*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Sefka*

*Hugs Crimson*

Sorry Hugs are all I have right now......

*cuddles Mark*

*hugs Louise*

*hugs all*

The urge to OD is really really bad, I have the meds in front of me, god I'm so useless really want to, sorry stupid me for taking up space.

NOT Stupid you Oliver , I know how tempting it can be , try and put the pills in a cupboard? Out of Sight may just equal out of Mind a little ?

*sits in my pillow fort focusing on breathing*
I don't know how much more of this I can take...

Not much to say, I just wanted to check in. *Hugs to all*

*Sneaks back to corner to hide*

*hugs Jeff and Alexx*

Well after typing in my blog for an hour (literally) I feel better. Still cranky and a bit on edge but better...

*Hugs Oliver* I'm sorry your not feeling great, you are not useless or stupid. I'm sorry about the situation with your friend.

*Hugs Mark* I wish you all the best for your appointment on Friday

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs MJ*

*Hugs Kahlia* You are certainly not a bad wardie, you cant help not being around. I hope the move goes ok.

*Hugs Alex* I'm sorry your not feeling great

*Hugs Mors Certa*

*Hugs Sefka* im Ian by the way

*Hugs Crimson* I hope your conselling goes ok tomorrow

*Hugs Louise*

I'm not feeling great :-( feel depressed and fed up. Maybe il feel better later on in the morning. I guess i could always kid myself that il be better but i doubt it. Just feel like giving up right now. I'm pathetic i really am.

*cuddles Ian*
you are not pathetic, you're just struggling right now.

*hugs everyone*
Good night/morning my lovely wardies :)

*hugs everyone*

wish i could take everyones pain away and die so ya'll never have anymore!

*hides back in corner*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Alexx*

*Hugs Jeff*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Michelle*

My Psych Appointment is tomorrow , getting more anxious by the minute........ Sorry.

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Lindsay*

I Injured.
I am SO Happy to be engaged to Felicia , never been more happy or excited but at the same time I can't shake feeling sad and low , WTF?

*hugs mark*
*hugs lindsay*
*hugs michelle*
*hugs ian*
*hugs crimson*
*hugs alexx* hope the meds are working now
*hugs Jeff*
*hugs Oliver* how are you?
*hugs louise*

*hugs every one*

I suck :-(

You don't suck MJ.

*hugs*

I so wish I had my own flat. I hate living at home... I like being alone too much :-(

*hugs and balloons for everyone*

MJ, you don't suck - anything in particular that's making you feel like that?

Rhi - I can totally sympathise. My flatmate's fine but not the kind of person I can talk to about anything. Who do you live with?

Mark - all the best for the appointment (is it over yet?)

I did counselling earlier and I'm okay but slightly dazed. Love to everyone xx

*hugs Sarah*

I live between University where I live with 2 other girls and at home with my mum. Both places drive me insane! When I'm by myself I can just relax and not have to think...

I'm thinking of starting a fund to buy an island for us all to go live on. We could build our own little huts!

Yeah Rhi!! With signs that say "This person is currently : ..." And if you put anti-social in the gap, you'd be left alone.

I'm lucky in that I live with my Nana, but I have my own room, and it's perfect. Nana's downstairs all day, so I don't really get bothered too much.

I was meant to go to an appt today, but I didn't. Partly due to anxiety and partly due to not being able to get up.

I wish I had some friends that I could go to for actual hugs. :-(

I would give you actual hugs MJ! I'm a great hugger/cuddler!

At Uni I'm in a flat and at home It's a bungalow! I'd love an upstairs lol In our old house I was in the attic and it was bliss!!!

Where abouts in South Wales do you live? I'm from Wales!

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs MJ* You do NOT suck!

*Hugs Rhi* I moved out of home year and a half or so ago , being alone is nice but can get lonely but has iit's perks.

*Hugs Sefka* Thanks Hun , My Appointment is tomorrow morning at 10am British time :S

Anyone ever been focused, like super hyper focused, on nothing...? Just like totally focused on blankness?

Yes Crimson , I have , It's an odd feeling when you snap out of it.

*Nighttime Hugs My Wardies*

I took plenty of Diaz , SO Anxious for tomorrow Psych appointment , Wish me luck Guys and thankyou for all the positive vibes :)

Good luck, Mark. I really hope that it goes well for you.

Hello all :)

Erm...Charlie and I have returned for a few moments to tell you something.

Lol, this feels strange, I don't really know how to say it. :/

Well, Charlie doesn't know what to say. As you read.

I could give you all the really long version, or just in a nutshell, after 4 long months of careful pulling and wooing skills from Charlie, she's finally persuaded me to run with the wild horses. I'm terrified but working with it. Basically, we're a couple :)

Nice way of putting it Lia :)
What she said ^^
So yeah, we just thought we'd come in and let you all know, as the ward helped us so much, and we met in here. :)

*hugs Lia and Charlie* Congrats :)

Thanks Crimson :) *Hugs* How have you been?

eh... not great but I will not bring the rain in with me today.
*hugs*

*Hugs Crimson*
Taa :)
Feel free to rant if you need to. :)

What Charlie said, it's fine if you want to rant, don't mind raining on our parade, we just came here to tell you all the news :) We shouldn't even still be here...

*hugs charlie and lia* congrats you two.

*hugs crimson and everyone else*

eh... ranted for an hour yesterday in my blog... I think i can hold off another rant so soon.
*hugs Laura, Lia n Charlie*

Congratulations Lia and Charlie! I'm very pleased for you :)

*Hugs Lia, Charlie, Laura and Crimson*

*Hugs Laura, Ian and Crimson*

Thanks Laura and Ian :) How are you both?

I should really leave...I left here and this isn't healthy, but I only realised now how much I've really missed being here.

That's okay Lia. We missed you too :)

I should sleep now. Night night guys. I love and miss you. I'll visit again someday.

Well done Lia and Charlie xx

I'm so so so so sorry, I don't want to hijack... but it's late, I'm desperate and I've run out of distractions :crying:

Im here and listening Sarah *hugs*

If you have facebook and want to talk on facebook chat you can add me to facebook. The link to my facebook is in my profile hun.

xx

Thanks. I'm really sorry. I don't even know why I'm trying not to do this.

Had a look at your facebook. I know it's weird, but I just think if I share my facebook here, people will see who I really am and will hate me.

I'm so messed up this evening.

Sorry again.

Dont be sorry! Do you mean you dont know why your trying not to si?

Yes. I mean - I know if I do it, I'll immediately feel better. And I know if I don't, I'll eventually get off to sleep and wake up tomorrow feeling worse and more likely to do it tomorrow.

Sorry, I don't want to be all self-pitying and pathetic. I'm horrible.

your not self pitying, pathetic or horrible.

The battle to stop self harming is hard. But eventually you will feel good for not doing it. Try to think about something else.

Have you ever played http://www.seenandshared.com/circle-the-cat.htm ???

I find it distracting.

Thanks :)

I've caught the cat a few times. I think I'm going to try and get some sleep. Thanks so much for talking with me - means a lot xx