Carole, thanks for the advice... though I'm not going to say a word about this to anyone outside of this site... would cause WAY too many problems :notsure: . Anyway, I woke up this morning so no worries, right?

want to die-want to just quit everything
i cant do life anymore im rubbish and just wnt out of everything it would be so muh easier for everyone else if i was gone

I want to OD again... Don't know why... Nothing happened from last nights... I know I shouldn't... I won't...but I want to...and I don't want to want to...
*huddles in her corner with her head on her knees and rocks back and forth slightly*
I suck...

*hugs jo* don't give up...u worked so hard to get to ur point and u don't wanna give it all up. Ur a special person xoxo

**hugs ally** u don't suck....at least u stayed safe which is the main thing..well i hope u did xoxo

Afrrrrrgh.

Can I PLEASE sleep through tomorrow & monday? Yeah?

tried to get myself killed last night told everyone it would be easier-i dont want to be pregnant-just want to forget everything but even the alcohol doesnt work-i hate it all-want to forget
xxxxxx

^^ Umm, forgive me for pointing out the obvious but you really shouldn't be drinking if you are pregnant.

im not 100% yet but i know but i cant do this

Well I'm sorry you are feeling so bad right now. Is there anyone you could talk to, a friend or family member or doctor maybe? Or you could try to distract yourself, maybe read a book or something.

**hugs Jo**

Plz tc of urself there xxx

Thanks Jetforce...wouldn't call ODing 'being safe' or the fact that I didn't call poision control or the hospital a good idea... but hey, I'm still around.

*hugs newlife*
Sweetie, please, please, please take care.

*curls back up into her corner and sleeps*

I'm not travelling home until tomorrow, another night with my family will be fine as long as I stay calm and don't give into any bad thoughts.
I know I need a bath, change my clothes. But I'm just going to lie on the sofa and try not to show my family how broken I feel.

Not an idoit hunnie *hugs*

Crying is good :] Wish I could do it easier than I do...

Haven't had a seriously good cry since September.... =S

not preganant-want to be dead still-noone would care-i hate this ife-ight aswell get drunk again

*checks in, gathers up duvets and pillows and settles in a corner.*
Just need somewhere safe to sleep. I feel lonely and sad, and need to rest. Can I stay here for a while? I don't want to hurt myself again, not really. :-(

I feel stressed =[

*comes in to sleep*

My friend and I are going to a dance together.
He doesn't like girls. I don't like guys.
But we're pretending so people won't know.

I'm sick of having to pretend though :(
*curls up under blanket*

i feel totally useless right now :-(

I'm really scared.

*hugs all*

i have to get help

My neck is killing me, whiplash perhaps?

Should go to hospital tomorrow but haven't got the patience?

F**k...

Hi all. Can I sneak in for a bit. Until my exam results come out on the 10th perhaps ?

**hugs Kahlia**

Of course :) good luck with ur exams...i'm sure u did well in them

Can we hurry up to thursday night please?

Argh, having a week of hell but goodness too.

aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

*tear*
Some jerk came through my line at work today and was TOTALLY insinsitive. Was cutting some bread for him and came close to my finger. Jokeingly said 'Almost cut my finger off, that wouldn't be good'. He said no and then said 'Looks like you've already started on your arms'!!! I didn't know what to say! I just kept making his sandwich and smiled weakly when I gave it to him. I wanted to die!! (We have to wear t-shirts at work so my scars and cuts are visible)
I guess tonights an alcohol night...

Oh my, Ally are you ok hun, well obv not but you know what I mean. x

I'll live dancedance.
I'm sorry to hear you're weeks been hard hunni. What does thursday bring?

Good :) Or you being sarky?

It's been good aswell- new boyfriend (scared of getting hurt), finishing my ucas application...thursday will be good. Me & my best friend are watching the christmas lights switch on && then meetin my dad for a pizza (I see my dad once a week- every thursday).

My teacher has really upset me meh, and it was like nearly 12 hours ago.

Well I'm glad it's been good then. Sorry about your teacher...they can be good at that.

Oh I'll live...decided against an overdose of pain meds (mostly because I already have to fess up to one) and decided to hit the alcohol. Meh. What do you do?

I feel useless again :-(

Such a failure i am hmmm...

I wish i could just go and die

*hugs Carole and Jetforce*
I'm sorry y'all are feeling so awful...
Please take care...I wish I had more for you...do remember though that neither of you is useless...you're both wonderful people.

ally, that sounds like a horrible experience. People can be so insensitive and think everything is a joke. *hugs* hope you feel better soon. x

Please take care guys.

I've been off poorly sick and haven't been able to get anyone to see if I have whiplash. Just don't have the patience to wait anymore...so don't think I'm going to bother.

You should get it checked out- neck injuries can be very unpleasant and last a while.
Waiting around sucks but it is important to get it checked. Even if it's for insurance claims etc in the future.
*hugs*

*cries* i dont want to live in my house anymore i just want to go home, is that so wrong?

No, that's not wrong...?

Thanks toffeegirl, I'll be alright... I'm just hopeing he doesn't come through my line again today...
Dancedance, please take care. You really should get your neck looked at...my moms been in a few car accidents and it's screwed up her neck and bacn so bad...you really don't want to leave it.
shadowedseraph, hunni I don't want to answer that till I know where 'home' is if it's not your house...I'm sorry you're feeling so lousy sweetie please take care.

*hugs you all*

Thanks Ally, gonna mention it to my dad tomorrow and see what he thinks?

*snuggles Sasuke*
Sorry to hear about the arguing going on...

*hides again in her corner with her stuffed lamb and blanket and cries :crying:*

I feel awful, I just want to die...

I wanna cuddle. :(

*cuddles Ileana*

I need a hug I think. But I can't make a post about what's wrong cuz my roommate will get mad at me for typing too much while she's trying to sleep. Plus my hands are shaking. :crying: