*Hugs Oliver* Thanks :)

*Waves to Ella* How are you ?

* waves at everyone * Am good ...waiting for my husband to get back from the shop with my monster.

Oliver i think you should call the Samaritans please try and seek help you need and deserve

*waves to Ella* I'll try to, just don't like talking on the phone or calling people for help.

I understand, i dont like talking on the phone myself and seeking help.
Keep talking here and try and keep distracted.

I'll be here for another 15 mins but then I'm off cos I've got to get the train back to Manchester, so I won't be back on here until this evening, around 7.30, but I'll try to come back on instead of ODing

Please take care of yourself and ill see you when you come online again

*hugs oliver* Please look after yourself, and please try to come on line and talk to us instead of OD'ing though I know it easier said than done.

*hugs Ella*

*Hugs Louise* How are you hun?

I went to my non-excistant accuupuncture session , was just leaving after grabbing some water and heard a voice calling me and it was Sharron my worker who is on Maturnity leave calling me , so we walked and talked a bit , I'm just happy to have caught her and her infant son Willem , she is like my big sister , I haven't seen up until today this year , YEY :D

blates teddy isnt big enuff >.>
*cuddles everyone*

*curls up alone*

*Squashes Laura* How is it to be home?

*hugs Louise, Mark, Heather and Laura* *waves at Ella*

I'm home now, still want to OD, but trying to keep myself distracted. I had an awful moment earlier, my teddy had fallen out of my bag on the way back from the station so I had to go back and look for him, found him on the edge of the road poor thing, but I found him which is good, have had him since birth

Am so glad you got your teddy back ...Sorry you are still feeling the same with wanting to OD.
We can talk here instead of you doing that ....i have to go for a bath in half an hour but ill be back on at lest until 11pm.

My husband has a bunny thats he has had since birth he keeps it in our bed and never sleeps with out him.
What color is your teddy ?
have you named him ?

Thanks Ella. My teddy is a light brown colour and he is called William.

how are you doing?

Am doing ok .
Listening to some music and waiting for the hot water for my bath.
Am all aches and pains because i walked a lot today doing shopping and getting a game for my husband
so i bath will be great for my legs and back.

was the train busy ?
what are you up to at the moment?

I want some monster but my husband said ill be up all night if i drink that now.
I think he is right lol

yeah baths are good for that sort of thing.

yeah the train was pretty busy, but I took a dizepam to calm myself down and just watched a comedy show.
I'm just on facebook and watching more comedy at the moment.

hehe I think your husband may be right, monster at this time is a little silly :P

OOOOHHHHHHHHHHH Oliver , Isn't Diaz wonderful?Here for you

*Waves at Ella*

*hugs Mark* yeah it is pretty good. I would have literally not coped on the train without it

back from my bath my legs and back arent hurting as much now.
Feel a little triggered feel like cutting
:(

I'm glad the bath helped a bit Ella. sorry your triggered can you do anything to distract yourself.

the urge to OD is getting worse, sat here shaking like a leaf, my heart pounding.