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Doikers 13-01-2012 11:14 AM

*Hugs Lindsay* I'm up thanks to your extra motivation :)

one_step_closer 13-01-2012 11:33 AM

Yay! When is your appointment?

hidingme 13-01-2012 12:08 PM

today was better i think.. lol wasnt struggling so much witrh depression and anxiety but felt really dissociated and " zombied out" (as one of us likes to call it) i was really confused with dates and times today.. like at work i went out on cig break came back looked at the clock and was like "oh i was only gone 5 minutes?"
it seemed longer.. much longer.. alsmost like skipping between different dreams// does that make semse? lol

anthow its 5 am (fri mornig now) amd i have not neem to sleep yet so i better do that i guess haha

Doikers 14-01-2012 11:34 AM

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Hiding*

one_step_closer 14-01-2012 12:18 PM

Morning all.

Laura2.0 14-01-2012 01:28 PM

*hugs Mark* I'm not feeling stable lately.
*hugs Lindsay* a year and 4 months is great. Slipping after a long time like that must feel bad, please don't think about it as a relapse.
*hugs Hiding* I get the thing with the dates sometimes too. Sometimes I'm so sure that it is wednesday, but when I read the newspaper I realize that it is already thursday or friday.

styled_wrong 14-01-2012 06:52 PM

just checking in again, hi everyone

IamNOTok-listen2me 14-01-2012 08:08 PM

Don't mind me just going to check in for a little.
*sits in the corner with pillow*

hidingme 14-01-2012 08:24 PM

yeah its really odd. L ( the teal typing) has been having anxiety alot lately over the past few times weve fallen asleep at night becuse usually we feel sleepy first and sorta remember going to sleep.. but the last few times we've slept its been like wwe are awake watching tv and then boom.. were asleep.. she thinks it is like we pass out or something and ittrips her out.. anxiety affects us all but with L it is just more irrational and out in left feild.. lol she needs to just chill and go with it.. but she says she cant stop it..*shrug*

we are glad the confusion is less now.. it bothered us alot..

Laura2.0 15-01-2012 12:55 AM

*hugs styled wrong*
*hugs IamNOTok - listen2me*
*hugs hiding*

Pretty.Reckless 15-01-2012 01:10 AM

Ermm hey....I haven't been in here before....I just wanted somewhere safeish to go...would anyone mind if I just hid in a corner with my blanket?

risenfromperdition 15-01-2012 01:49 AM

love!!!!!!!!!!!!! =] nope we dont mind. [fb me if you want hmm? <3]

*sleeps*
coursework is stoopid.
not being able to focus is stoopider :(

Synthetisk 15-01-2012 01:53 AM

Hi everyone, sorry I haven't been around in a while. I feel drained today, because I'm part of an LGBT domestic abuse information project and we've been writing filming material today. It'd be nice to be reminded that there's plenty good in the world.

Positive news to report though- I got a place on a German course at college, and I start in less than a fortnight!

Doikers 15-01-2012 12:13 PM

*Hugs Pretty Reckless , Heather and Feli*

Laura2.0 15-01-2012 01:12 PM

*hugs Pretty.Reckless* how are you?
*hugs Heather*
*hugs Feli* if you ever need anyone to proof read something for your course feel free to pm me... I'm a native speaker.
*hugs Mark*

Louise 15-01-2012 06:39 PM

hugs everyone

Laura2.0 15-01-2012 08:57 PM

*hugs Louise* how are you?

Doikers 15-01-2012 11:19 PM

*Night time Hugs my Wardies*

one_step_closer 16-01-2012 12:30 PM

Hope everyone has a good day.

Laura2.0 16-01-2012 05:05 PM

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Lindsay*
*spots Feli*

I just came home from therapy. Something went wrong today

Pretty.Reckless 16-01-2012 06:07 PM

Thanks for the hugs guys..

Mute.Scream: I've been better thanks. I hope youre ok. What went wrong if you dont mind me asking? *hugsss*

Laura2.0 16-01-2012 09:37 PM

*hugs Pretty.Reckless*

my therapist and I were working on creating a safe place (mentally), (I think it's some kind of hypnosis). Instead of coming back at the end I went the wrong direction and was dissociated and I think I had some kind of flashback.
You can read about it in my thread http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...d.php?t=180885.

one_step_closer 17-01-2012 10:20 AM

Laura, that sounds really distressing. *hugs*

Doikers 17-01-2012 10:32 AM

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Pretty Reckless*

*Hugs Lindsay*

one_step_closer 17-01-2012 03:22 PM

How are you today, Mark?

Doikers 17-01-2012 04:57 PM

Iffy , Could really use a drink but that'll solve nothing , Head vs Heart :/ How are you Lindsay?

one_step_closer 17-01-2012 08:09 PM

It's good that you recognise that it won't solve anything, I hope you can find something that helps.

I'm feeling at a loss about how to move forward. I need some help with my anxiety but i've tried lots of anxiety management techniques and they don't work. I was going to ask my GP if there is some medication I can try but my OT is against it.

Doikers 17-01-2012 08:57 PM

*Huge Hugs Lindsay* I'd be glad to share things I do to relax sometimes if you like , They may be a bit .... aalternative and / or new age , but I'm happy to share , they might help anxiety??

Laura2.0 17-01-2012 10:47 PM

*hugs Lindsay* I would talk to your GP anyway, just to get a second opinion.
*hugs Mark*

Doikers 17-01-2012 11:04 PM

*Hugs Laura*

m0nk 18-01-2012 11:31 AM


Louise 18-01-2012 03:32 PM

hugs everyone

m0nk 18-01-2012 07:44 PM

you say you wanna help
you swear you'll be right there
you promise you'll understand
you assure me that you'll care

but everytime I go to you, its all just in vain
you don't know how to help me
you can't take away my pain

you're only capable of love but love's not all I need
I need you to listen, to understand, these desperate words you should heed


I don't know whats wrong with me
how its all so damn @#%$ up
how last night I tried to take a knife
and make myself a cut

Another attempted scar upon my arm, blessed be for all to see
I need you to help me because
I fear I may drown in my own weakness and misery



maybe there is something wrong with me
put on display for all to see
but that's just fine
I'll sit and slit to pass the time
strip my sleeves and show my wounds
probably then you'd sing a different tune

months and years of strife and stress
repressing things that shouldnt be repressed
and all this @#%$ time you couldn't guess

didn't have a @#%$ clue
no idea what to do
sorry to say but that killed me too

can you even begin to comprehend
some of the things I keep locked within
safe and sound away so you dont do see
every little stab of inadequecy

when you go to bed at night do you dream like I
is the ceiling your sky
at which you gaze through translucent eyes
and realize with a soul charred by lies

your life is turning into a disguise

Disgusted, mistrusted, and all that jazz
smile and it wont seem so bad
yeah right.

you dont @#%$ know my plight
you can't understand "fight or flight"
fight a battle and surely lose
or run away to continue this exhausted ruse

Elsewhere.


im like at the far bottom where i can see my soul stearing at me ordering me to start again.
its so ****ed up i wanna be active again.
and my dads not making it any easier getting on the forth ground asking a ton of question with NO ****ING CLUE WHY just cause he wants to.
he has a vision i will break easily but i do.
and it still hurts to have eyes.
my mother never calls no one contacts me. should i break the contact indefinite?
no one wants my attention anymore even though dreams and hopes are all around me. twisting me like a pepsi twist. cant forget the taste cant forget the feelings cant do what i want to do.
i even feel the marijuana necklace burned in my skin watching over me in my dreams so that i always forget the bad side of how i met aliens the first and last time.
never getting lifted never getting appreciated
my "friends" are all tifted
my feelings are all sifted
to this twisted scar its a vision we need to heal

Laura2.0 18-01-2012 08:33 PM

*hugs Mark*
*hugs monk*
*hugs Louise*

Pretty.Reckless 18-01-2012 11:04 PM

Hi guys. I just came to sit. Things are so crazyy.

Doikers 19-01-2012 01:23 AM

*Huggles my wardies*

Laura2.0 19-01-2012 05:18 PM

*hugs Pretty.Reckless* (sorry... don't know your name)
*hugs Mark* how are you today?

Doikers 19-01-2012 10:47 PM

Freaking Out about my Benfits Medical Laura , How are you Hun ? *Hugs
*

one_step_closer 20-01-2012 01:34 PM

Hi everyone. *hugs for all*

Louise 20-01-2012 07:13 PM

hugs everyone - how are you all

Laura2.0 20-01-2012 07:44 PM

*hugs Mark* oh... I hate it when there is so much worry about money.
*hugs Lindsay*
*hugs Louise*

Do you know the feeling when everything is annoying? I'm so easily annoyed lately. I get annoyed of the way the blanket was touching my back. And I get annoyed when someone in the room is talking on the phone. I get annoyed when the page of my book makes a noise when I turn the page. I hate it when I'm getting annoyed so easily, it makes me want to sh because I'm getting annoyed with how easily I'm getting annoyed.

one_step_closer 20-01-2012 07:48 PM

I know that feeling, Laura. Is there something that you enjy doing that won't annoy you? Maybe listening to music would at least drown out some of the sounds that are annoying you.

I'm in so much emotional pain. Just want to die. So sick of considering how my death would effect everyone else.

Laura2.0 20-01-2012 08:01 PM

*huggles Lindsay* do you want to talk about why you are feeling that way?

I am listening to music, and being on the computer takes enough of my fokus so I don't get annoyed of other things. It's just the fact that I 'fled' from the rest of the family, because I'm getting so annoyed. I want to be more sociable in my family if that makes sense? I don't want others to be extra cautious because I'm getting annoyed all the time, so I'm spending a lot of time alone lately. I don't want to isolate myself though... meh.

daisy* 21-01-2012 06:24 AM

Hello,
anybody around at this hour?

one_step_closer 21-01-2012 11:45 AM

Hi Daisy, sorry for the late reply. How are you?

Doikers 21-01-2012 11:59 AM

*Hugs Daisy if okay?*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Louise*

one_step_closer 21-01-2012 12:17 PM

How's Mark today?

Laura2.0 21-01-2012 06:25 PM

*hugs Daisy if ok*
*hugs Lindsay* how are you?
*hugs Mark*

one_step_closer 21-01-2012 07:24 PM

I'm not too great at the moment. How are you, Laura?

Laura2.0 21-01-2012 09:14 PM

Tired. I spent almost the whole day with my best friend and now I'm exhausted.
Is there anything going on that's making you feel bad or did it come out of nowhere?


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