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Doikers 20-04-2012 12:44 PM

Thats great news Kelly :) *Hugs*

How are you all?

nomophobia 20-04-2012 09:01 PM

*checks in for the whole weekend* I need to know I'm safe because I don't trust myself

Doikers 21-04-2012 12:39 PM

Hi Nomophobia , You're in Wales too ! Croeso to the VPW.

nomophobia 21-04-2012 02:59 PM

Hi Doikers, Diolch! :)

one_step_closer 21-04-2012 07:59 PM

I speak imaginary welsh.

Doikers 22-04-2012 01:23 PM

I only know a few words in Welsh Lol

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Nomophobia*

nomophobia 22-04-2012 02:46 PM

Thanks for the hug :) I only know a few things too!

Laura2.0 22-04-2012 09:06 PM

*checks in*

nomophobia 22-04-2012 09:09 PM

*hugs Laura*

Laura2.0 22-04-2012 09:13 PM

*hugs nomophobia* how are you?

nomophobia 22-04-2012 09:13 PM

Not amazing...you?

Laura2.0 22-04-2012 09:14 PM

Triggered. I haven't been triggered as badly since November.

nomophobia 22-04-2012 09:15 PM

:( want to talk about it?

Laura2.0 22-04-2012 09:16 PM

that wont help. I've been triggered since tuesday. I talked about it more than once and it only got worse every time.
My next appointment with le therapist is tomorrow, but I don't think I can make it that long without harming.

Thanks for the offer though.

I should just get it over with right?
It's like when you are feeling sick and after you throw up you feel better.

nomophobia 22-04-2012 09:19 PM

We both know its not as simple as getting over it. How about we have a chat somewhere and get to know each other to help take your mind off it? Yes it is...but then being sick isn't addictive..once is always enough but with harming it isn't *hugs*

Laura2.0 22-04-2012 09:23 PM

I know. I'm just not strong enough today. I've been fighting it since Tuesday, that's 5 days? I've been more dissociated than here in the real world since then. I couldn't walk yesterday, because I dissociated my legs. I started to hyperventilate a bit later yesterday, because someone was playing the wrong song and I couldn't harm. There were too many people. I'm wondering how I made it home, cause I had a 1.5h drive and don't remember most of it.

nomophobia 22-04-2012 09:32 PM

:( I'm glad you made it home, just try to keep going until tomorrow then you can tell your therapist about everything thats been going on x

Doikers 23-04-2012 01:54 PM

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Georgia*

I feel so un-motivated, Sunday apart I've been like this for 9 days *Flops* :(

Emo 23-04-2012 05:06 PM

Hi how is everyone?

Doikers 24-04-2012 11:49 AM

*waves to Aamanee* How are you ?

I am quite anxious...

Emo 24-04-2012 11:56 AM

Not so good feel like cutting my face at the moment because of voices and thoughts

why are you anxious?

YodaBearInterrupted 24-04-2012 06:34 PM

I am tired of everything and I just want to give up... its just been a bad few weeks and I have been hanging on, but I really don't feel like it... sigh.

*checks self in and stares at the wall*

Laura2.0 24-04-2012 11:15 PM

*hugs all*

Sorry for not posting yesterday or updating on Sunday.
I couldn't resist any longer. I harmed on sunday, not badly though.
I had 2 appointments with my therapist. One on Monday, the other today. I didn't tell him though. He wants me to go IP again anyway, if I tell him that I harmed again he'll make me go IP.

ljmeep 25-04-2012 01:10 AM

*flops down for a rest* hey all... i hope you all are doing OK. It's really hard to keep up with everyone when I'm on so sporadically and believe me there are days I can't get online that I really feel I could benefit from being here.

I'm just starting to surface from a 3 week down-slide. There were a few days that I really thought I was coming out of it just to end up in a pool of tears by the time the day ended. I'm not even 100% sure I'm really at the end of it now, but I hope so. I haven't harmed this entire time, but it's been a huge challenge to keep myself from doing so.

I'm fighting a tough internal battle with myself and I've had a couple of really hard discoveries about myself and my family. For example: lately I've been really struggling with my own anger issues. I sometimes feel this out of control rage inside and it's completely irrational and out of control, despite the fact that I realize I'm not being rational at the time. This is something my dad had when I was younger. We always used to blame it on the medications he was on, but I'm beginning to realize it may have been something more and that maybe all this anger I've had toward him for so long is wasted... because maybe he couldn't control it either and it wasn't just the meds.

I'm rambling and I know it.... truthfully I don't even care if anyone reads this... I think it just helps to get it out there and get it out of my head.

Doikers 25-04-2012 12:15 PM

*Hugs Kelly * It great that you didn't injure :) *Hugs*

*Hugs Laura* I understand you not wanting to go IP , Here or ( More Likely ) on FB for you *Huggles*

*Waves to Aamanee* I've had that urge sometimes , it's horrid, I hope you're okay.

*Hugs Matt* You can get through this mate , I know it's hard sometimes , for me too right now most days , but it will get better :)

nomophobia 25-04-2012 12:22 PM

*comes and sits down in the corner and cries*

Doikers 25-04-2012 12:44 PM

*Hugs Georgia* Whats wrong?

nomophobia 25-04-2012 12:56 PM

Just..everything is really hard right now...and I've just found out that one of my best friends is in hospital again because she bashed her head against a wall. Its just...urgh :'(

Doikers 25-04-2012 01:34 PM

*Squishes Georgia* I Hope your Friend is okay .

YodaBearInterrupted 25-04-2012 03:52 PM

*hugs Georgia* hope your friend is okay as well

I am Matt btw.

I hope things get better cause they aren't rght now...

BoundNoMore 25-04-2012 05:41 PM

*walks in quietly, finds a place in the corner, curls up as tight as she can, and tries to hide*

Laura2.0 25-04-2012 10:54 PM

* hugs Mark* thanks for your support
*hugs Kelly*
*hugs Georgia*
*hugs BoundNoMore* sorry, don't know your name.

Doikers 25-04-2012 11:28 PM

*Hugs Amanda if okay*

Laura2.0 26-04-2012 02:22 PM

*hugs Mark*

Doikers 27-04-2012 12:13 PM

*Squishes Laura*

Laura2.0 27-04-2012 02:31 PM

*ninja hugs Mark* how are you?

nomophobia 27-04-2012 06:17 PM

*hugs Laura* did you get my buddy request?

BoundNoMore 27-04-2012 06:54 PM

*stays in corner where she knows its safe*

Laura2.0 27-04-2012 09:13 PM

*hugs Georgie* I dunno where I can check if I got a buddy request...

*hugs BoundNoMore*

nomophobia 27-04-2012 10:28 PM

oh ok lol..and I thought I was the newbie! :P

Laura2.0 27-04-2012 10:34 PM

did you send a ryl buddy request?
I didn't even know that was possible.

nomophobia 27-04-2012 10:36 PM

well i added you as my buddy...isnt that the same?

Laura2.0 27-04-2012 10:57 PM

I dunno... I think you can add people to your boddy list but they don't see it?

I'm off to bed now... good night.

one_step_closer 27-04-2012 11:12 PM

Yeah, you add people to your buddy list but they aren't notified.

How's everyone?

Doikers 28-04-2012 01:11 PM

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Georgia*

*Hugs Bound no More*

*Hugs Lindsay*

How are you all today?

one_step_closer 28-04-2012 01:40 PM

Got a lot of difficult things going on at the moment, just trying to pretend everything's ok.

How are you, Mark?

nomophobia 28-04-2012 04:19 PM

Was in tears within 5 minutes of waking up this morning..so yeah

one_step_closer 28-04-2012 05:49 PM

That's a horrible feeling. Anything you want to talk about?

nomophobia 28-04-2012 06:05 PM

I honestly don't know where to start. Just went out on my roller skates to cheer myself up and clear my head and ended up in tears for the second time today. just..urgh

*curls up on the floor*

Laura2.0 28-04-2012 09:44 PM

*hugs Lindsay*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Georgia*

I want to sleep and sleep and sleep. I don't want to feel like this.


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