pillow and blanket (or whatever you find comforting) and get comfortable.

I also noticed there has been a fair bit of anger around. Don't worry, we are here for you through thick and thin. Let that anger out here, a safe place.

Thanks for the brownies Matt *hugs*

xbeautifully_brokenx: Congratulations on the progress you've made so far. Even if you slip/slipped it doesn't mean that you have to start again, you just had a bad time. Having gotten that far once shows that you have the strength, courage and resilience to do it again. *hugs*

Kathryn_Anna: First, can I call you Kat? I can fully understand where you are right now with life throwing everything at you. *hugs*

With my physical deterioration my mood hasn't been great, in fact it keeps dropping but I am still getting there.

*hugs anyone who wants them*

*puts mugs of hot chocolate on the table*

*gets comfy on the couch with her pillow, bear and blanket*

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silentgirl 23-03-2016 01:16 PM

Can't find if there is a SI board type one so here I am.

My cravings are getting beyond me. All because I'm on annual leave due to mistakes I've made at work. Urges are nuts and I've cried so much it sucks. Feel so alone 😭😭

Kathryn_Anna 24-03-2016 07:57 PM

Feel free to call me Kat, Anna, KA, however you feel like shortening the name.

Thanks for the hugs, hot chocolate and brownies.

All I want to do is curl up on the couch and hide. I don't want to adult, I don't want to have to explain anything to anyone, I just don't want to. I've been having so many panic attacks. I am so overwhelmed I just can't keep up. *sigh*

Doikers 25-03-2016 04:34 PM

*Flops*

Doikers 25-03-2016 11:38 PM

I dunno if I am Remembered here but I feel I should rejoin for my own selfish reasons.

Kathryn_Anna 26-03-2016 07:44 AM

"Offers safe hugs for doikers*

Doikers 26-03-2016 11:31 AM

Hi Kathyryn Anna , Ty For the hugs , My name is Mark :) I used to live on this thread , but only really remember Kahlia and Matt . I'm feeling really unsteady and let down atm and thought I'd come back , for a while at least , If I am welcome back of course.

How are you all?

Kathryn_Anna 26-03-2016 12:41 PM

Of course you are welcome back Mark! Do you want to talk?

I'm making it through. Really wanting to sh but haven't... Yet. I can just feel like I'm on the verge of another panic attack. Just ugh right now.

Doikers 26-03-2016 12:56 PM

Thanks Kathryn :) I hate panic attacks myself too :( I hope you are okay .

Kathryn_Anna 26-03-2016 01:01 PM

Thanks Mark. Yeah, I'm trying to be OK. Panic attacks are a relatively new thing for me. I don't know how to explain what it feels like to hubby and he doesn't think they are serious. So fun times.

You doing any better?

Doikers 26-03-2016 02:20 PM

Not great . My head is all over the place and kind of feeling abandoned.


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