*Peeks in*
Are you sure it's ok for me to come back? :( I completley understand if you don't want me....

*Hugs Nicole* The ward woulden't be the same without you hun , I Want you here :)

*Hugs Mark* Thankyou :) I really am sorry about last night, I felt really low, I started off thinking that you all hated me, then went on to think about how much I love you all and how I didn't wanna hurt you, so I should just leave before I hurt everyone. So I said I was leaving, But Lia kept texting me and trying to persuade me to come back, I had a good cry, and calmed down and agreed to come back.

*cuddles Nicole* We all love you here, the ward would be so different without you

Oh Nicole *Hugs* , sometimes I have days like that but you wouldn't hurt us by sticking around , if anything we would miss you terribly , I think about the ward and the name "Nicole" is always one of the first that pops into my head :)

*Hugs Mark and Sarah*
Thankyou so much guys :) You are all amazing people!
I am so thankful to Lia aswell, she calmed me down as I was just about to text all my friends IRL and tell them to leave me alone too :/

*cuddles Nicole* you're wonderful, please stay :)

hugs nicole we all want you to stay.

*Spots and Hugs Kitty*

-hugs mark-

*snuggles Ward* I feel strange again, Think I definately need to go get a diagnosis to see whats wrong with me so they can treat me. This doesn't feel right.

-hugs sarah-

*cuddles Kitty* My paranoia is getting worse, to the point I can't cope with people speaking in different languages around me because they're talking about me. I can't get comfortable because I'm certain people are mocking me inside their heads. Bah.

*Squishes Sarah*

*squishes Mark*

I would never mock you Sarah hun , Inside or outside my head *Hugs*

Thanks Mark *cuddles* x

Know how you feel there, Sarah. I would never mock you, either. -hugs again-

*snuggles Kitty* thanks darling

hugs all, hmm not sure if drinking is the best idea, with the way im feeling today. but im past careing. meh

-hugs shadowed-

*Hugs Jill* I'm drinking too , please be careful hun:S

*hugs everyone* Hi guys

hugs mark back, im trying just want to get wasted. be careful as well hun.

I am being careful Jill, You take good care ya hear? *Hugs*

*Hugs Shannon* How are you tonight?

-hugs shannon-

hmm what is the point in all this. its just more **** after more ****. im so cant do this anymore.

*holds shadowedsoul* There is a point, idk what it is to tell you yet, but there is one.

Bearing in mind I'm in bed in 30 minutes whats up Jill?

hugs mark, thanks mark, but it doesnt matter.

*Hugs Jill* It does matter.

Why can I do nothing but hurt folk?

hugs lia, you dont hurt folks hun? you okay
hugs sdixon thank you.

-hugs lia- you don't hurt anyone..

Yes I do. I do it all the time. It's all I do. I push people out, I let them down, I'm cold, I'm horrible.

*Hugs Kitty* How are you?

I have made a decision about something...just don't know the "when" factor yet. But I am going to go take a shower now.

hugs lia,*shakes head* no your not, your not any of those thing girly.

Kitty, a decision about what?

*Hugs Jill* thanks :)

Wow. 'You just seem uncaring'. The text I just got from the one person who I has told me that I'm not an Ice Queen, not cold hearted, not a bitch. She's seen that side of me but still she thinks that. She sees at last. And you know what? I'm not going to hurt anyone else with this. I want to protect you all from this part of me and I think that means being here to support you only.

hugs lia, i dont think your uncaring hun. just like me hate to show your emotions, or have a hard time showing your emotions. if that makes any sence.you dont deserve pain hun.

I'm back.

-hugs lia- you are not uncaring. I care about you.

-hugs shadowedsoul-

Anyone still here?

I am. How are you Kitty?

-shrugs- It doesn't matter anymore. Never really did. You ok Lia? -hugs-

curls up

It does matter Kitty. It's always mattered.

*Hugs Jill*

-hugs jill-

I don't know how I'm doing. I'm just kind of blah. Like I said, made a decision, now I'm just waiting to figure out the "when" factor. How are you?

Sorry it took so long to reply. Gotta keep hiding the screen. I'm here though.

hugs kitty, and lia. hmm im feeling really low, i just want to die. struggling to not act on that feeling. there is enough tablets here to do some damage. sorry i dont know anymore.

-hugs jill- I know how you feel. Is there anyone you can call? Or could you go to a hospital? Maybe call a crisis line? Sorry I don't really know what else to suggest..

Going to eat dinner. Be back soon. Won't take long. If you need me, feel free to PM me..

Jill, please don't do anything honey. Decide on a safe place, like your bed, and tell yourself you can't do anything there then make sure you don't move. Don't leave your soft spot and keep everything harmful away from it.
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hugs lia, and kitty. hmm going to try that. dont worry about me.