u wanna come in my fort mark

Yes may I Julie ?

*Finds a corner in Julies Fort , curls up and tries to snooze*

*Night Night ward mates:)*

*Hugs Mark* We'll all be here to support you on your birthday and you say you have people IRL who can help you through it as well. It won't be the easiest day, but you'll get through it. I know you will. And think of the day you set to commit suicide as an achievment. It shows how far you've come that that is no longer your plan.

I'm trying, it's just I don't know what to do. Her mum, her reliable, efficiant, organised mum is suicidal and thinking of leaving her dad, who she doesn't get on well with. My friend is extremely quiet and shy and I don't think she would cope without her mum. If her mum leaves, she won't come back and my friend's dad is thinking about moving to Egypt, to live with cousins she hates thousands of miles away from everything she knows. And he's blaming her for everything. I found all this out this morning, and so did she. I don't know how to help, I've said I will be there for her, and given her several hugs and a shoulder to cry on, but I don't know how much more I can do but I feel so useless.

*hugs ward*

Wow Lia your friend really has had the shittiest day. Has she any other support other than you?

Mark, you'll get through your birthday & the 9th. Try not to think about it if you can.

*cuddles everyone tight* thinking of all of you.

Useless at the moment.

*Hugs Laura* you're not useless hun :)

*Hugs Helen* Thankyou :)

*Hugs Lia* Thankyou too :)

Laura, you're not useless at all *cuddles tight*

Mark, you're welcome *cuddles*

*hugs ward*

not useless laura <3

*curls up in corner tiredly*
class... woo ><
just wanna sleep

Anyone about for a little chat ? even if it is going over old ground . Sorry

I am here.

Hey Louise :) How are you? I am worried , I cut last night , don't worry I looked after okay , but I am getting more and more anxious over my birthday and the 9th as they approach and I think I am going to be asking for a LOT of support here in the ward butI don't want to ask for too much as I don't want to piss anyone off , I have appoinments at 2pm,2pm,3pm and 4pm on the 9th and my social worker is back at work and visiting me on the 8th and I have the number for a 24 hour mental health helpline for the evening I'm still anxious though , I do have Diaz which I am going to rely on on my birthday I think .

you will not piss anyone off, we want to support you. what is making you anxious about your birthday

I don't want to come over as monopolising the chat :S
I'm worried about being 30, I probably will want to cut but I'll be at my parents so I can't really . How can I be 30 and my life revolve around , Mental illness , S.I. and alcohol ? when I am 30 I will have been cutting for 16 years ! That scares and overwhelms me.

It's understandable that it scares and overhelms you, but your not alone and maybe in one way it is could that you will be with your parents least you will not be alone. And also you have us.

*Hugs Louise* Thankyou :)

be gentle with yourself and take things easly.

Being hard on myself is a trait , my support workers and Nurse have said , does that come over ? I will try and be gentle to myself :)

*Hugs and spots Crimson* How are you today ?:)

Well I'm off to my parents for the weekend , I'd better turn off my computor in readyness , Will try and be on on my parents lappy :)